Tomorrow Never Knows

2009-04-12T09:34:00.000-07:00

shit. havnt posted for ages.

ahh well.. for 10 days..ill be at home while all u buggers will be in school. i got HFMD..probably got it from josh yesterday.

yesterday was a real fun. we celebrated keenan's birthday 1 day earlier.. so at first i had to wake up at like 6 am and reached sembawang MRT at about 8. I had a fever previously so i had to take another train coz i had to stop at kallang to throw up.. sick.. i LOST 4 KG FROM THE PAST WEEK!!! crazy shit.. when u have tonsils u dont feel like ating anything ..tt results in lack of appetite which leads to crazy weight loss.. even melissa's heavier than me now!!

so yah..since our earlier plan to surprise keenan at the beach was screwed up.. we had to resort to plan B; which was to surprise keenan at his house while he was still asleep.. there was a twist ..when dillon melissa and I met kevan (keenan's bro).. he said keenan was half naked!!!
HAHAHAHA! that made my day.. frking funny.. too bad keenan's dog barked a bit too early..alarming us and making the surprise a bit too hurried..but he was especially surprised when he saw dillon with the epiphone semi acoustic guitar...

then keenan and I went to the mrt to get the rest..eunice came first ..then keenan went to his house first and i had to wait for dennis, bryan lum and ZACH!!! (back from australia on holiday here) and shankkar..lol shankkar was wearing a vest and skinnies to the beach!!!!hahahaha...

the beach sucked.. so we covered that by talking alot of nosense.. haha. then we planned to go cineleisure.. but then josh came ..haha..all of us were damn surprised.. so talk here talk there.. we walked from orchard to cineleisure.. then we went to some foodcourt..we had the "pay 5 dollar for a picture witht eh korean" session.. and then we had some cake..sadly without manick..haha...he came later... then watched fast and furiosu 4.. kindaa sucked.. only one proper illgal race..sigh..thenn manick came..

2009-03-21T08:02:00.000-07:00

spent the one week holidays procrastinating, performing and walking around vivo..

first saturday-stand up performance

thursday- caught paul blart mall cop with josh,keenan and his friend

next saturday (today)- went to watch danceworks..sji got 4th. not bad..

keenan giving eunice a rose was normal..but the scene before giving the rose was the joke.. my god..shd have seen him.BALLLESS!!

2009-03-17T03:35:00.000-07:00

waiting in sweet idolatry.. not so good after all

You could wait for a lifetime to spend your days in the sunshine, you might as well do the white line', cause when it comes on top, you've gotta make it happen-cigarettes and alcohol by oasis

i feel freaking lazy. havnt even touched any of my hw. i dunno but if all goes well.. hope i could finish everything by saturday. i called up those organizing the camp so i could cancel it. thank god..they understand my situation.. but i still havnt got a reply. i just wanna spend these holidays with a relaxed mind...knowing that i have time to catch up on getiing my desired 70 percent for term 2. scrwed u[ term 1 with 59. just like many of those who were not in surjeet kaur's or christina leongs or j wong's SS class.. i failed SS but got 81 for elect hist.. brining my SS to only 63. disappointing.

but i gotta catch up. shocked that i actually like math nowadays.. perhaps i just didnt have any motivation previously. and i'd like to thank jack for introducing me to his tutition teacher hershey who's damn good at english. omg..he's like too good..he doesnt even teach u what ur normal enlgish teacher would teach.. awesome right? and jack got like 25/30 for his situaitional.

nthing much planned for hols.. mainly go watch movie with some ppl..a nd then jam on saturday..hopefully lum can make it.. oh yea dennis is coming.. in n lil while by u2,your body is a wonderland by john mayer and cigarettes and alcohol by oasis

adieu

2009-03-16T05:04:00.000-07:00

2009-03-15T21:25:00.000-07:00

Boxmen

STAND UP! movement

A little girl with Spanish eyes when I saw her first in a pram they pushed her by...oh my, my how you've grown...well it's been, it's been...a little while - in a little while by u2

stand up was great. apart from giving out alot of flyers and stuff, we got awesome shirt. and also our side act gig that we did. we called ourselves he boxmen. yes "get a box put some people in it..boxmen"-josh

so we started our first part with 4 songs coz the mp was already arriving. so we started with supersonic by aosis .. and my bro came first.. thenw e did livefoever and then acquiesce and then imagine by lennon that was when my mom and sisters came. lol we did quit well.

then we practiced wonderwall coz some of em asked us to do wonderwall..so then second part at 6pm started with roll with it by oasis, beautiful dau by u2 ,wonderwal and acquisce aagain.. cool eh?

but we got scrwed by de wei (one of the organizers fro the y2y) coz he said we were not really very professional in terms of attitude..well first gig.. we screw up now so we dont screw up later..

but not bad.. we had some ppl asking us questions abotu our band and saying we did well.. and some university magazine asked us some questions too.

Myself

ladies and gentlemen...dillon keshvani with the les paul Guai LAN! It's keenan Gan bang bang

Bryan Freaking LUM PPL!

It's Not Che Gueverra.its joshua chan!

I know a girl called Elsa

2009-03-12T05:29:00.000-07:00

I know a girl called Elsa

She's into Alka Seltzer she sniffs it through a cane on a supersonic train-supersonic by oasis

2 more days and im freaking scared. it aint as easy as it looks..really. 8 songs. so far we've only rehearsed three which was last saturday and tmrw's gonna be the whole set list..

supersonic-oasis
live forever-oasis
acquiesce-oasis
some might say-oasis
roll with it-oasis
beautiful day-u2
one-u2
imagine-john lennon

another thing im frking scared of is those u2 songs.. especially beautiful day..its not tt the drumming is hard but the timing is confused..and things are getting worse coz my crash had no stand and it sounds weird.. zidijian but no stand.. im trying best..please jack.please !!!

2009-03-10T05:38:00.001-07:00

omfg.

how long has it been since i posted? stupid term 1 common tests..studied reasonablly hard and got shit results.. worst disappointment is combined humanitites..gt like 81 for history but coz of my wonderful ss teacher..(half the class failed) i got 45..and total for combined got 63! like wtf?

lots of things have happened.. hockey ended miserably..quite pissed with people like aravin who keep rubbing it in.. but hey.he's an amoeba.. single cell organism..recently eveolved into double cell.

another disappointement was lit.. got 17/25..frking pissed..but haizzzz... its over..

whats not over.. is the official stand up movement launch! and we the "boxmen" are perfoming a 6-9 songs perfomance ..from 1-8..but with a hell loada intervals.mainly comprising of oasis and u2 songs though..u2 got beautiful day and one and oasis; some might say,live forever,supersonic,acquiesce,roll with it and lennon;imagine.. not confirm though

band: bryan "freaking" lum (guitar)
dillon "paedo" keshvani (guitar)
keenan Gan "bang bang" (vocals/backing vovcals)
joshua "achookemadha" chan (vocals/backing vocals)
mysefl (percussion)

so..show ur support peeps..

another thing is. OASIS IS FRKING COMING TO SINGAPORE U FAGS!!!! OASIS!!!! april 5th!! SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM

2009-02-02T06:22:00.000-08:00

"One man caught on a barbed wire fence, one man he resist, one man washed up on an empty beach, one man betrayed with a kiss"-pride (in the name of love) by U2

Tmrw, is practically the day that starts the tournament for us, sji hockey..and that too, with RI.. but nevertheless this is actually our most important match yet, to decide if we even have the potential to get top 4 this year...why? because, RI, apparently isn't as good as last year's B div i think..or was it the year before that? not sure..i know its theone with tt star player, balu or something.

so anyway, RI..sam cheong isn't gonna be starting keeper..instead its hass..but i have alot of confidence in hass..coz i noe when he knows something is important he wil pour his heart out.. honestly speaking... and our backs,halves and forwards are all good players.and i think if anyone of em gets injured, we can immediately sub in..coz those of us on bench aren't that bad.

so, im quite happy about everything now. And i expect some support tmrw..so all of you got nothing else better to do than to "beat on the brat" while you're idling around in your sickly homes.. fucking come down to northland and support SJI!

btw..quote of the day has to go to mr joseph wong.. (phone rings in the middle of elect history class..in 325) then he reads an sms.."my ex student asked me what to use to make his hair shiny..how?"..and when he saw me in the canteen he was like..looking blankly everywhere..and saying

"thunder! lightning! too dark to see!!!! pray for rain god!!! pray for rain!!! i cannot see the voice i hear!!! ahh kumarr, there you are"-mr joseph wong

2009-01-30T20:46:00.001-08:00

Down the street you can hear her scream "you're a disgrace"as she slams the door in his drunken face,and now he stands outside and all the neighbours start to gossip and drool"-castles made of sand by jimi hendrix

Castles Made of Sand

today (only 3 hours have passed).. was CRAZY! honestly. i was sleeping..and i could still remember my dream..because i always pop in my earphones wenever im asleep..coz its quite interesting how the last song you listen to could spark and interesting dream..

and in fact..the last song i was listening to was the man who sold the world by nirvana. and coincidentally i had a dream...about saturday.. and i was coming back in a bus and then..there was this big announcement.. that everyone could hear and the dude in the speaker was sayig.. 15 seconds to live..and all of a sudden..everyone started rushing to their homes..and i did the same..and then somehow i ended up in a train..and in the train...the guy said.. "your lives are on hold" and a giant drawer opened.and from it water was seeping out slowly..and in the background..the man who sold the world was playing.. and when it came to the part before the instrumental .."you're face to face..with the man who sold the world" everyone started screaming and then i woke up..and could rmbr at the moment before waking up..i was like.."shit sunday the only day i can jam..i havnt met the japanese rock star..wtf?? why die now?",,haha..and then i woke up..and i swear i was so relieved that it wasnt true.

like 5 minutes after tt..i heard some guy shouting at the door "HELLO! HELLO! OPEN THE DOOR NOW!".. i swear i thought it was some loan shark...then everyone else woke up..and my bro opened the door.and the guy was like.. your brother..ssaid 02-180..he's drunk in my taxi.. then my mom was like.. "no..my son's at work..he went there at 8 already"...then we were quite suspicious..then the guy was like..oh sorry.sorry.. my mom called his phone..but he didnt reply..then my elder bro wentdown to check..and we saw from the window.. a hand with the tattoo"artese" was there.. then e already new it was our eldest bro..i swear..my heart was beating like mad.. so my bro brought him up and my eldest bro was fucking wasted.. he couldn't even walk on hiw own two legs! frking tipsy..and apparently he was at some bar anniversary. and somehow.. he was at jalan bahar police station..and we have no idea why.. and we cant question him coz he's like frking wasted..he left his bag and everythin in an earlier cab..

my god..after that i still couldn't believe i had the heart to go to the gym.. haha eventually my sis and i didnt go..coz we were like the only secondary school students! looked damn weird..us so small..everyone so big.. its like u feel everyone's looking at u..so we didnt go

"And castles made of sand, melt in the sea eventually.."-jimi hendrix

2009-01-30T04:22:00.003-08:00

"you were looking for a day in a life that never came, so don't tell me that I've got to take a number, cause I've been to that doctor and believe me that's a bummer"-fight like a brave by the red hot chili peppers

PURPLE STAIN

so the homework list for this not overly long weekend is..

-physics assigment 4
-physics exercise 4
-chemistry assignment 2.1
-E math graph exercise
-tamil workbook (pg 20-25)
-tamil newspaper article review/summary
-read the 1st story on some tamil book thingy

so far i've not completed any..started on physics assignment 4 a bit.. and i have to finish everything by saturday (tmrw) if nto i cant jam on sunday. sigh.

anyway.. i'm quite concerned for my humanities, because i just realised my lit isn't as good as i thought it would be. It struck me when mrs ang told me i was basically retelling the story of midsummer when i concluded that egeus was insensitive to his daughter's thoughts, rigid and had a lack of good judgment which was due to the pride he had..because he had to protect his reputation.. but then again..how do i get an A without retelling the story. And i always thought it was so easy to simply dig and delve into the play. Actually i can ask my aunt for help since she used to be a damn good lit student from acjc and used to teach midsummer in st gabs. she even directed a play in tt school..and the play was given a very overwhelming response.

so i think im gonna spend this weekend.. really improving on my literature. and speaking of humanities.. im quite concerned about elective history coz mr joseph wong hasn't given us any excercised to do yet..so i dunno where i stand..so far..the only thing i know we are tested on is about the treaty of versailles which i;ve already forgotten. all i know is that its something about it being relatively harsh to the german as the united states saw it..and when we do an essay on it..we should see from the US's view coz they were impartial in ww1. and somethign to do with alot of money they had to pay in debt, cause of the damage germany caused. As for social studies.. mr tan too yong is quite alright.. like we went through the basics on what is a nation,country,sovereignty,state and stuff.. and governance..and dictators like ferdinand marcos and stuff.. and nepotism.. and the cases are quite interesting.. i cant rmbr how u spell his name..was it sukrato? of indonesia.. yah.. he's really damn what..

but still..ferdinand marcos is really dictatorial.. when i saw the picture mr tan showed us..he looked very smart, and people centered.. but of course..pictures can be deceiving.. so philippines was like in a damn bad state already.wtih poverty on the rise and stuff.. then there was this guy against marcos nicknamed aquino.. and there was a point when it was so dangerous..marcos was after aquino.. so aquino was exiled for 3 years i think to the states or something.. there was something about some people killing alot of others in some place..and aquino was among those people..(not the killing people) and an assasin shot him i think.. and in the papers marcos said the military killed the assasin in the mess.. and everyone knew it was a cover up.. so they revolted then marcos fled to the states.. then they found like
tons of designer lingerie.. 2000 designer shoes and tons of pornographic dvds ..everyone dying of poverty and he's there ..wanking away.. sigh...

2009-01-27T06:50:00.000-08:00

"today, is the greatest day i have ever known..can't live till tomorrow, tomorrow's much too long..i burn my eyes out..before i get outttttt..."-today by smashing pumpkins

finally a recount.. even im relieved! btw.. the title above has nothing to with how i felt today.. (the irony of "today" (the song) is that.. today is the greatest day i've ever known..coz it cant get any worse..how smart of billy corgan..)

the day.."today" was kinky.. haha nah just kidding.. if only hass would upload that video of dillon's annoying gasp.. and joshua's coniving "omg..chio bu!" face..

today was particularly quite slack..despite the fact we had 2 tests.. english essay (descriptive) on malcolm park..i don't think i did so well..miss chia told us to write only btwn 300-500 words.. so my essay was 447 words long..but i dont think ill score well.. i dont think ill even reach 20/30.. like.. my first paragraph.. was on introduction to my job as a grass cutter in the park.. and the atmospheere is joyous and everything.. and then i hear children laughing.and it makes me feel nostalgic about how i used to be a child aged 5.. running aroudn the park..without any cause or reason to worry.. coz i had nothing in my hands.. but now i am a grass cutter..returning here after 20 long years.. but i still find the peace everlasting in the place..

then second pragraph..was i think on the scent of the flowers.. (mainly chempaku.. there is no chempaku in malcolm park though) and said.. and the irony.. that people are actually damn afraid of chempaku coz..it symbolizes the dawn of the malay myth "pontianak".. however.. the park's instant recognition was the abundant amoutn of chempaku.. blah blah blah..

then third was on.. some monkey above some tree throwing stuff at me.. while i was grass cutting.. i was angry and shocked at first.. but as it sticked out its tongue and teased me.. i chuckled to myself..blah blah blah..

then fourth.. was on ths case of a female sandal i found.. and decided to investiagate..and searched from bush to shurb..and found a couple making out. they were alarmed blah blah... and the children behind were like.."wtf?" then i ended off with,," thiking of all these.. i could not help but conclude.. this place has not changed a bit."

sigh.. so..dont expect so many marks.. so wth.. i guess i cantget A for english this term. tamil test i think went quite well..i finshed damn fast..and alot of other people didnt even finsih the test.
but as usual anything can happen..if i flunk it.. i wont be shocked..

had hockey jersey thingy today..got number 16! quite happy.. 16 is nice. keenan got stuck wiht my supposed to be number 12..

first match is against RI.. so.. WAR!!

2009-01-27T06:17:00.000-08:00

"Yeah, no one likes a smartarse but we all like stars, that wasn't my intention, I did it for a reason, it must have got mixed up, strangled, beaten up, I got myxomatosis,I got myxomatosis"-Myxamatosis (judge,jury and executioner) by radiohead

Myxamatosis

such a funy title right? i dont even know what it means.. but i think it fits my situation. failed chem and a math class test.. feel damn down already..and what makes it worse is the fact that i cant seem to get the answers for half of the polynomial identities excercise....and i dunno..i just dont feel like doing physics assignment 3.. i looked at the first 2 questions and im like..wtf? how the fuck are you supposed to do? you know the kind of procrastination kind of feeling.. but it isnt really procrastination? sigh..at least im done with everything else.

i feel deprived for some reason. like a hungry african child.. yearning for something.. but i cant seem to figure out what it is im yearning for. like its something to do with lust.. not love, not porn. (xD) im serious..i just dunno. like that feeling of something missing in you.. like you're this big jigsaw puzzle..and there's this tiny piece missing..and you cant seem to find it.. and you probably will never find it. must be the damage all that psychadellic music inflicted in me. (yes especially jimi hendrix.. third stone from the sun is freaking psychadellic!)

my bro was reading watchmen today and he finsihed it.. he said he foudn the ending retraded..i was like..wtf? 26 year old saying its retarded? i mean..its an awesome ending!@!@ he said he finds it really really insane..like why kill rosharch and why is it ozymandias has to kill half of new york to prevent a war.. and i reasoned it out..with whatever a watchmen fan would say.. rorschach is one who sticks to his policies.. he is a very constant person.. u noe..like how he must do things the right way.. his own rendition of right.. and dr manhattan has his code of conduct too.. and ozy doesi it.. coz he's not like them at all.. like some super naiive dude.. almost like a robot.. absolute perfection..no mistakes..

and then i pondered to myself.. is it perfection we huimans want?

like.. is really why we enhance our technology and stuff.. like isnt being human synonymous to imperfect beings.. thats why we feel jealous,happy,angry,lust.. thats why we feel.. right? but at the same time.. everything needs a balance i guess.. so if i was an 8 year old reading watchmen.. i would say i would so wanna be ozymandias..and would probably keep saying in my head,"wouldn't it be nice if the whole world was ozymandias?" but now im like.. "wouldn't the whole world be a shit hole if everyone was ozymandias?"... andim sure ..10 years down the road something else wouild ring in my head.. ozymandias is really a fucking robot.. 12 times human intelligence, isnt what we want.. it makes us less human than we really are , right? and in a world like this.. in a place like a school.. being smart isnt a curse after all.. despite the fact you pose as a threat to many. but why doesnt anyone react? someone so smart.. so smart that he cannot be spoken of as a human? people give him nicknames.. and one of em is "OZYMANDIAS!"

"I dont mind being the smartest man in the world, i just wish it wasn't this one"-ozymandias

2009-01-26T08:55:00.000-08:00

"We should be grateful to the gods, whoever they’re real to they are, I value my placement as in hell, remember that moment that I fell"-Central by John Frusciante

Religion? lose it or keep it? mask it or delude urself?

honestly, what is religion? people have all these diverse religions..like hinduism,christianity,buddhism,muslim.. but dont they all have something in common? how they all require us having some faith in em? right?

like religion is a mask to hope.. how they are just the different ways differnt people can pull through their lives.. like how some who dont have a religion cant cope when they encounter a loss..and their gods are there to pull them through it.. like a sense of optimism,

so in my opinion, hope is synonymous to religion..just that hope comes in different forms to cater to different people.

2009-01-25T23:20:00.002-08:00

"buy gifts, don't steal, don't lift, twenty years of schoolin' and they put you on the day shift"-subterranean homesick blues by bob dylan

Coincidence?

was it pure luck? on chinese new year itself?

mom was making lunch..(chinese lunch) and then i said " could i have instant noodles? coz i skipped dinner yesterday (cause i hibernated)..then she said ahh whatever. then she was cooking and (obviously instant noodles takes only like 2 mins) suddenly the gas went off... then she was like "omg.! we might not have gas today because its cny..meaning the gas peeps might be on holiday or something"..thankfully that instant noodles was already ready.. coincidence?

moral of the story: always act on basic instinct... if you're hungry..don't say..no its alright i can hang on a bit longer..

the continuation? the gas people weren't on holiday..hahaha gas fixed already..oh shit..i think my mom burnt something.. i swear i smell something!

2009-01-25T08:48:00.001-08:00

"frusciante sits on his throne and watches over us delinquents like jesus as he is"-suraendher kumarr on the empyrean 01:21

Anecdote from the empyrean

finding clarity from confusion
searching for answers
through the trees of ignition
looking for fathers
at the end of an initiate
laid a lamb of god
a god that sailed its hate
on a river it fought
sensing the end
the emmpyrean laid its hands
and washed and fanned
but treasuered the times of sand

conclusion: the journey be not spoken of, the end be disposed to and from

the anecdote above was basically a reflection after listening to majority of john frusciante's new album, the empyrean.. he described it as a concept album on his quest to find clarity but at the end he finds that he treasured the journey more than he treasured the end result.. because opposites were mandatory in life, therfore one cannot obtain clarity from confusion.

insightful isnt it? thanks to dillon for telling me about its release.. (actually released a week ago) suggest anyone who likes artistic music.. (if u like pink floyd..give the song before the beginnning a listen)

and is it just me.. or is john frusciante becoming a hell load like a god. first, he looks like jesus, second, he has started on writing concept albums, that weight alot in spirituality.

2009-01-25T03:12:00.000-08:00

the curious case of the curious case of Benjamin button

"I'm not like them, but i can pretend, the sun is gone, but i have a light,the day is gone, but I'm having fun, i think I'm dumb,or maybe just happy"-dumb by nirvana

reflecting on those words.. what is the curious case of the curious case of Benjamin button? ageing backwards.. couldn't that have been the best thing ever!

like can u imagine dying..as a child.. (with no worries, with zero knowledge of whats around you..oblivious to pain..oblivious to how to react to pain..) wont that be the best thing ever? and i mean.... like every day, your worries lessen.. you die an awesomely peaceful death.. as a baby..

its like.. knowing everything and dying without knowing anything..

if only humans were generated to live and function like that... wouldn't our world be a heaven, but of course earth has become a big science experiment.. an experiment of the diversity of human beings.. how they loathe and despise each other and how they react to being despised.. its like we are god's little instruments...

like in watchmen.. how Dr Manhattan, he knows too much and hence becomes disinterested in human affairs.. doesn't that symbolize how Buddha gained enlightenment and left the planet for the greater good. because he knew too much, because he would be of great danger. he would be a threat for others. just like how dr manhattan was a threat to the soviets in the 1980s.. (see the resemblance) so isn't it a blessing to be misunderstood, to be a dumbass..rather than be overestimated by others, posing as a threat. to age backwards is its equivalent.

perhaps, an experiment to further enhance us and bring forth a better world?

so was it just me.. or did the whole trailer of the curious case of Benjamin button alone make you ponder about the nature of reality?

2009-01-24T12:37:00.000-08:00

"A simple prop to occupy my time
This one goes out to the one I love " the one i love-REM

been long long time since i posted. loads have happened. but too much to mention. being a psl was fun. sad that the actual peer support experience/journey has ended.. but im doing my best to prolong it. so i peered with jen u and qing ke.. peering 103 group 2 and they were a very colourful batch..althought very playful at times.. haha but thats the whole idea of fun!

campfire was a blast too.

photos can be found on facebook.

so moving on with life.. sis is back from chennai.. told us a hell load of interesting shit.. but what really made my day was what my bro said..

"people who pay attention to details.are considered gay by many people"..

how far do i agree with this?

well i didnt agree with it until heard my bro's examples...bro goes up to a guy an says.."hey! nice shoes u have!"..deosn't that sound gay to you somehow? nevertheless..i dont pay attention to details too much.. but i think its coz paying attention to details mean you are very sensitive..and women are considered sensitive... so..there u go.

another thing that has caught my attention so far..has been the idea of love.. ever since my first lit lesson with mrs ang. statement:love is blind?

scientifically, people who are in love are almost the same as people with obsessive compulsive disorder.. true? I Believe so.. the whole idea of the better half? i mean just imagine.. all the while..u think of marrying someone smoking hot..and you're this sexually driven person.. and then once you hit 28, you see this girl who isnt the most prettiest of em all..and it strikes you. And 20 years down the road, with 2 other children you ponder to youserlf.. "what the fuck happened?" ..and then as you pray and reflect.. you find out..what happened to you then was love.. and now its the journey of being loved. And you realise, sometimes your journey of being in love. is it greater than or equal to marriage? the significance of marriage is merely (in my opinion) the "granted permission" and "celebration" of being in love (true love)..to celebrate it with pride and dignity..and to let the whole world know. But a marriage can be broken.. but love cannot.

SO, is being in love at the age of 14 love? or lust?

The one i love-REM

2009-01-11T04:32:00.000-08:00

dear (the person who last left a comment on your journal)

I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) (11).___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - i'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting (x)
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May (x)
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When i changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife (x)

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off (x)
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton (x)
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile (x)
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist(x)
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA (x)
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies (x)
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about (x)
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism (X)
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now (x)
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Dear Ahmad:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but your nostrils are insulting. I think I realized it first may with george bush and his wife and I saw you pull the clothes off bill clinton. I'm sure you're senile enough to understand that santa doesn't exist. I'm returning the pictures from LA to you, but I'll keep your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I told my psychiatrist about eggplant fetishism. Fuck off now!
-kumarr-

2009-01-11T04:13:00.000-08:00

Rule #1: People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule #2: Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people

1. Do you have secrets?
i think.

2. Would you fall in love with a girl younger than you?
why not?

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
hmm..yes.. but i hate math

4. What will you do with a billion dollars?
go watch all the best gigs in the world...and lose my virginity in style..;D

5. Would you fall in love with your best friend?
Nope.. not gay.. but even if it was a girl..no.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone, or being loved by someone?
i think being loved by someone is more blessed...coz tts something tt you cant avoid.

7. List out your 15 favourite songs
wah.. i got so many leh..ill list out my 15 fav bands instead;beatles,rhcp,oasis,smashing pumpkins,dream theater,rush,led zeppelin,jimi hendrix,death cab for cutie,the who,soundgarden,stone temple pilots,bob dylan,pink floyd,nirvana (i like alot more..too)

8. What is your favourite food?
now..i like japanese food.. (i suddenly have a craving for unagi rice!)

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
having some of the best teachers to teach 324

10. What makes you angry?
people who think jonas brothers is the best band to ever reign the planet, and "why the hell does oasis hate man u? and whats so awesome about man city?"

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
i wont say soemthing so shrewd like.. by looking at a mirror..but err..maybe (hmm..24...years old..what would i do?) i still have no idea..

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
My family and friends.DUH!

13. What are the most important things in life?
open sexuality,awesome music and good company.

14. Single or attached?
paper clipped

15. What are your favourite colours?
white,blue and a certain green i cant rmbr..

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yeap. taht would be my new important thing, if i were to ever have one

17. If you fall in love with two people, who would you pick?
you can never fall in love with two people, maybe 2 people who could fall in love with you..but no..its impossible to fall in "TRUE LOVE" with 2 people.. love is only for one person.. and love is blind..so it depends on where fate/destiny take u.. if you're meant to be..you're meant to be

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
not at the time being.. but once my soul meets body..i will

19. What do you really want now?
to chat with someone.. (IM FEAKING BORED!)

20. Five people that i have tagged:

screw u

I'll be Back-beatles

2009-01-10T08:27:00.001-08:00

Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
gimme shelter-rolling stones

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
vasoline-stone temple pilots

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
achilles last stand-led zeppelin (fullfilled?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
outshine-soundgarden (to outshine others..nah..)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
desolation row-bob dylan

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
fell in love with a girl-white stripes

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
panic attack-dream theater (lol..troublesome?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
i walk beside you-dream theater (perhaps?)

WHAT IS 2+2?
crazy little thing called love-queen

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
sunshine of your love-cream

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
masterplan-oasis (has everything?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
bohemian rhapsody-queen

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP
dr feelgood-motley crue (drug smuggler?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
naked in the rain-red hot chili peppers (hahaha!)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
a song to sing whem im lonley-john frusciante (isolated?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
fool in the rain-led zeppelin

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
original fire-audioslave

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
ava adore-smashing pumpkins (looking at other ppl in awe?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
supersonic-iasus

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
sex type thing-stone temple pilots ..(omg...! AIDS???!)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
death of an interior decorator-death cab for cutie..(hmm.)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
she's electric-oasis

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
photograph-def leppard

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
more than a feeling-boston.. (snigger..)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
yellow-coldplay (to chinese???WTF?)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
black dog-led zeppelin (iim not scared of dogs..unlessits the dog at mount rosie..yah.. kenna injured by tt dog)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
wish you were here-pink floyd

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
rain song-led zeppelin

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
please please me (twist and shout)-beatles (indeed...friday..twisting like mad)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
ill be back-beatles

2009-01-01T05:41:00.000-08:00

im very happy with out song .. (i thin finalised.. ) only by dillon and i though.. for rueben and ruth and maybe evn jack.. not yet..no bassline yet..but everything else is set.. i call it the big joke..

see if you could be a digger and find out why its a big joke..

a world of sheets
a bell at hand
chose your walkway
she's your man
there is a world at hand

sing me songs
with trees and leaves
tell me tales of make belief
there is a world at hand

chorus:
tears that never wash away
what words can make you say
and lives that seem so tame
just never clings but fade
as signs just come and walk by
you think if you could pay
the life that's worth your fame
could it ever be the same
of well, you've found your face

what you say
in a world of faith
break the chains
they're all the same
some day you'll find

see them small
you'll look real tall
see to me
we'll make you see
some day you'll find

tears that never wash away
what words can make you say
and lives that seem so tame
just never clings but fade
as signs just come and walk by
you think if you could pay
the life that's worth your fame
could it ever be the same
of well, you've found your face

guitar solo 1/2 and 3

break
(soft)
a jade of glass
they're pretty sharp
what's your class
as sweet as harp
some day you'll find

you've found it all
now flap your wings
you think and crawl
oh what a fling
some day you'll find

(break silence of break with overdrive)
tears that never wash away
what words can make you say
and lives that seem so tame
just never clings but fade
as signs just come and walk by
you think if you could pay
the life that's worth your fame
could it ever be the same
of well, you've found your face

outro.. end (harmonica with overdrive soloish..)

2008-12-31T09:36:00.000-08:00

WOW! IT'S 2009! I'm so gay right now! (no pun intended)

as everyone does their affirmations on christams.. i prefer to do them now.. because i believe so much can happen between christmas and new year.. and so much has happened!

so ill being..

-my mom- i love you so much, and i know you wont be able to read this coz u dont even know what a blog means.. but heck.. your the best mom ever! strong and bold i love you and so do your other 4 kids..we had a great 2008; and i know its a year we will never forget.. so much i cant reveal in this blog..

-my elder sis- you're in india right now but here's to a happy 2009.. jsut like there was an awesome 2008 for all of us... may you have a wonderful wedding in 2009, and may you live happily ever after with sara...

-my brothers- as i can say for my eldest bro, can never forget how my opinions towards him have changed so much..i can actually see hwo we have so much in common.. we have some common music tastbuds.. we both love watchmen..we both love awesome movies and we both are afraid of woman.. (yes for those of you who dont know that.. go figure..)
for my other bro.. thanks for all the snoring and kicking.. haah im not kidding, made me have a life full of snippets..and also thanks for being generous and always being the joker in the family..

my youngest sis- the sibling i spend the mosty time with.. ok.. though we have alot of fights.. i blieve you are mature enough to knwo it was all bullshit..and it was just bonding.. i no you're taller than me and stuff.. but ( i dont hate you for that; thanks more making me more memorable and unique then) i think we have shared alot in the past month...

FRIENDS!

dillon and josh- thanks guys..for making my life one to laugh about when i grow older.. thank you so much.. josh; for your kind and unhesitant genoristy and wit..
dillon;for all that music we shared..for all that cough*cough* sharing we had about cough*cough* women.. and basically ive shared my whole life with you and josh.. like my alternative bros.. hahaha

the class of 210!-every single one of you made it memorbale for me this 2008...that whole wonderful birthday gift totally made me feel nostalgic about what happened to me when my frens did somethign similar in 06 (yes peeps havnt forgotten that!)

keenan-making it a very korean year for me ! veli good ah! veli meili ah! go away! was what i can sum up about you.. thanks for the best physical comedy ive ever eseen !next year you going on youtube!

jack!-of course man! i think i loved to come trng alot too coz i could share some music conversation with uoi and stuff.. haha thanks man! for letting us crash in your house haha.. no just kidding.. i think we had a real fun friendship and thanks for everything!

Reuben!-thanks for making it a retarded 2008! haha..no kidding.. seiously..thanks for everything.. the motley crue concert..the friendship..getting owned in lan..xD..

Ruth- damn.. too abd i got to know you too late! but you've been a great friend.. thanks buddy.. for joing our band.. and finally after a year..we have a singer..

here's to a wonderful 2009 guys! let jesus,allah,guru nanak,all the hindu gods there are,buddha and all the other gods and idols of ours.. lead us to a wonderful new year and bless us with all that is to come!

2008-12-25T05:16:00.000-08:00

The World will Look Up And Shout "SAVE US" And I'll Whisper "no"

its christmas today.. and well i dont celebreate it but i do have to say.. christmas is enjoyable.. used to go visiting to my aun't relative place.. but i think this year plans are diff... at least for christmas we got a new TV.. DVD player.. and best of all my family.. but nevertheless.. not the same without my sis..

but heck.. im trying my best to be an optimist for next year.. believe it or not. deeep inside me im one heck of a pessimist. I feel like the scroog of christmas.. i guess its coz of past experiences..

e.g: everytime i jam at penin; i anticipate that my other bandmates would arrive earlier than me.. but they always arrive like half an hour later..

e.g:everytime i look forward to getting an A1.. i get a b4..

so well.. this jsut stimulates how u act towards future situations. All i can think for now.. is what im gonna do next year. Just finished common wealth essay.. quite crap... under limit with only 1150 words.. when i need 1200..

tomorrow's the last rush to get school stuff done.. meaning all my shoes and stationary.. i cant believed i finished watchmen before to kill a mocking bird tough..finished midsummer.. read some nazi history
tts about it..

watchmen trailers.. dohnt ask.. songs for the trailers are mainly smashing pumpkins-end is the beginning is the end and muse-take a bow

2008-12-24T03:47:00.000-08:00

I am ozymandias; king of kings.look upon my works;ye mighty and despair!

things are pretty bad so far. my handphone sudenly blanked out..(yes the one andrew sold to me..) secondly, mr bro wanted to borrow my mp3 (yes the cute mini creative zen tt had speaker on it too! i mean.. so small yet so functionable..) im sick.. terribly.. had some sort of infection ting again .. like u occasionally cough out blood.. now its better but its just a lot of snezzing and breathing problem now.. apart from teh fact that my mom grounded me until school started.. now i have to get better befoer 8i can go trng.. sigh.. i just hope today wasn't the saints match... i hope its after christmas.. well its christmas eve.. my dad's birthday.. i dont care and im not gonna wish him.. but he's probably gonna wine about it later on the phone or on chat.. :(

At least the past 3 days weren't tt bad.. thanks to joshua i had a good read to keep me company for these solitary days with just me and me younger sis (we dont have much in common so nothing much..plus.. im stuck at this level of manhunt 2 where it required free aiming to shoot the speaker.. and i cant free aim on playstations too slow..episode 11:origins.. yes still got until episode 16 and an alternative ending..) and mooreover.. my elder sis.. left to india for a holiday kind of thing to meet her fiance there.. so its been lonely.. and also very quiet in the household.. not this quite before.. like a jail cell..really wanna get out of this coop and go playing left 4 dead somewhere with the gang..

still under muidway crisis on my commonwealth essay.. its disastrous.. honestly.. the titles are vague.. too vague for me to be sensitive enough to dig deep and uncover a treasure chest and get a B grade even! and the math hw.. don dare touch it.. the mother tongue hw.. oh gosh i dun even noe what it is!!!

anyway the good read i mentioned earlier is none other than the best graphic novel ever: Watchmen!

its really good.. has nice symbolss and motif.. like tt nostalgia pefume by veidt.. and the freaking cool smiley face.. my favourite character byfar has to be ozymandias! who on earth would have thought that killing a million people would eventually help stop the upcoming third world war? there u go i told u the wonderful ending of a very good comic..

the movie's coming out in march 2009..directed by zack snyder who directed 300... the thing is i heard he changed the endnig...
something about the fact there wont be the alien ozy teleported to new york.. but instead will be some thing about ozy framing dr manhattan for the good of mankind and doc manhattan realises its for the good of mankind...

the killing of the comedian..doctor manhattan;accused of giving cancer to the people he slept with or was close to..;the "apparent" murder attempt of ozymandias... (adrian veidt) leading roasrchach to thingk there's a masked killer conspiracy and he later getting framed.. and the romance of silk spectre and doc manhattan later shifting to silk spectre and daniel dreigberg (nite owl II) just awesome..

2008-12-13T07:38:00.000-08:00

i dunno why but i think this year is probably a year of acceptance for me..

the hols are ending.. at least i can accept that..

i am bloody short and quite fat.. at least i can accept that and live life contunously..

but there's still something i can't accept right now!

my mom keeps saying i should cut m,y hair coz i look shaggy and ugly.. but i think i look better now than after i cut my hair.. coz first opg all.. i am not tall.. second of all.. im not big sized.. so if i cut my hair.. i look smaller.. and thirdly.. my head isnt big.. its freasking small..and fourthly.. im indian.. and im damn dark..so i lok freaking retyarded.. why does my mother not under stand this?

i dunno whether i think its alright coz of the people i hang around with.. or somethiong? or just that my mother lives 1980.. ?

and another thing that i cant come to acceptance.. is that the fact im growing up....

im short..hence i dont have self confidence. and tharts the part where.. i want to get a job this holidays but i dont have the guts to even ask my mom. coz she'll probably talk through her motuh and not her head.... what she sees and not what she knows.. the physical maturity and not the mental sensitvity..

and also the post confrontation.. when i start to get quite pissed.. and like just zone out.. and then she'll say something that.. at this age.. everything seems right to you and everythign else is wrong.. buit problem is i dont get it? so if everything that is right to me.. is wrong.. that what the fuck am i suppose to think? the opposite of what im thinking? seems mudane enough.. so i shan't delve deeper due to my lack of sensitivity.. what do u expect me to write? some thing like; oh i want to study.. so i do the opposite.. ..i've gone past that phase..

but another problem is i tend to ramble about my life.. and now i realised all that rambling is the tip of the iceberg.. tha fact im from a single mother family.. my dad;s a jerk.. has 2 other wives.. has a ntoher kid.. and the fact i know how its like to lose all your riches.. at the age of 5.. and the time i spent with my dad at this very house while my other siblings were in hotel california* at my grandmom's place (it means hell)

and the fact i though those years of staying alone at the age of 5.. waiting for my dad to come home.. with my sis.. (10 motnhs younger)..and that day never came.. those times when at the age of 5.. i wake up and i dont see my dad next to me.. nowhere in the house.. till he comes back at 2.. we still awake.. crying from 9-2.. and then our dad.. starts swearing.. and throwing things here and there...talking about death.. and we there.. watching that shit.. oblivious to what to respond with.. we though that was considered "holiday"

BUt it fucking turned out that was allegedly kidnap.. nom joke.. my mom just told us yesterday.. that was fuckingh kidnap.. an attempt for my dad to get money to go clubbing.. at least now i know the truth.. at least i've come to acceptance my dad is a dick..

and when someone next to me talks about how he's rich and stuff.. and sometimes.. even makes fun of my status.. tghat im a poor dog.. with nothing to lvie up to..and maybe i dont have future.. im dumb.. im shit.. well look at yourself man.. at least i havew come to acceptance that i used to be rich and am a poor ass beggar now.. from the age of 5.. everyone has their bad time. at least now i know mine's gone.. and at least now i know you dont need money to have talent..

2008-12-08T01:02:00.000-08:00

some "rock sell outs" advertistments..

the reason why i say "rock sell outs" and not rock sell outs.. is coz they aren't..to me.. like wtf? just coz they make a commercial about em for a company coz they stopped making recprd..doesnt make em sell outs.. i mean.. its also for us to enjoy..it's bloody funny ..hahaha

OZZY SAMSUNG COMMERCIAL

ALICE COOPER MARIOTT COMMERCIAL

ALICE COOPER STAPLES COMMERCIAL (SCHOOL"S OUT FOR SUMMER)

2008-12-07T00:48:00.000-08:00

RESERVOIR DOGS
im so bored.. so ill do maybe one movie review.. on the movie i think i loved the most this year.. ut thing is.. it wasn't released this year..it was released years ago.... reservoir dogs..yes.. fuckign awesome movie! my favourite character has to be mr orange.. how he stealthily fits in with the rest of the guys but backstab them at the end.. it was just epic! how he was lying on one side.. almost dead.. and mr blonde was about to kill that cop after chopping hsi ear off.. and then..bang bang.. blonde dies.. freaking awesome! quentin tarantino m,akes it look like he has been directing movies all his life.. but it was just his first movie..it had everything.. it had the slight edge of comedy.. the climax was there alright! not to mention the action.. and of course the after feeling you get after watching the movie.. the nature of reality.. how crude it is.. how it tastes like shit not wine.. that cutting off of the ear.. was one example.. how tarantino makes it look so real.. that that is what they do.. and also the ending.. was for u to decide.. did all of em die? yes.. except mr pink.. but who knows.. mr pink was only shown running off with the brifcase.. and at the end.. black scrrenn.. but police cars.. no shots were fired..

2008-12-07T00:01:00.000-08:00

quite long never post.. xOOO

so ill post about the day before yesterday.. (friday) had training..so we gave our barkerites forms.. and stuff.. and satrted warm up.. "10" laps.. i think my fitness is slightly improving off pitch. BUt problem now is my speeed.. on pitch. And i dont think ill do well for the incoming beep test.. i always suck at that. It's just that i suck at pacing.

so after warm up, we did nunis warm up..on the ball.. very weird huuman slalom.. where we dribble around the peeople infron of you until u reach a part where no one's infront of you...as we move around the 25. then we played possesion...my hockey has improved a bit..in terms of confidence and reliability..but i yet to improve on the strengths of my pushes.. mine are fucking slow.. hit and stuf..are not an issue of arm power..unless you want u fucking solid hit..coz its all in how you swing and where you hit the ball.. my tackling is daMN lousy now.. sigh..better improve.. then atfer that we played some passing drills.. with one guy in the center.. and after that we played match...like i think 10 of us against like 17 or something sec1s and also some sec 2s and 3s...but dunno why darrel was therer and i was with the 10.. darrel is a damn good defender..best among the sec 2 defenders...

the match..although we scored like 8 or 7 goals.. we played ddamn badly at thed back..we let it one stupid goal at the start which is suppose was due to complacency.. but our attacking was alright excepty for the times we recover from defence or counter.. but gareth and winston are seriously damn good at the flanks.. like you can really rely on them to bring the ball to the d..i played center forward czo abrar was not there.. but i think sam should have been center and i go to center half.. coz sam is damn attcking minded.. im not.. so i think next year we should have good attacking.. coz winston can really whack and cross ... and gareth's hits are damn good. and abrar's deflections are like almost 100 percent... but tt mneans coleman got alot of competition.. alot...!!!! but i think if coleman work on the crozssing he sure can.. coz he can dribble.. i scoerd 2 goals.. out of the 4 probably chances.. haqqim was right wing and daryl was left wing.. haqqqiim did well..scoring 3 or 4 goals.. and i noe sam scored one really nice goal.. like it was he winston and garetjh i think..they played a triangle.. and scored..

after training.. keenan was as usual irritating aarul..lol.. he was like suck cock..suck cock..suck cock.. and he even said oen time.. mr arul fucker ah..until her asked him down 20.hahaha.. then after that jack,keenan and i went to joshua house.. his house is damn ownage..!!! his ps3 got soul calibur metal gear thingy.. and he bought cod 5 and fall out later on.. i just realissed i suck at cod 5 on ps3..coz im frking unfamiliar with the controls..but soul calibur 4 was fun.. lol i keep owning with raphael later on..after i stopped using voldo.. but apprentice is damn fast.. but i still love those old school peeps..

then joshua's friend ryan came along.. and keenan was entrtainning us wiith his swearing in korean accent..haha..

oh and when we went to clementi coz josh wanted to buy some games.. some malay woman was damn bitchy.. jack and i were at the bust stop.. but josh andkeenan were at seven eleven and wen they came out they left the dorr to close and it accidentally slamemd her finger and she was like FUCK YOU! and she had a kid right next to her.. and then she asked them to come here../ and then she even asked for money to go poly clinic coz its damn painful.. i mean what the hell??? are u soem earl married woman with non job.. trying to getsome money for her kid.. but do iti like this?? sigh..

so we went back and we left at around 6..

2008-12-01T10:30:00.001-08:00

song of the day yes i am not gay (in the happy context)

yes i am so bored..im doing this... i got nothing else better to do.. so

yes song of the day.. that has been ringing in my head all this while..

Untitled by smashing pumpkins..

pretty weird title right.. but its the last song they ever did together before the breakup...and then reunited in 2007 only jimmy chamberlin and corgan for zeitgeist (spirit of the age in german i think)

recorded in 2001

UNTITLED-SMASHING PUMPKINS (i believe its one of their best songs..and i think its in their compilation rotten apples)

2008-12-01T10:30:00.000-08:00

update

just watched the next episode of grey's anatomy (i think it's a repeat..lol.. i just got addicted.. ) so that seth green charcter i was taLkinh about.. (the one with the fucked up artery).. actually survived.. buit then the chic doctor steralized the bleeding.. it was frking sick.. and so a series of mishaps..and then (i swear it was freaking sad..) i think i almost cried... the seth green guy eventually died.. but it was damn sad.. coz befoer he died he was liek teeling her. that he was forgetting about his ex and thinking about her./.and then she started laughing and then that was it..

and the guy with the nazi thingy.. survived but it was damnn funny coz after the op.. his swastika was disgifured.. like only an S could be seen.. haha laugherd my ass off.. so he was like asking the other guy if she did it on purpose (the doctor was black)

and also.. my mom's going china in 2 weeks time.. (SWEET!!! that probably means she doesnt need to comb my hair now and then..) not sure how long she'll be there..

but boy.. the last time she went overseas was in 2001.. she went sri lanka. and we had some weird times at home.. just me and my 4 siblings..

but now that everyone's grown up a bit.. it's kind of different.. like my eldest bro aint gonna be in coz he is in his own place.. my other bro is working and so is my other sis.. and my younger sis and i are the onyl studying chaps.. my younger sis is transferring to damai sec.. after a series of shit holes she had in her previous sec school... well let's hope 09 becomes a better year.. long pants.. (i need long legs.. please growwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

quiz

2008-12-01T00:20:00.000-08:00

some quiz..damn bored so might as well do this..

1.the person who tagged/passed you are
ahmad

2.your relationship with him
friend

3.your 5 impressions over him
erm...fun to hang around,practical,retarded (lol)

4.most memorable thing he has done to you
hmm.. no idea.. err..maybe not so memorable.. (always does it) whack me in the head while im writing something..

5.if either one of em' become your lover, you will
kill myself?im not gay

6.if either one of em become your lover, they'd have to improve on
changing sex.. (still wont help.. dont go transverstites.. pre op or post op)

7.if he become your enemy you will..
can't really imagine? maybe just dao lah../ become your enemy what to do?

8.if either one of em becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
i dunno....

9.the most desired thing you want to do for them?
whack him back hahaha! next year 324.. my chance..

10.overall impression of him
good friend

11.how do you think people around you wikll think about you?
maybe im cocky? retarded? a bad tongue?

12.you characters you love about yourself are..
not narcissistic to the point of taking any notice of those..its for others to say and for me to accept

13.the characters you hate about yourself are..

is being short a character? i mean mentally and physically..

14.the most ideal person you want to be..
why does this seem like that scence from american psycho 2? no im not a textbook sociopath.. but err.. lemme think... i'd wanna be Seth Macfarlane creator of family guy..can make myself laugh all day and make all the fam guy epsiodes i want..

15.for people who care and like you,say something to them
are u black?

16.pass this quiz to 10 people (not in order..must have blog right?)
1.jeter
2.alexis
3.winston
4.bryan lum
5.nevin
6.kevin martens
7.ahmad
8.coleman
9.shivraj? (dunno anyone else who has a blog..)
10.myself....

17.who is number 6 having a relationship with
lol.. some girl called star..haha

18.is number 9 male or female?
male

19.if number 7 and 10 are otgether.. will it be a good thing?

ermm.. hell no.. im not gay neither is he.. YET

20.what is number 2 studying about?
double science double humanities..

21.what kind of band does number 8 like?

good old soft bands.. eagles,beatles,paul mccartney,bob dylan and his fair share of country music (eagles is country too..xD)

22.does number 1 have any siblings..
nope i dont tink so..

23.will you woo number 3..
not gay..

24.how about number 7..
not gay

25.is number 4 single?
yah as far as i know

26.what is the surname of number 5..
tan i think

27.whats number 10's hobby?

listening to good old music,drumming

28.does number 5 and 9 get along well?
think so

29.where is numbr 2 studying at?
sji

30.talk something casually about number 1
outgoing person...

31.where does number 9 live at..

no frking idea

32.what colour does number 4 like..

no idea..

33.number 5 and 1 best friends?
they dont know each other

34.nuumber 1 got any pets..
nope (dunno)

35.is number 7 the sexiest person in the world..?

that is one heck of a stupid question.. who do you thinkn we passing these quizzes to? celebrities? and plus im not gay to think of that enough.. so NO..

36.what is number 6 doing now?

do you expect me to be number 6 to know?

if u had the talent

2008-11-29T07:55:00.000-08:00

you know how.. when you're at the age of innocence.. and you're brought up listening to the guitaring of jimi hendrix.. and then a band like maybe mcfly or something pops up on tv.. and then you're like.. damn they suck! they can't play a shit..they can't make good lyrics.. i can own their asses when im their age..

and then you reach that age.. and you want to take back whatever you said.. i'm kind of feeling that way a bit.. like.. im not APPLAUDING bands like.. click 5 or jonas brothers and stuff.. but i'd rather just respect them for trying.. but hating them for doing what they do.. but then again you never know if it's their fault. A band by the name of tide of spring.. (jack told me this).. apparently created emo.. but they had no intentions of doing so and hated them for it..

another example.. could be kurt cobain (in a far moer vague context) like eh took neil young's line in his suicide note , "it's better to bum out than to fade away".. coz he tot he was goign to create a string of shit.. (indirectly..) so i kind of respect some of em..coz i am able to accept the fact that they can play something.. but not somethingn of the best..

but does that make it like.. if i respect them.. i WORSHIP rock gods?

and some how.. i think my resolutions next year could be something around this outline..

- get physically better (grow bigger,be more fit,play good hockey)
-get better in music theory (lyrical tinking wise, musicianship,composing)
-STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!
- become socially inclusive in 324

and just one wish...
i wish i dont get any teacher i detest to have.. (including mr arul as my pe teacher.. 9 FUCKING LAPS!!!)

2008-11-28T05:38:00.000-08:00

what sums up my day; "I am joshua's bitch!"-keenan in public..

today had training..11-1.. dAmn hot.. and hardly any of us were in the mood to run coz all had match yesterday.. but omg.. i dunno how i had tt energy.. everybody run 6 or lesser i run 8.. lol.. and i can actually go on.. i think its coz of the water spray.. it woke me up..

but today i didnt do well for training.. damn disappointed.. and now every monday its freaking cross country training! tt means.. either 4.8 or doubkle.. 9.6 km.. tt sucks.. coz our traiing at delta clash with CGS on monday..

after training.. went to eat at burger king talk alot.. and i ate beef haha.. coz my whole family except my elder sis (vegetarian) eat beef.. so might as well fit in.. i took the double patty turkey bacon... keenan took triples.. the rest all took doubles i think except for ivan.. he took quad!
hahaha.. then jack took a video..

The original fire

2008-11-27T05:49:00.000-08:00

we had a match today.. so we were suppose to be there at 1.. but me being super canchiong.. i reached there at about 11 50.. plaeud hockey with ben at first.. then some sec 1s.. then finally sme b div ppl..

so we took the bus to UWC.. and during the journey we were all poking fun at sam.. saying he's going to eb the experiment for child sexual abuse and sex ed in MOE... and when we passed the MOE building.. their statue was some big hand holding a small boy.. and we all knew it was sam..haha.. PAEDO!

then.. joshua was telluing us keenan's adventure to the MRT.. saying that when joshua and coleman gave their seats to some eldery women.. they said that keebnan was their korean friend who deosnt know english.. then he staretd arguing with bryan and the old lady said.. "wah..he's learning english now"

so we played with em.. and my group of 5.. were samuel lim, coleman, zeng kai and jonathan.. so we played the 2nd half of the game against the a div team of UWC.. and t least we didnt let them score.. but omg.. there was this frking hot girl sitting next to us... i swear hottest i saw in UWC..

then nunis ask us play against the u 17 girls to get more experience.. so we played.. and omg i almost scored.. like we were in the D.. and then the ball was right there.. no body near it.. so i just took a reverse.. went along the ground .. going for goal and it just missed slightly.. but its not tt the girls aer good. its coz of the fucked up ref.. he said.. if there;s a 50 50 percent chance of foul.. then.. we'll give it to the girls.. coz if it is correctly played we might have won like 1-0.. lol, but hey.. we were using a bad team against them.. and they had all defenders in the team.. and then sam and i came in.. coz they had not strikers.

well,, i had alot of injuries afetr tt.. coz of their screwed up pitch..

wake up..

2008-11-25T21:31:00.000-08:00

fuck man. i woke up late today for training. and i woke up at 10 instead of 5 30.. training is from 8-10.. i was freaKING PISSeed with myself. coz according to my sis.. i woke up at 5 30 and then went back to sleep at 5 40.. i didn't know i had the habit of sleepwalking.. and another way to blame this is my fuckign alarm. i put it as calm like a bomb by rage.. but instead.. my sis said it didnt ring as a song but some default ringtone.. fuck,.. i tink i'll just stick to interstate love song by stone temple pilots.. coz i always tot.. either wake up or calm like a bomb by rage would wake me up... im definately sure anyone would wake up if they heard calm like a bomb..

(slow bassline riff..)
(whispers.."feel the funk blast repeatedly)
(OH FEEL THE FUNK BLAST!!)
(MORELLLO SCREECHING!!!!)

so i also feel damn bad coz i was suppose to meet jack art bedok mrt at 6 45.. fuckl lah.. i feel damn bad.... first time i ever overslept for hockey training.. why? coz i can't seem to sleep..

according to my mom.. if i cant sleep i should take a jog at the stadium like for like about 20 minutes continously.. i should be able to sleep.... but i always thought jogging helped me wake uP!

so.. i've made another person like the smashing pumpkins..hahaha!... so this is how it went.. my attempt.. was to convert jack... a fellow metalhead, and rock junky.. so since he liked rock.. i tot maybe.. ask him give a listen to siva from the album gish.. and he said he didnt like it tt much.. but found it quite interesting.... then.. i tot... a bit more mordern.. zero!! lol and he immediately liked it.. coz of the lyrics and harmonics... and also the myth in the video.

EMPTINESS IS LONELINESS
LONELINESS IS CLEANLINESS
CLEANLINESS IS GODLINESS
AND GOD IS EMPTY JUST LIKE ME

it;s such a good verse! but the songs from em' that stand out for me are stand inside your love from the machina:machines of god album and thirty three from mellon collie

STAND INSDE YOU LOVE

the video is damn nice also.. and especially the lack of colour that makes you want to think its a dark and eerie thing.. like the whole machina album... all the songs are more or less metal except fro this oen and maybe the b side speed kills.... but the video is a tribute to an oscar wilde play by the name salome.. it's a tragedy written in 1891.. abotu some girl by the name of salome.. who's the stepdauyghter of some pro guy from the herod anitpas thingy.. and has to get the head of the jokanan (john the baptist) on a silver plate.. to her mother;s delight and to her father's dismay..

so in the video.. the maind character. slaome.. is corgan's girlfriend.. Yelena Yemchuk.. she also designed the cover of corgan's poetry collection later on..

and then this song.. thirty three.. is a freakin awesome song.. wirh a pretty video

the video was directed by yelena yemchuk and corgan.. and i have to say.. she got good taste in art.. like all the images and characters in the video are dammn nice.. like all the nymphs and aall

she'd probably remember me as the one who told her, her husband was dying in a collapsed fire truck

2008-11-24T21:37:00.000-08:00

i was watching grey's anatomy yesterday..(i don't usually watch it coz my mother thinks im 8 years old and shouldn't know what a vagina is ..or what a sperm is..-.-')

however.. i happened to be watching it..and yesterday's episode was pretty interesting..

the dude from family guy who voiced fro chris griffin, seth green was a guest appearance.. as some guy with a tumor on the neck i think.. and usually ppl dont survive it and somehow.. he just had this very fucked up artery that was bulging out.. and its very loose.. so if he move very agggressivley.. the artery might just pop.. and so he made friends with one of the female doctors.. and he kept saying stuff like she's very pretty but doesnt mean it in a rude manner coz he broke up with his gf.. and she asks.. if his gf broke up with him coz of the artery... and he said.. that it was just because he stopped being funny and couldnt make her laugh anymore.. and she knew it was just coz of an artery.

and the doctor went on to say her boyfriend was a nice guuy disguised as a jerk.. and he said his gf was a narcisistic girl disguised as a nice girl..

and thent ehre was another story. where an ambulance van or fire truck ( not sure) collapsde right infrotn of em..at the hospital.. and then they got one of the pramedics out... and it happens that when the black woman doctor wanted to treat him..he said he wants a guy doctor.. and then a black guy doctor comes and he said.. no no.. i just want another... another doctor...and then he knows he; looking for a white doctor.. and when sandra oh.. (chinese doctor Lol) come an tries to treat him.he shows her this swastika on his stomach.. that was tatooed... and no he isnt a nazi.. he just didnt want to offend the black doctors..

and then in tt same ambulance van.. two guys ray and some other guy..shit i forgot his name.. were stuck anmd tt other guuy (let's call him chris) has his leg stabbed by something.. and he cant move if not he;ll die. or get paralysed.. and then he tells the doctor hee cant feel his legs and all.. and then he becomes real panicky.. and then the tw guys think tt if they gonna die..they gonna talk about the good times they had.. //and then chris asks the doctor to call his wife who works here.. and then she comes over and she is crying and all.. and then the doctor tells the black doctor that she doesnt know who his wife is even thogh she worked in the same hospital.. but now she;s only gonna remember her as the doctor who alamred her about her husband about to die ...

scary..

ut omg.. the ending scene for tt episode.. was just.. frking sudden.. u noe the doctor and tt guy with the artery.. yea.. so she found out that the docotr she liked has another bitch.. and then she gets pissed..and goes to the ward with the artery guy.. and the he says.. what happend u dont look too good.. ur cheeeks all red and all.. then she says that the guy disguised as jerk turned out to be a jerk.. and then the artyery guy said he has a real good idea to pplot revenge.. that she should go out with him.. and then he would start to ask.. well what is it that i dont have that that artery guy doesnt have.. and then she'll be like.. he has a damn cool artery..,.. and then they start laughing.. and laughing.. and then BOOM!!! the guy strained his artery too much and his artery popped and blood spurted out every where.. on the doctor's uniform, face.. and the epiosde ended.. sick..SICK!!! no idea wether he died.. i hope he doesnt. but im pretty sure he died..

GGb anf

2008-11-18T04:40:00.000-08:00

School's Out for summer...

yeah..that alice cooper song been ringing in my head like an annoying housefly.. like i love the song.. but i just dont wanna listen to it all day..

anyway..guys.. heads up.. according to mr zul.. next year got 11 new teachers at least.. who shall be the diamond in the rough.. to teach 324... (i have a bad feeling..arul might be our form teacher.. if he is.. every pe lesson is 3.6 km for me..)

quite a bit has happened after ace..

only 2 of us went jamming.. only dillon and i.. and unlike other timess..we covered more songs this time.. we covered (full songs).. like about 5 or 6.. in 1 hour.. biggest feeat ever..

and today.. we had training.. hockey training. And.. omg..warm up was crazily tiring!! even ryan singh admitted it.. sprint.. stride..sprint stride.. like i think 6 times.. across the whole pictch without stopping.. like sprint.your guts out..and immediatelt after tt got shuttle runs..oo and before tt we ran 3 laps.. (no gaps in between)

then we proceeded to drills.. and i have to say.. i lost alot of skill i had.. no more touch..no more enthusiasm and drive .. and i think im gonna put in some effort to go to school and train with keenan or something...

and then after tt..went lan go play cod 4 first with bryan,sam,keenan,coleman,ivan,azri,jack... then they went to go play dota..so i switched to fifa..azri soon joined me later after going to cs to dota..we there for 3 hrs..

then we went macs..to go have lunch.. haha but then i had this weird sudden urge to just slap coleman's face..

so i was thinking to slap or not..then bryan said..come on ah.. will be dammn funny.. so i mustered enough courage and slapped coleman on the right..and his reaction was priceless

so i did it on alot of ppl..and they passed it on.. but no one did it on me haha. oh yah and ivan finished a mega mac befoer any one of us could finish our nomal sized burgers..

then jack ;ost his phone.. we tried helping him find it..but to no avail.. damn sad.. gone..just like dt... then he asked us if we wanted to go his house.. and so his dad came.. fetched us (only me coleman azri) and his dad was quite a lad.. old sji boy..sydney tan classmate.. had an odd sense of humor.. haha.. he said ang moh would whack us if we say tampines the singapore way.. when it should be "tam-pines" instead of "tam-penis"...

so we went to his house,.,.and it was under rennovation..but it was really nice.. he had a remote for his toilet BOWL!

had 4 refridgerators..had a drum set and a fender squire.. and an apple laptop..had xbox 360 and PS3.. so we messed around with his drums and guitar..then we played guitar hero3.. first time platying.. and i sucked.. all play easy and only like high 80 low 90.. damn suck.. but it was addictive.. we were there until 6 50.. thenw ent back

and azri was telling me stuff.. coz i said shankkar was damn poser.. and eh said got worse posers..and they're in fact quite close to me.. i noe hu they are..but i dunn wanna say.. but it's weird..how..from what he said.. a girl could do so much to a guy.... the guy becomes all vain.. more aware..more.. err.. presentable? maybe? mayvbe not? quite bullshit ain't it?

Ace camp and post ace camp

2008-11-15T21:00:00.001-08:00

ace camp and post ace camp..

ace camp was fun..but was irritating and just damn sian..xD but i think in the end we kind of learnt a lesson.. alot of us are pampered fucks..and if we were stranded in the wild..we can only masturbate for all we can to survive and drink ur own sperms..

my god..3rd day jungle survival.was quite hard...me joavan and dylan were in charge of water..and that one is actually quite easy..but the fire part is hell hard..shelter was easy also.

so in sequence...

day 1

we boarded the bus.. had to surrender phones and wallets...quite u junky ride for me coz they were singing their "SONGS"... and then we reached kluang.. we were like wtf?? so many flies..mosquitoes..ants.. and was like grass everywhere.. and we settled down in the mess hall,... where one black lizard fell on my tighs.. lol.. damn scary sia.. no tail some more.

so then we proceeded with our activities..and ours was the hardest one of all. gunong lembak.. some mountain in kluang.. i didnt climb a mountain before..and didnt know what to expect.. and at my own risk i used the sji track pants! like wth?? but i only had tt.. and my god.. it was tiring to go up.. and i was carrying the baja bags (if tts how u spell it ).. carrying 6 1.5 litre bottles.. until like a quarter of the mountain..then i handed it over to someone.. then reach halfway.. we rest quite long.. and dip our heads in the water spring there...and boy was it revitalising.. damn cold and nice..and there was one drinkable one..damn nice ..

then we continued... and then caught up with joavan jin yao and all.. so we were like the 2nd fastest batch.. with the 1st batch being indra the muscleman.. (he was an ex bodybuilder..frking sick) jerry and qin han.. they were damn fast.. so then we continue...and then caugh up wuith sudhirr..then joavan and yao al went up.. faster.. so then we reached the top.. and it was a damn good view! we were like on top of the clouds... then indra did a pose.. THE COBRA.. haha damn sick..

then we climb back down.. and it was not tiring at all but was risky..i fell like 2 or 3 times.. aravin felll like infinite times.. crazy.,.

and as expected my track pants was frking diirty...

then after dinner.. we went back to tents.. and the tents were quite big and nice.. then we went back to mess hall.. where got some show for us to watch..and it was some bodybuilding show.. quite retarded but entertaining.. like 5 ppl from 210 were there..

then we went back to tents to sleep..and of course..we being 210 stood up quite late..but got some tent.. i think 203.. MOG force.. they damn stupid.. they put their pe shirt on top of the bulb coz it didnt turn off for damn long..and guess what.. THE TENT WAS BURNING!,,hahah... damn joke..btw our ace leaders wwere quite alright..derek,keith,jeremy chitty and of course SEUNG JUN.. KOREAN POWER!!!

DAY 2
day 2 was more fun.. we had abseiling and purseeking and then canoeing.. so we went to the place.. and then the instructor was gerrard ..and he was brieifing us on hornet drills and how to wear the harness.. he damn funny sia.. he said if u tie the harness below ur balls.. u eat my cockhair.. and then he was tellin some story about a well in the campsite.and then he said he saw a head come out.. and then mr gergory was like behind him shwoing his head with his tongue sticking out.. haha..so my group went abseiling with mr gregory first.. haha.. i was damn shit sia.. coz i dont have much leg muscles.. my leg was shaking like some ghost spasm.. haha but i didnt feel like weak or anything..just tt my leg couldnt take it.. hahaha

thejn after that we did purseeking with gerrard..and he kept calling me tekka.. coz im indian..and he also call indians baia..which is actually referred for sikhs.. haha..he talk like dt i noe he from st pats already..and he kept asking us how many sisters we got..and how big their breasts are..and whether we got gf..the best was xiang rui..he kept showing some girls' pictures from his phone.. haha.. and said they were his mistresses..then come my turn..he ask me if i got gf.. then i said i too short..confirm cannot one now.. then he said look at me lah..i also short got so many mistresses..fuck here fuck there no body even care.. haha..then he ask me go look at cindy downstairs.. then he ask me wave at ehr i wave then she never look.. then he said..see she dont like u.. better stay away..i want to fuck her..i dont care.. lol./..weirdd..horny guy..

then day 2... night activity was talent time..and the wionner was some sick contortionist.. from 207..frking sick.. he can wedgie himself.. he can do damn weird shit.. and mr soo was damn funny.. he was like simon cowell..haha and mr gregory also.. putting weird signs

day 3..

we had to do jungle survival and orineteering.. to me i found this quite boring.. so moving on to night activity.. we had campfire..and one part when i was setting the mat out.. then everyone in front like damn scared like dt..i turn behind.. FUCK A FUCKING HORSE WAS RIGHT THERE...lol.. id dint even noe i was standing right next to one.. and they are fucking huge!!then after tt our cheer we got 3rd..and tahir was telling us a story about arul..damn funy.. was like in their army days.. and he said he saw arul naked..and he got small dick..hahah

so day 4

we did rafting aNd river crossing.. river crossing was fun..but in shit water.. and coz we came late we had to run one round... but our group came last coz of dylan soo..he climbed on top of the rope instead of bottom.. then they said for forfiet.. but later on.. then we did rafting..and we learnt different knots n stuff.. and we only had 4 barrels..and some pipes..and hell lot of rope.. so our group took some time.. and we made a decent raft.. aravin 's group went first and surprisingly they were floatred but at the end they capsize.. ours was ownage raft..me nick and nat hopped on.. and we paddled like for super long and we never capsize...but mny life jacket had like super lot of ants..frking irritating.. we even beat the scouts raft..

so we went back and then...

POSTING

i was very very disappointed with my posting.. coz i think i deserved a better class.. i gto posted into 324.. but i had the humanities i wanted..full lit elect hist. but prob is.. jin yao who got worse than me for math fye..i is in 323 and he got 65 percent overall also.. i dunno how the fuck they post us.. but at least my class is quite ownage for now.. got aravin,ahmad,dillon,arvinth,hassanal..but got 2 ppl i already hate.. sulaiman and shankarr..
heck with it.. 324.. may sound like shit in paper..but i thinkwe will own..

wow 200th barren post

2008-11-10T04:08:00.000-08:00

wow.. the 200th barren post..

tmrw got ace camp. im actually quite excited..unbelievably..

my bags are packed and i'm ready to go.. (no..im not leaving on a jetplane) leaving on some bus.. and what the hell,,,no mp3s..no handphones..my mom said screw them..bring handphone in case of emergency...

but i just want it so i can sleep in peace.. with some music.

i finally found an interest in another grunge band ; hole .. they're pretty good.. and i actually think kurt and coutrney were like the best couple or something.. coz both of em are really alike..like really really alike.. so i dont know who killed kurt or wether he kiled himself..but one thing i know.. kurt loved courtney.. and so did courtney.. so screw those who keep saying" FUCK courtney..she killed cobain" on every hole video on youtube.. it screws everything..

hole is really good.. especially the song s"mono"..celebrity skin..malibu..beatiful son and im dArn sure there are many other good ones too..

and just after our camp..we go back to school and posting results are there.. i hope i get my "sensible wish" to go to 323,322 or 321..(i think getting an a2 in science in SJi is not a good thing.. i think muyst ghet like 78 or something to go triple.. so triple's out of the question) and i want full lit no matter what./. i dont mind giving up history elect.. coz geog is okay lah..but im more consistent in history.

shallow minds seem to thrive in mordern day "earth"

2008-11-07T04:28:00.000-08:00

Shallow mind seem to thrive more often these days..

True?

i have no scientific idea.. but in my opinion..it might just be the case. Nowadays.. girls often go for "Beng" looking people (sorry if i've offended anyone out there..)

e.g. (if u cant react to criticsms..then fuck off..this not for you to hear)

i don't like to point out names.. so ill just mention that there's this guy in SJI.. in my tamil class... damn ah beng hair.. like some sort of tamil tiger recruit or something.. wear skinny jeans (btw.. in my opinion i think skinny jeans don't go with guys..make them look homosexual, disproportionate and downgrading..and not to mention submissive to peer pressure and "trends" and also not opinionative.. ( if there's such a word)) and pierced his ear (this isn't wrong in my books... coz 2 of my brothers pierced their ears but they aren't at the very least beng at all)just that the reason he;s doing it..is to get girls..be shallow hal..be cool (act cool)
and his hair.. yea..

in that appearance...what can u immediately infer?

he's a shallow guy..doesnt have his own opinion..not being himself.. just being a "show off" and has the intention of "i wanna score some chicks..that's why im doing this" ..doesnt have any depth..coz he thinks his appearance will do the talking...

WRONG! in my opinion :D but nowadays ..girls seem to react to these "COOL SHIT"... why? why females so ... err... so not like how the old fashioned girls are? "wow.. he speaks so well! he's so true in his appearance and the way he speaks.. he has such and awesome personality and he's relatively good looking.. such a gentleman"

where are those good old fashion thinking and opinions?

If there's such a girl who's relatively hot, out there.. i have to say one thing.. you are the more ideal girl in singapore (Probably) ...

so far i havnt met one.. that guy i was talking ABOUT.. he has so many girlfriends ..he dumps them like his udnerwear or something.. he has this impression that he's a "Cassanova"...

what can i say.. you're not even a better man than Quagmire.. at least he doesnt dress himself up like someone he isnt..

NEVERtheless.. there're always the guys who are at fault. (not sarcasm)... there are so many guys in SJI itself.. that think..omg..she damn hot.. fuck her now.. i wanna be her bf.. (i have to admit i was one.. and am one.. but..i dont do part3 or think of part 3.. i wanna be her bf..)

NO NO NONON.. if you even start to think of that...you're so damn vulnerable to.. being a shallow dickhead... its better to be dumped coz ur too mature for the girl rather than too shallow for her.. it goes to show u derserve someone better! :D

that feeling of.. she damnhot.. wanna fuck her now.. for some..is probably damn short term.. but if its like long term..and u dont even think of her personality and stuff..u become vulnerable to having that desire to be her bf..and that leads u to being a shallow dickhead.

so boys..and girls.. if u wanna thrive in relationships,,be a shallow dickhead.. but if u wanna thrive in long term relationships.. think of billy bob and angelina jjolie.. billy bob is so damn old..angelina jolie is probably matured, ..definatley hot.. babe.. and think of how they got together.. (neglecting the fact that they split after tt..but angeina jolie still said she doesnt regret tatooing billy's name on her arm) ..Maturity..so u decide.. short term..or long term ;P

finally

2008-11-06T08:17:00.000-08:00

finally.....

haha one day of practicing that rock and roll by led zeppelin drum fill at the end..finally payed off! ii finalyl pulled it off.. probably the first big "mini" drum solo i can pull off! xD!

we jammed.. not with sashi though.. he was busy..so last resort was josh.. who didnt really learn the songs but knew some of em'... good enuff for us, amateurs..;P .. so we started off with living loving maid..and well i have to say reuben cooperated quite well! better than usual that is!! SO we finally managed to do living loving maid! with the solo! (we had l;ike more than 5 takes! hahah)
so then we did cherub rock i think.. the vocasl was quite messed up coz.. the guitar and drums were already damn loud..but heck we just continued.. then rock & roll i think.. we did that without the solo (FYI.. the solo is shit hard)

we did some songs..befoer tt..but not complete.. we did like..errr.. dani california, smells like teen spirit and we did like a few of dillon's songs.. just bits and pieces and oh yah we did murdereers by frusciante completley (its an instrumental)

quite fun actually..

life on a stick

2008-11-05T10:01:00.001-08:00

HAving a sense of humour is the best thing anyone can get!

have you ever thought.. that maybe you have to make an "EXTRA" effort to get to know someone? like not like "be yourself"..."come as you are" kind of relation..but to go the extra mile.. to change yourself a bit.. to adjust and increase your tolerance level a bit.. to get to know..let's say.. you're angry, easily annoyed, petty neighbout.. (kind of like how stewie describes a widow livin in semi D apartment..
guy in top deck sneezes.. widow in bottom deck knocks broom on ceiling yelling.. "HEY QUIET DOWN THERE!")

so in other words.. treating your "approach" as an experiment... kind of like speed date haha.. like appear like he says.. (in an annoying snobbish peevey british accent.. "my god..those bloody shaggy haired dolls in ramones cant play shit for pennies! they deserve to get a grill on that new toaster is saw on that commercial off the Martha Stewart show" and in your head you're thiking like.. ooohh kkay... the ramones.. my favourite band.. he dont like em.. i hate him.. but instead, you say oh i see...and u go on to something else like it didnt matter your neighbour you wanted to get to know.hates the band you think is the "bestest" thing the university ever gave permission to play shit..

so is that really the right thing to do? to just let em' walk you over.. and then u judge.. ?

btw..i dunno how my brother meets so many famoous people right in this little red dot.. amazingly he just met russel peters! like omg.. russel peters.. and it wasnt the first time. Cool eh? haha and he also met alan johnson once like 2 weeks ago.. DRUNK!!!hahah

like..sometimes alan johnson is alreAdy kind of weird and "JUMPY" even when he's sober...like dt time when we were rehearsing for teachers' day.. he started taking ping pong balls and threw it at his bass amp.. weird right? imagine if he's drunk and he starts dancing half naked around the bar hahaha..

u noe if i could really be someone.. i think i decided that i'd choose to be seth macfarlane..and i think its true that laughter is the best medicine.. (only if u are really funny.. not like robin williams in that excerpt from family guy.. [robin williams take a toilet paper.. eh haha im peter pan.. off to never land im so funny im not half a man.. and then some dying kid in the hospital says.. please stop im dying.. and he says no idiot..u laugh at my jokes. hahaha.. and then the kis takes off his respirator and kills himself hahah!])

and so yeah its the best medicine.. coz i cant imagine my life without humour! without family guy.. wow.. i wouldn't be indian.. haha.. nvm i dont get it too..xP
like everyday making urself laugh and others laugh and u get that satisfaction..wow im funny.. people like funny people.. and when people like funny people.. they wanna do funny people ;) nah just kidding.. people like funny people.. and people like me like hanging around people.. so isnt being a funny person like the best gift ever?

kumarr signing off..

be kind rewind.. watch your family guy..take some drugs and try..and then you're free to die ;D

btw.. a joke i found off some xanga site through nevin's ....

HOW TO CALL THE POLICE ..... this works especially well in the UK

HOW TO CALL THE POLICE WHEN YOU'RE OLD AND DON'T MOVE FAST ANYMORE.

George Phillips of Marsh Green, Wigan was going up to bed when his wife told him that he'd left the light on in the garden shed, which she could see from the bedroom window.

George opened the back door to go turn off the light but saw that there were people in the shed stealing things.
He phoned the police, who asked 'Is someone in your house?' and he said 'no'. Then they said that all patrols were busy, and that he should simply lock his door and an officer would be along when available. George said, 'Okay,' hung up, counted to 30, and phoned the police again..

'Hello, I just called you a few seconds ago because there were people stealing things from my shed. Well, you don't have to worry about them now because I've just shot them.' Then he hung up.

Within five minutes three police cars, an Armed Response Unit, and an ambulance showed up at the Phillips' residence and caught the burglars red-handed.

One of the Policemen said to George: 'I thought you said that you'd shot them!'
George said, 'I thought you said there was nobody available!'

2008-11-05T02:43:00.002-08:00

Last night

last night..was kind of like shortest night i ever had so far in the holidays. I slept my earliest..at about 2 am. (usually i go to bed at 2 but kick around until i sleep at like 5 or 4..sometimes later ..eeek) i need to start taking care of my eyes.. i swear, i think my eyebags are more obvious now coz i got dark skin right? so hard to see..but unusually now quite evident already..my mom said my eyes getting swollen.. like starting to redden..

wow. I really underestimated the importance of sleep. Should have listened to what everyone said to me..

"you're a nocturnal retard"

"you got insomnia!"

"You're gonna be blind like a bat!"

not so constructive eh? but well..its not important to know what's wrong with you.but instead know what the fuck to do to amend this shit of a mess..

poblem is..i dont have INSOMNIA! IM NOT A NOCTURNAL RETARD..and NO IM NOT A MUTATED BAT CUM HUMAN...at least if i were any of those..there would be medication that'd cure the situation.. but now that im actualy normal.. i dunno what to do...

anyway.. the story about how a man who only had this easy job of loading and unloading frozen food into this big gigantic freezer room.. had a fear of one day getting locked up there and freezing to death. and then one day that he got locked in and he go so scared.he died.. but police said that the freezer wasn't even on..and psychologists concluded its coz of his mindset; that he died..

so is it really all in the head?

anyway..family guy owns..if u guys havnt watched it and u like slapstick adult cartoons.. go to www.familyguynow.com using mozilla and watch season 5 first.. best season to me!

and im gonna jam tmrw, with dillon on lead guitar,reuben is coming back as rhytm (he better be serious..) and then hasss cant make it..so sashis coming in for us. if all goes well, we're gonna finish about at least 3 songs..

rock & roll by led zeppelin
Living loving maid by led zeppelin
Ethiopian song/hands by ATAXIA (john frusciante band)

and if all goes too well xD

we'll try

cherub rock by smashing pumpkins
and maybe day tripper by beatles

pay it forward

2008-11-04T03:02:00.000-08:00

pay it forward

in PSLTC.. we watched pay it forward on day 1.. for reflection. and it was cool how just like the pay it forward theory.. where. 1 person helps three people..and that three people help another three people.. and it keeps going..and the ratio between PSL and non PSL in our sec 2 level is 1:3 ... interesting..

and i just have to say..it was an awesome movie..that brought out a really good message.. how such a young boy in school could make such a difference in the world in a mere social studies project

Pay it Forward trailer

-Like some other kids, 12-year-old Trevor McKinney believed in the goodness of human nature. Like many other kids, he planned to change the world for the better. Unlike most other kids, he succeeded.

- three imperfect people. one perfect idea

-When someone does you a big favor, don't pay it back … Pay It Forward.

SPOILER WARNING!
at the end.. (VERY VERY VERY SAD ENDING.. almost cried..i would have if it was in the cinemas) haley joel osment's character dies!!! like wtf?? so sad. . Trevor has come to the defense of a friend who is being attacked by bullies, and is trying to fight them off, although they are older and bigger. As Eugene and Arlene run down to stop the fight, the main bully who is a gangster-like boy impulsively pulls out a knife. Trevor is pushed onto the boy with the knife and is thus inadvertently stabbed in the abdomen. Trevor is rushed to hospital, where he dies from the stabbing.

Terribly distraught, Arlene and Eugene are later watching a television news report about "pay it forward" and Trevor's death, and learn that the movement has grown nationwide. Venturing outside, they see hundreds of people gathering in a vigil to pay their respects to Trevor, with yet more people arriving in a stream of vehicles visible in the distance as the movie ends.

sigh..

dreams

2008-11-04T02:54:00.000-08:00

dreams..

what comes into your mind..when that "deep" and symbolic word flashes in your mind..

a mirrror that reflects your future? your past? your previour birth?

an omen?

just plain bullshit?

just wet? xD

disgusting?

Reflective?

Guilt?

it seems like number one could apply to some.. like i was watching some show. and it mentioned about a young boy who had dreams about this middle aged man killing some teenager. And one day he sees that man and he tells that man that he saw him in his dream killing someone (he's only 8 and is still unsure) and that guy looks at him.. and suddenly he feels afraid and he starts getting cold sweat everywhere... and in his wallet was some really old black and white picture of a boy who looked exactly like the 8 year old.

What's yor take on the plot?

my opinion: the man killed an older version of the 8 year old .. a previous birth of him..some time ago and this boy is now getting these dreams as he was the next birth of him.. who knows? the teenager's death date could be exactly the same as the birthdate of the 8 year old... scary eh?

if u believe in reincarnation.. well, i dunno how..but i would really want to know what kind of person i was in my previous birth.

and if u believe in Karma..u probably have to do something really good in this birth to get a good life in your next birth..

so my best wishes to everyone to get good karma!

Hands

2008-11-04T02:45:00.000-08:00

Man, i know it hAs to be good

Ataxia - the ethiopian song a.k.a Hands (a john frusciante band)

i swear.. john frusciante is the shit. From rhcp to ataxia.to solo.. like wow. U should check out his solo stuff also..

past recedes by john frusciante

like they say..no one does a solo like frusciante..not fast not technical but so emotional..like it came right from JESUS!

avenge me? avenge thee

2008-11-03T10:21:00.000-08:00

Avenge me? Avenge plea?

so many things have been going around in the world.. and it was especially evident in PSLTC when..the frater group did their showtime.. lol.. they had like Anwar, Mas slemat, ERP man and of course "busty" china woman (melamine).. and of course.. melvyn's lame joke.. singapore got maggie mee.. then malaysia got what mee?

answer: solemney!

haha. stupid but funny. BUt as the world is becoming a shit hole.. some ppl plotted to kill obama? i didnt know too..until i saw some guy's status in facebook.. like wtf? but i still have no idea what the motive is.. Racism? or maybe they think Obama might be Osama. weeeird.. just like how mick jagger was suppose to die.. as the hell's angels harley davison group plotted.. but their plan was super fail..

but of course.. my deepest condolences goes to jennifer hudson. Like..who would think that'd happen to her? and they even think it could be her ex convicted brother. I have no idea how a family member could come to think of doing that. a poor innoncent 7 year old boy. a really supportive mother.. now as good as coffin toast.

I had a Plush did U?

2008-11-03T04:46:00.001-08:00

I had a plush. Did you?

have u ever tought. that maybe, you are this only and lonley character in this world. And that everyone else around you..are just characters of a play and they simply..revolve around you. Like as if..they were aliens who could actually survive without food,water,light...love? pretty scary isn't it. And maybe even..like when you're asleep.. they are all gathered up in some stuffy room.. conspiring in their alien language, what to do.. and god.. is simply, the director of this fancy play. and your mother, the producer?

But just imagine.. all that ocstracizing.. all that fake love and hate.. all that false feelings. All that ploy an crap. And what's worse.. is the very painful thing of thinking of that possibility. Like cobain interpreted.. i think im dumb, or maybe just happy? and it does make a hell load of sense. As simple as how in ww2 or ww1.. wwhere if you actually knew too much.. you had to be captured and kept captive in the concentration camps.. just like those who thought the nazis were just malicious beasts of the universe.... and the more you try to revolt against them..the more you are "marked" and kept watched upon. And when they do capture you... you're as good as dead. Family, shelter, love, friends.. are just as good as dust to you. and just as good as gone. Your lie becomes a hell hole.. witH only the possibility of you thinking that "god isn't fair".. that "god isn't there" . And your atheist believes lead you to be absolute pessmists.. Such that you see no light in everything..until that very day you get your wish; to die and be free of all these horrendous scourges of the universe.. so..if they do say; to survive in this geoid.. is to outwit. Do take it indirectly.. rather than literally.. to outiwt..means to act dumb and play along. That..is .if you want to sruvive..not to be a "saviour".. to be a survivor.. is not to be a saviour.
I actually happened to think of that when i was like around.. 6 or 7 years old. because of the simple theory; my mom doesnt tell me where babies come from..my dad doesn't let me use his shaver. They must be conspiring something against me. Like the shaver could be a "cryptex" or whatever... to the codes of this ploy of a universe.. and if i found where babies come from.. maybe they came from some fancy machine of slime..

weird.. but well..isn't there a show about it? the truman show. Gosh.. that movie really answered all my questions;that what i've been thiking of..is just plain bullshit!

PSLTC

2008-11-02T02:53:00.001-08:00

wow. past 3 days were just.. awesome fun and meaningful. PSLTC.. unliike how i expected, was extremely enjoyable and one that was very brotherly and it also makes u think alot..on who u represent. as a whole.

we started off.. with out groups. All our groups were like.. named after the word "brother" in diff languages. Mine was "FRE`RE" which is brother in french. When i looked at the list.. i was like.. wow.. only 2 people whom i know and have spent time with before.. bryan lum and jen u. and the others were like.. bryan low,qing ke (judo captain),dhanaraj,russel,zhi wei and justin... i've seen justin,zhi wei and qing ke around before and very little of bryan low.. and had never seen russel before.

Startled at first i was.. but as the day began in LT1.. singing songs.. and doing energizers.. talks.. such as the one by sydney tan,bro mike and also a former sji boy, now lassalian trainer..kenny wong. and also, the sesssions.. where i got to know bryan low a bit more.. coz i paired with him. i found he was quite a joy to have in the group and so.. i thought.. hey maybe this group aint tt bad after all... and yes they did prove me wrong.. those 3 days felt like as if i knew them for ages..

we did quite well i think. Despite the "underdogs" or whatever.. we won the team games.. but hey not all of us are athletes eh.. how'd we win? teamwork of course.. and also many others that are branches of teamwork..like communication, taking risks, being a guidance.. encouraging..coordination.. stuff like that.

show time was definately awesome. super funny..laughed my ass off till wanna cry. We were up first.. and we didnt know the benchmark..so risk risk risk.. ours was a skit on integrity..and so we decided to do a story on 2 friends.. blum (bryan lum) and henry (me) who are of course..childhood close friends.. they danceed together..played games together..played hide and seek together and ogled at girls together.. (jen u was the girl) lol.. then we made an oath that we would be men of integrity whenever one of us is in need.. so 20 years later.. blum gets a date..his first date. (jen u the girl again..jennifer..haha) and then blum gets damn happy.. but then henry calls him from petro banca haha and then he says he stuck there with no passport and money and is fully drunk..and is still drinking.. and then blum is in a dillema.. but then after some contemplation ..he decides to keep true to his oath.. and cancels the date. then he gets a cab.. and who else could be your driver..other than bishan gay! (played by dhanaraj..he played it quite well) so then blum gets scared.. but he decides his friend is more important. so they went on their way and ooops.. customs! (played by justin ..while the guards played by russel and zhi wei) and blum realises he lost his passport.. and as the custom peeps decide to take some action.. blum tell bishan gay.. can do me one favour? u help me get through these peeps and i give u something? (gives a wink) .. so bg drives through as the customs all kenna tekkan and then sees henry..and brings him in the cab.. and then the driver is like.. i tot u said u gonna give me.. (winks) i tot u man of integrity? and ends

other skits were more funnier than ours by far tough

so finally got the shirt! woots.. and our cheer came in 3rd.. not so bad lah..we didnt even do any actions..

my sis the ...

2008-10-30T10:49:00.000-07:00

btw.. sorry the title was death is a bitch.. haha really cool episode. and i also watched 15 minutes of shame.. how meg feels her family is so embarrassing. (includes peter in a clam suit and ending up on his flipside (totally naked).. )brian: i didn't know peter's penis was like that.

and like their life becomes kind of like the MTV show , "the osbournes"... and they kick meg out of the show coz she's the least popular charct in the show and replace her with some hot sexy bitch.. and she's like.. hello chris. chris: u know my name? fake meg: of course i do..im ur sister.

but the best has to be when (in death is a bitch) stewie sucks up to death by massaging him and all.. and lois is like... do mind him please.. and death is like.. oh i dont mind at all. he kind of reminds me of how i was when i was younger.. hmm.. tough i hope his teenage life doesnt end up like mine. death is shown having sex with a girl in a car and all u see is the car moving and some orgasms.. and death is like oh yeagh.. oh yeah.. and the girls orgasms stop.. and the car shaking stop.. and he's like.. oh! NOT AGAIN!??? now im gonna be a virgin forever.. or am I? and the car starts shaking again.. haha.. that made my day.

and so.. my sis is the .... yeah maybe not so true. but true for now. my younger one of course. 13 years of age.. and no sense of mental maturity (to be specific.. sensuality and grace)

this is how our arguement went..

narration: brother ( me ) starts using the unsused com which is on her account. with her msn on...

sis: oi! why u using my account? cannot use urs is it?

brother: why u got something to hide? im only gonna use for a while.. checking my facebook

sis: (snatches the mouse away) i don't care.. i know u gonna download some stuff and my account only gonna be filled up..

brother: why would i do that? even if i do.. im only gonna polish ur immature playlist.. but why would i? i can still save it my account? why so scared?

sis: no.. when my frens start talking about something on my msn..then ull act like u're me and tell them hi you're an assshole.. screw off.. and stuff like tt.. right?

brother: are u sure u want me not to say that? or ur afraid ur frens say something obscure and i see it?

sis: whatever...

brother: even if i wanted to do that.. i would have other better ways.. but why would i? i have a life

sis: (says to herself like some screwed up mofo) no life assholes..

brother: riiiight.... there's a laptop ther.e. why not use that?

sis: (lingers to the laptop ) no life assholes....

that's an example of desperation for losing ur name.. yeap.

who wants some honey..so long as there's some money

2008-10-28T11:01:00.001-07:00

didn't post yesterday, coz was damn tired after training. finally a training where i at least put 50 percent of effort in. and btw, can u actually see the "fed with a silverpoon" post and the "..." post.. coz i can't see it sometimes. and even in the new hockey blog i just created yesterday the recent post i can't view. Either, my computer timed out or blogger is under construction.

anyway link.. http://www.sjihockey1994.blogspot.com/

and familyguynow.com is kind of pissing me off!!! the links keep taking super long to load and end up saying.. oops page not found or video cant be found. and im waiting for the lastest episode to air and maybe view it from sidereel. catch "road to germany" if u havnt. good episode..but for season 7.. i dream of jesus was the best!

"just after i raised the river messiah i went to play call of duty 4 with my 12 disciples"

haha.. classic slapstick..xD

my favourite character still has to be stewie!

and so.. back to reality.. training was fun, especially the lan after that.. wwe played for like 3 hours and my last hour derek,josiah.eugene,aaron and all cAme.. but wtheck.. they were playing dota.. so i just played unreal tournament... was new to the game but fun and veruy fast paced.. with some help from josh. and also cod 4 was ownage fun as usual. tough i sucked on wet works map and ambush.. i still love backlot the most. my best map.. using pwnage mp5 with silencer and just when i had the perk to leave grenade if i die,they all wanted to play dota.. saaaadddd.. i suck at close range assault. coz i suck at aiming

and also i suck at knifing.. i get too nervous lol.. and keenan keep last stand shit.. i keep thinking he died and then he kills me in last stand..

so after tt..had a dillema.. to take bus 14, or train..so evantually took train altough i wanted to take 14 coz walk lesser.. but coz samuel wanted go home earlier and i didnt wanna go home alone.. so went with darrel, josh, samuel,coleman. lol.. i talking to them in the train so much until i missed my stop...and ended up in tanah merah.

today.. we jammed. Me, hass,Dillon and Abrar. I met abrar first at penin..and dilon said he'll take 1.5 hours to come..coz he was stuck in ICA with 171 ppl in front of him..haha, so yah.. tried to kill time at some coffee shop and talking about some hockey stuff and i didnt noe that this year sec 3s were considered the worst batch in academics. Apparently they even said it in the thanksgiving prayer.

then hass came at about 5.. so we booked jade's for an hour.. and jammin was quite unprogressive coz dillon had the leftey. so he came after half an hour. adn we extended another hour. didnt play tt much. coz hass didnt learn cherub rock, black dog and give it away lyrics. so all we did was really bitsy.. but more systematic and progressive than other sessions. by far....

btw. and finally i can wtach a family guy episode! season 2.. death meets peter.

fed with a silverspoon

2008-10-28T11:01:00.000-07:00

can't wait for tmrw's training. i guess im just gonna concentrate more on gaining my fitness back and improving my sprinting. im really going to take this B div season very seriously. and more like i'm going to take everything i do seriously.
and im really starting to think about how..i;ve come to acceptance to many things.. for example...

u noe how the "cliched" singaporean parents are. "oh john. u got straight As? wow. u deserve an x box for what u have done!"

just like how i hated those kind of parents.. i can't believe i have come to acceptance with it. i have no idea why i have to be so..petty in my impressions of those kind of parents. coz now, my mom said i can get what i want..so long as its within the 200 dollar mark. and that's something i need and appreciate. coz she owes me alot and definately not for this year.. coz this year i did shit.

but i hate to use the term ,"she owes me".. after all ..she has been the one who stood behind me all this while.. and the results were what i owe her.. wow im starting to become those typical singapore kids; all fed with silver spoons... thank god for the economic crisis.. we need to learn how to live man.. all living so lavishly..spending here..and there.

it seems like ..the older u get, the more u spend. so damn true.. and its not coz of "responsibilities".. it's coz of what seems to be .. "the need to impress others".. it is important to impress others but.. wow as the years go by, the more things we have to impress others.. the more we impress others the more money we lose..

i still rmbr in primary school, how i hated those kids who had fancy hair.. thought it was a way of "expressing their need of attention"... i mean if ur hair looked normal no one woul;d have cared if it was ugly.. so why make it the center of attraction? ur only asking for trouble..

and speaking of trouble.. i've not been getting into the kind of soup i used to get into in primary school.. get scolded for the most stupidest of reasons.. "oh u didnt bring ur english textbook, NOW FACE THE WALL"... now its more like.. "u came late for training, ok do 9 laps"-arul

oh yes..and speaking of "punishment" (if u know what i mean).. any opinions on whom u'd rather do? Angelina jolie or Rachel BIlson.. its hard to pick coz both of em are of diff ... "groups".. one's a hot sultry milf who has the best lips in the world.. while the other is a small little cutie. yeah the hardest of all... would u like ur lady hot or pretty? with or without milk?

anyway.. why singapore no metalfest? i noe maybe coz of market. but imagine if like.. motorhead,judas priest,testament,iron maiden and maybe err..anthrax or.. just the big four. tt'll definately cost like err? 300 ro 400? haha.. they probably never will come to singapore.. no market at all.. wow posting this shit at 06 52..gtg in 8 mins for trng.

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2008-10-28T10:26:00.001-07:00

where on earth do u guys find such good blog skins? majority of what i find in blogskins.com are either too feminine, emo or just too colourful or, in some cases..they don't work for my layout. it just screws everything up.

so wira told me that my blog is too chunky and the font too small. so now im gonna try not making it chunky. and also.. for the font size i cant really change it..coz if i hcnage the size to 2.. its big but all the letter cram up..

so it's either i find another blog skin, or i just stick with this sucky font. and also, i think i should be more opiniated.. like what wira said, opiniated blogs are much more interesting.. but its not only coz i wanna have an interesting blog..but i wanna grow up.

im still this scrawny ass, and so at least i should be matured in the mind, right?

so from now on, im gonna be more opiniated..not like i've never tried, but i'm gonna try harder
and no.. i'm not trying to be someone else... im just trying to grow up.

so hang on.. now got happy hour on channel 5

distaste?

2008-10-28T04:21:00.000-07:00

so i was reading winston's blog after quite a long time..and what grabbed my attention the most was definitley his post about his detestment for his father..and as i looked at his reasons..i kind of think thAT teenagers these days are getting a bit too narrow minded..coz they probably dunno how other people's fathers are.. like look at mine. I bet if winston had my father as his dad..he'll die. But i feel for winston coz..i really feel compared to mothers and fathers, fathers are the worst.

ill give examples to how my dad is, from what i learnt from the past 2 days not like what other dads are like..

my dad has had 3 wives.. and probably has another one in bangalore, india right now.. first was my mom, then a malaysian one, then a nepalese one..and i wont be surprised he has one in india right now.. coz he likes having sex and he already has err.. (calculating all of his wives) 7 kids..from diff countries

he is also quite a control freak. apparently, he spies on us using his 8 stupid.good for nothing evil sisters in singapore... and he even called my eldest bro saying he knows what he has been doing and even talked about some of his "dirt".. and my bro said he lost all the respect he ever had for him.. and he says stuff like.. oh..im dying.and none of u send me any cash or anythingand none of u ever come to see me.. but strangely..that coughing voice that he uses in the beginning starts to die out towards the end. not a very good actor dad.. not even worth a nominee

i have so many things to say about him..but i dont want my blog to appear as an "emo" blog ..full of sadness, insults and hate. and that's an oath i wanna keep. coz a cyber blog..is only limited to saying some things and not everything

and also..i fell proud of myself for being able to appreciate mr jude tan for all he has done..after a very simple letter from him i received today. he said that if i have any problems making the payment for the psl camp thingy. i should not fear asking him. it totally changed my mind of how i tot he was a "demoralising, no life asshole". and i actually feel good to have dedicated a performance to him on teachers' day coz he is actually a very nice person. like severus snape..or doctor cox from scrubs.. haha he who risks what other people think of him to help others.. what a nice guy.

festive season

2008-10-27T11:04:00.001-07:00

so second, third and fourth leg of visiting..all done. went to my fourth uncle's place..but as per planned, my bro was suppose to pick us up in his noisy subaru..but instead..he was stuck in SLE with my eldest bro after picking him up from jurong..so then took a cab to my uncle's place,, (we;ve never been there for a year). so we talked here adn there and then we moved to my grandmom's place..where all of us were there except for my "nazi looking" uncle..dunno where he went. then my bros met us there and lastly went to my sis bf;s place..where he wasnt there coz he was in India doing some mountain climbing.. so had some fun with his 2 year old nephew.. wow just realised i kind of like entertaining babies..but they can be quite a pain sometimes.. but all in all very interesting age.. (age of innoncence.. dumb=happy)
and his father was showing us some card tricks.. the usual pro stuff.. like he shuffle shuffle get all 4 as in one stack.and got one damn complicated one..really impressive. Then like i think 4 of em were drunk.. lol.. deepavali (festival of alcohol?)

it's better to live one day as a lion than a thousand days as a lamb

2008-10-27T00:32:00.000-07:00

so..the ensued shopping started again yesterday. Was quite amazed when i got a phone call while i was sleeping..was some unknown number..my eldest bro, who lives on his own in jurong (25 years of age).asked me to open the gate. i was wtf?why he come all of a sudden..so then he said he was gonna bring us shopping in either vivo or orchard..coz he has a friend who works in vivo tangs and we can get 20 percent discount..but who wants to buy from tangs? still too ex.. and he has a PSP in his hand..i was like wtf??? since when he thought of buying games? he said he had 2.. and he could give us one.. wow..it seemed he changed alot since the last time we saw him..(huge huge huge difference)

so then..we ate at NYDC..still has good food.. so we didnt eat alot..like 3 of us,sharing a tears in heaven spaghetti,dynamite pizza and chicken in a blanket.and then i had like this drink called milk choco elephancinno..tasted like milo..dunno why so ex.. so then,we started to shop at HMV at the heeren coz my bro wanted to get some dvd coz he had a hdtv tele and he had no DVDs and only VCDS..so i cant rmbr what he bought but i think he bought one al pacino film.. but i noe he bought 2.. wow..but i really wish i could watch stanley kubrick's space odyssey (if tts how u spell it which im sure isn't) and they even featured goodfellas as HMV christmas. so then..we saw a corner where they sold quite cool printed tees.. and there were like mothership,appetite for destruction,ac/dc and stuff like dt.but i had em already..so i went for this pretty cool one with the joker's smile in the middle.. i dont plan to wear it out anywhere..but i think maybe wear it with tt sweater i got from far east yesterday at some Z shop..i cant believe its size L..i mean wth? im so small and L fits me??? but i like the colour coz its simple and dark...and quite a good price about 30 bucks.. so my shopping ended there..coz i think i shopped quit enough for the festive season.but my sis went shopping for a full set..earrring,shorts,a tube dress (she wears a sweater) and some other stuff.my bro wanted to get me some hand accessories but to me..at this age a bit poserish..

oh and my bro also went to get needle for piercing tongue..lol i thought it was for him.which i wont be that surprised at..coz he is pretty much the ougoing,daring kind of person. and he got like a silver stud for it..but i think its for his friend dave, the guy who works at tangs. so then we went to wisma, cottonon shop to get my bro some shirts..i told him about topmand we found the topman at wisma ,just as joavan said..closed down.. so he got pretty much 2 shirts tt look like topman shirts for 30 bucks...:) about the same price in topman..

then we went home from somerset..and reached home exactly at 6pm.. so then, formally dressed, we were picked up by our other bro..who rented a pretty cool car..it had like a speedometer..3 meters. and th exhaust was illegal..but since he rented it it was alright coz he could just blame it on the guy he rented it from..for a family car it made a fucking shit load of noise..everyone was popping their heads out to check out the car..

so then we went to my mom's fren's house..and it seemed my brothers and sister (my 2 elder bros and my elder sis) used to live there before..every week and it looked alot different but still had its tinge of warmth and comfort in it.. i ate quite alot..like turkey,chicekn,mutton..oh and the best..i finished a whole box of ferrero rocher..by myself..haha..i was deprived of that for a whole 6 months.. so then my eldest bro decided to do some alcohol..and he took some green coloured drink and he just downed it without thinking of anything.. and i asked him..aren't u scared u get too high and blabber out something u shouldn;t ? and his answer was .."happens alot..most of the time i blabber out the truth..and the truth ain't very pretty" so then my uncle charles who is like an "alcohol expert" told my bro..that the drink was 75 percent alcohol and quite famous in france and then he said..and part 2.. some people go insane after taking it.. haha..of course he was just pulling his leg but my bros reaction was damn funny.. so yea..we had a really good time.. and then went home while my bro went back to his house in juron.. and now second leg of visiting about to start.. going to my uncle's house with everyone except my elder sis who's in her bf;s house.. and without my mom who's doing some work...

target time

2008-10-25T09:41:00.000-07:00

so...since everyone has their resolutions and targets for next year here's mine...

i am going to take next year as a refinement of what happened this year.. im gonna be a good josephinan..who does all the CIP and stuff..and hopefully i don't end up as class com..(depends on who's the teacher..i think if i 323 its surjeet kaur.and i dont mind at all then)

- do better in math and science (my worst subjects)
-get 70 percent average for every term (at least mid year and fye)
-start practicing for o levels
-make it into the team for b div season (crossing fingers)
-LLTC
-no slacking at all

yeap tts it..tough shit..but i can do it

I'm in suffragette city!!

2008-10-25T06:15:00.000-07:00

storm large from rock star supernova

im sure some of u watched rock start supernova..and tough lukas rossi won.. i think storm deserved to win. But hey, she'sbetter off without em'.... she's hot plus she can sing!!! what else do u need??

cut my hair..(i dunno why my mom so adamant about it? it's the fucking holidays)

peanutbutter&jelly

2008-10-24T21:48:00.000-07:00

anybody heard of the band cheap trick? if you're into bands like maybe smashing pumpkins (siamese dream period) or punk stuff like the clash or the ramones..cheap trick might justb be your thing. But honestly, i don't like most of their songs..alot of em' are very lovey dovey like errr... white lion??hate tt shit..but i like this song especially..and i think most cheap trick fans love this song the most...

Cheap Trick-Surrender,1978

so anyway..if you didn't know and you're a GNR fan..chinese democracy is coming out. Songs have been leaked and in my opinion, it's not the guns n roses it used to be :(..it's too buckethead driven and i can't stand axl's voice with buckethead..i mean i respect bckethead and all but..they don't fucking click!!!! slash,duff,adler/sorum,izzy they were like peanut butter and jelly!!!! now its just peanut butter with snail meat... buckethead no feel..slash got soul..tts why his name is saul hudson. and black ice came out!!! black ice is ac/dc 's new albumn btw..their video for the single, rock and roll train has already been released..check it out. It's just as good as it always was but they still aren't thinking out of the box...

now, back to reality... so i dunno why im already starting my visiting tmrw. But its to one of my mom's old friend's place and the last time they saw me was when i was 3..and i can't really recall how they look like. so il be going shopping again for clothes.. (i lack formal wear in my wardrobe)

and i just realised that me fighting with my younger sister isn't as bad as how she fights with my elder brother (2o years of age)..gosh they fight exactly like how my 4th uncle and his wife fight.. and the age gap is like what?? seven?

so now tt the first week of holidays are about to pass..im still wondering.should i start mugging a bit..like revise my sec 2 stuff? i just revised chem..but i yet to start on math..so well, i'm going to do just waht i did when i was an enthu 12 year old waiting to be a sec 1... study study study... and i have a rough grasp of midsummer..damn..but what if i dont get full lit? ahh heck.. just see how it goes

let slip dogs of war?

2008-10-24T18:08:00.000-07:00

so yesterday, after hockey slept for a while..then at about 10pm went to my granmom's house for my granddad's funeral anniversary.. he died like 10 years before i was born and i have no idea what kind of person he was. And tough it may seem absurd, my mom was talking to her bro on the phone and they were saying things like..eh don't sabo me if i come late or ill sabo u next time..and like who wants to go for the prayers? just ponteng ah! haha..and i tot my parents weren't acting like kids..

so we slipped into the cab and the anxiety of what seemed like "the anticipation of the wake" would definitley be overwhelming or just ordinary. yet again..i've never seen all my reatives toghether for like a year and especially my 5th uncle. My 3rd and 5th uncle were considered "mommy's boys" they have reached the age of 30 and they still live and suck my grandmom's blood..the idleness seems to portray no sort of enterprise in them..coz they just dont have the "idea" or rather, the "initiative". so there he was..my 5th uncle..from a balding yet long haired big guy to a bald fair looking indian who kind of made me think he was a nazi. And that was my first impression..and first impressions count. and i wasn't trying to be rude by asking my mom there itself why he shaved..as for my 3rd uncle..he looked the same sloth to me.. Always being the laziest among all..and the most nonsense talking bastard anyone could ever put up with..if you ever get a choice between getting stuck in an island with quagmire or my uncle...just choose quagmire..trust me!!! and as for my 2 little cousins.. (they are like 6 and 7 years of age) they were as usual kiddish and the light among the group..makeing us laugh at their utter sillyness.. but oh my god..my second cousin is really quite an attention seeker...if he doesnt get what he wants he easily put up a tantrum and runs away from the living room..and the more we don't notice him the louder he cries..haha..what an "innocent' fellow..as for my other cousin..being more mature of age she was quiet and knew when to do what... and my aunt who was from acjc and teached at st gabs and now in MDIS was telling me that i should take full lit coz it's much much much more enjoable..like even if i dont enjoy it you can make urself enjoy it..and u cant make urself enjoy hist or geog unless u already enjoy it. and i mark her owrds coz tt was what i was thinking as well. She was also telling me about some other shakespeare text called king lear and it seems like a very orthodoxed story but the ending seemed..orthodox yet touching..but i wonder coz the quotes are cool something about just like silly boys play aroudn catching flies..the gods take us of simple sport...or smething like tt..has a lot of depth and tts why i wanted to do another tragedy and not comedy..

jump in the fire

2008-10-23T23:18:00.000-07:00

ZZzzzz.i'm so damn tired and sleepy. JUst came back from training. It was really overwhelming and a wake up call to tell me that i'm damn unfit ever since the 3 month break. I was already starting to get tired for the first two laps. i was damn shocked that i was able to do 9 laps during season and feel the exact same tiredness... gosh..im so unfit!!! i just hope i get back my stamina before season! if not im not in the b div team and i need to be in the team this time...last year was a fluke basically coz of the tough group we were in.. so despite the fact that today was just runs,sprints and match i felt tired and i sucked a hell load.... sigh..anyway life is getting more boring and i need some sort of thrill and i just can't seemt o think of any!!! i wanna jam!!! so damn tired of pushing the dates and the anxiety of wether we will fluke again or succeed

anyway i heard on the news today bout some new disease kind of thing..its like people who have artithmetic problesm like they cant count at all... now there's another excuse to fail math.but exactly how do they come about? like it cant be a virus..that's absurd..like a virus that injects "arithmetic gene killer" cells into u as host..like wtf??? i noe its from birth but honestly how does it come about??? anyone know the answer? like even dyslexia?how???

surrender

2008-10-23T06:15:00.000-07:00

what to do for the rest of the holidays???no idea. I guess im just going to concentrate on these things;

1)some sec 3 work and math practice
2)music (jamming,gutar pro 5 stuff)
3)hockey

not in any order though..coz i would priorotise hockey above music for now.. i'm so out of shape. I just hope my sprinting improved though..coz if it hasn't i'm not going to make it into the team coz that's what's been holding me back all this while..

as for music..i can't wait to try our new lineup! but this time we just have to start really afresh..like totally new..we're gonna do easy songs and then progress. The problems with bands that eventually break up due to disagreements or whatever is coz they tend to start with a hard song and then if it doesnt work out..their mind gets all narrow and they seem to find that omg we suck..let's forget about music. climbing small steps is always what we have to do at first no matter what.

for studies, i have learnt what i;ve done wrong from last year. No distractions for every term. I'm going to be consistent,diligent,punctual yet i wil try my best not to let go of my upcoming new social life waiting for me next year. That;s the problem with alot of people including me..we just can't balance or maybe we jsut didn't know how to balance. And now that i know how to balance i'm going to succeed and if i don't at least i know i tried my best. As they say the key to balancing is to priorotise. And look on the bright side;next year no mr kooh! and i don't think there are goign to be all those minor subjects liek com studs,info skills and all. So everyone's happy! the only subjects im worried about next year is chem and math. I dunno but i kind of hate chem...and it's not like i hate math but i just started of badly..but im going to pratice so..all's well ends well!

for now i'm just going to slack for the following 2 weeks..first of all there's the stupid ace camp which i hope would make me more fit coz i need it!!!and then there's psl camp which i still havnt pay for! ARGHHH! i think im gonna write mr tan an email later...at least show that i have some initiative. BUt honestly, that admin that atteneded to me was a bitch. Rude and offensive bitch.. sigh..anyway i don't know why such an accomplished school like SJi has to have these lousy servicemen to attend to us students when we assumingly pay 200 bucks over for school fees. and what happened to "money shouldn't be a barrier for a student's school life". well, thaty bitch made me feel ashamed to be unable to pay the 30..kudos to her service :D!

new beginning?

2008-10-22T10:06:00.000-07:00

gosh..the year just passed so fast...faster than the speed of sound. Like wtf..so fast u cant even catch your breath. I thought i would enjoy the end of school but im not..instead im missing all the mugging,anxiety,friends,teachers,long train rides while listening to my mp3..fantasizing..gosh so much.thank god there's still hockey where i can connect with my hockey buddies..but it still ain't gonna be the same 210 i love... i dunno any other class i would enjoy myself in. next year is definitley a double science class..full lit elect hist. anyway today's class dinner was awesome..dancing in the moonlight and playing around the fountain at bugis..was immature,embarrassing,wet,pointless yet enjoyable,memorable and fun. quote from wen han.."we're like assumed smart people acting like retards in public".. the irony of the idea of "fun". and while we were taking a group picture...and we had to squeeze in alvin said, "ok,who's sharp dick was that?" probably daryus or something who hasn't lost his v in uwc yet...sigh..unbelievable

so i feel like writign a thanksgiving so ill try to make it as short as possible but cant dedicate to everyone coz i wanna watch tropic thunder! so far only 15 mins lapped siol...

friends like joshua and dillon who have stuck with me through thick and thin, sick or shit. I would have never gotten through whatever shithole i've ever been into if it weren't for you guys... the only guys in the school that share my interest in music,p*r*,movies and simply ideas...i love u guys and sincerely u guys are my closest pals ever..

also guys like joavan,sudhirr,wen han and also nick and many more for all the fun,laughter and whatever help u guys have given me..thanks alot.

i have so many other friends to thank but i will do a proper thanksgiving tmrw and not to forget all the teachers to thank!

scapegoat

2008-10-21T03:05:00.000-07:00

so..i come home and bahM! i tell my mom that my result of 65 percent may not be so good... and she says.. to her self.. "all because of hockey".. ironic thing is, previously my mom used to talk about how when parents say the son didnt do well coz of their cca they aren't raising their kid right.. so mom, what's going on? not satisfied with a 65 percent after all the hardwork? not satisifed with the fac that i screwed up term 3 coz of my laziness and not hockey..coz hockey ended like in week 3 in term 3! wtf? anyway..whats the point of doing well in term tests when it's less than 15 percent of ur overall score and they aren't going to account for it at the end of they year and instead they account more for your fye scores... i really don't feel like posting the exicitng things that happened today..coz of what my mom just said. but instead congrats bryan lum for making it junior josephinan! u deserve it

everybody has a fucking problem

2008-10-20T09:15:00.001-07:00

im trying not to look back at anger..but honestly how can u not? it's almost so sudden and natural and even essantial; without it you just aren't a human. Even gods have anger...they use it for the good and for the bad..but there's always a balance. We have to have really angry people to get some changes taking place..like people who openly criticize who would hurt our feelings and make us maybe feel ocstracized from the world. And,it's a feeling everyone probably felt. Like even as mundane as a trip on an mrt and u realise you're the one with the darkest skin in the train..or you go to a heavy metal concert and you're the only one wearing a pink shirt..or to make it more controversial.. you're the only one who's a jew and you face prejudice every corner you turn to. The reason for this; results in anger. Worse than mother nature's hurricane katrina or whatever... anger>destruction>someone getting hurt>someone close to him getting hurt and the cycle goes on... and someone will get hurt if someone else gets hurt coz there's always someone there for everyone... even though you are tghe last guy from ur family line..there's somebody who would feel some empathy.

so is there someone feeling empathy for me now? coz i;m so fucking pissed at what my sis and mom just said.. i have no idea why they say its for my welfare... i asked her to sign some forms..one being the PSL form and there she goes, ranting about how she didnt want me to be a psl coz the workload is alot..like WTF? she already told me its alright that i can be one..with hockey. Then she said..then u better quit hockey coz it is the root of all ur problems.. wth??? in sec 1 didnt i prove my mettle by being consistent..maybe this year i didn't coz i was playing a fool. term 1 i proveed my self..term 2 was when i salcked and so did i in term 3...not because i had hockey? hockey ended in early term 3... and finally i prove myself worthy ENOUGH in fye and then she says i got this coz there wasn't any hockey. sigh... i tried arguing back..but two women making obsolete and meaningless remarks that they think are correct make no one's life easier except them whho are the "judges"... of course they would feel they're right..my hockey is like shit now.. and she wants me to qut.. NO WAY! if it even results me to leaving the fucking house hell yeah! i'm not a softie like i always was.. i'm gonna have what i want when i need..when its necessary. I've never asked for a platystation or whatever..and never will i..i didn;t ask for a nice trip to australia or whatever.all im asking is just for me to continue what i wanna do in school..is tt so hard? its equivalent to having fun

and what i hate about it...is how she didnt walk the talk.. she already said i can do whatever i want during the holidays...that why i already have a fucking line up ready

LAMDA,training,ace camp,psl camp,drum lessons at dixies/jam with dillon and hass (reuben left the band and i aslo haver tuition for math and physics and chem getting ready..

realrunrealrunrealrunrealrunrealrun

2008-10-19T10:59:00.000-07:00

my goodness...its 2 am and i just woke up from my everlong slumber i took just after i came back from real run. Real run was, compared to other years,for us the most
"unfun". Teacher's sleeping with us, countless of boundaries..and it was hell of a work to marshall for the rugby guys. They were spectating the beach area and the runners just didnt listen to em at all... had weird exuses like "the sand is uneven,scared my leg get injured"..."i can run in all terrains" (runs on grass and monkey see monkey do..all follow) gosh...we, hockey peeps didnt get that (thankfully) but i felt damn bad for them.. coz they already got screwed the previous night fo playing rugby near the exhibition hall there..

so i stuck with joshua,akhi and brandon goh throughout the night.. and slept with josh (not in an awkard fashion) coz of all the fucking important things we had to bring..i fucking forgot to fucking bring my fucking sleeping bag!!!!!!! i borught everything except that... genius?? so i was playing with josh's psp.. some weird zombie game called infection..was damn cool..and then latter played star wars.then josh was reading some "101 things shd know how to do" or something...one of em being the ability to perform an exorcism.. tim zhang collapsed tough.. and he got a cut on his chin..which was quite deep..so i kept going out of the room to get fresh air...coz i really couldn't sleep.

she got the looks...she got the looks that kill!

2008-10-17T08:30:00.000-07:00

so actually it was false alarm. Results were today and motley crue was yesterday! I'm telling you..motley crue freaking owned! when joshua and i met reuben there..the crowd looked damn weird. Most of em wearing black..smoking like crazy or boozing away and some wearing motley crue merch. It was what i kind of expected but not in singapore. Many of em' came from all round asia just to catch crue. So concert started off quite weak, coz of the opener.. it was some local band called obssesion..and i have to say they're quite good for a local band but they lacked presence and since it was a motley crue concert we expected a better opener. And they played like 6 songs which pissed majority of the crowd.. and since it was my first hair metal concert, i learnt many things..

1)don't go there with a fever or you'll end up puking
2)deny all drinks offered by people twice your age
3)get the best feel u can with the chick infront of you no matter how young you are.
4)Never bring a bag along coz then your rocking will have many boundaries..
5)wear something dark to fit in
6)either enjoy or pretend to enjoy open criticism and vulgar language even though it was rated 6+
7)call a cab after the concert..you're never gonna get another cab
8)rock out anyway you want...you can even look like an asshole
9)Make sure you rock out...if not prepare to be an outcast and even booed out..
10)It's fucking CRUE, you're never gonna see em very much! enjoy mick mars playing voodoo child! like wth???!!! IT FRKING CRUE!!! TREASURE THE FUCKING EXPERIENCE AND THANK YOUR FRIEND WHO BROUGHT YOU THERE! THANKS RIBBON!

but damn..that was the best concert i had ever went for.. the people were very open and nice and pretty funny.. there was one guy who gave me a drink (alcohol) and i said no thanks.. coz i knew my mom would know i took alcohol very simply.. so joshua just grabbed the drink and drank it down and the guy was shouting.. THIS DUDE JUST LOST HIS VIRGINITY! HE JUST POPPED SOME CHERRIES! haha..but joshua took alcohol before so nothing that bad for him..but the alcohol was frking crazy for those guys coz they got drunk and they were freaking tipsy...one of em even dropped his specs and those around there were so kind to just move away for him and some were even using their lights to find it for him.. it's like you never get a more united and unanimous audience like a heavy metal concert.. most people sterotype us as vulgar,immoral cunts (although there is some truth in some) but a metal mosh is definitley the best mosh anyone can get... like they really help you despite them looking kind of scary. And so we waited until 9 plus for crue to come on and there was this curtain put on..so when it opened with em in it.. every one went fucking wild! like i became seperated from reuben and josh coz of the mosh getting moshier.. so i ended up furtther in front and far left.. crue staretd off with kickstart my heart and the crowd was freakin wild..we were screaming like mad..and seeing those hands with the metal sign was just memorable and damn significant. Then they went on with shout at the devil..and later on stuff like same ol' situation,primal scream,looks that kill,don't go away mad (just go away),girls girls (the intro was damn cool..vince asked us to put our right hand up and our left hand up and clecnh our fists and move it up and down and then there was motorbike playing and we all knew what to do..) they also played saint los angeles..which was freaking awesome and they ended off with dr feelgood .. (the crowd went super crazy) and then we asked for an encore and they played home sweet home.. with tommy on piano fro a while.. im telling u it was awesome..just awesome.. but best was vince trying to play guitar he kept doing a powert stahnd for just one chord..! haha.. and nikki sixx was awesome too..he threw like a hell load of picks at us and i almost got one but the guy in front of me was more hardcore and pushed me to get it..haha. Tommy lee was weird.. he kept saying " we love we love you.. muacks.. now i wanna hell yea! say what? a hell yea!" and mick mars as usual was freaking quiet..he didnt whisper a word.. but damn his solo was awesome..he even went to voodoo child!.. ribbon even aksed me if he was wearin a mask..haha vince was as usual vocal and cool...

Dr feelgood - motley crue

overall an awesome concert with a hard night to catch a cab..

so now..about what happened today..ahhh..the judgement day was unexpectedly satisfactory..this what i got

lit-72
geog-58
english-68
MT-68 (and that's second highest! like wth!!?!?!?)
science-71 (thankflly coz my bio..83 pulled up all my other sciences which were only 60 plus..)
math-56 (very bad for most but im satisfied coz i always fail math)
history-61

total average%-65

i wanna go at least 323 but i logically, in order to do well in upper sec i need triple science coz bio is my strong subject. okay..joavan is retarded, for getting all a1s exceprt for mother tongue.. whch (nvm i wont say it..) he got 52. btu i think ben topped the class with 78 percent someting with joavan getting a few 0.1s away..well to these muggers:fuck you!..nah just kidding..congratulations! and if u dont want triple science pelase screw off i need triple!

and also for humaities..im going for full lit and elect hist. lit was a disappointment!!!!! with joavan getting a1 i should rightfully get an a1 too.. i guess application was where i failed.. i even rmbred all the quotes.. sigh.. and also i want to show my results to jude tan who said ill end up in326..bloody hell..

after tt went nick's house to distrub him..so ordered like 5 pizzas all share.. watched the messenger whichmost ppl there all never let nick watch haha.. all talking alot of cock..but messenger was nice..but the actress was even better..

it's just rock and roll but i like it

2008-10-15T06:54:00.000-07:00

i probably hardly had an emo post to date.. and im hoping tmrw wont be an emo post..i just hope my results will be something that i can joyfully blog about

tmrw is results.. and im so not ready for it! and plus tmrw is motley crue.. i just hope i dont go for the concert half hearted coz my results suck..but im positive and i did my best so i have nothing to lose..anyway..newsflash!i'm a psl but i think others deserve it more than me..like coleman..haiz..i dunno why jude tan judge like tt!!

i also realised im kind of getting irritated by things and people more easily..especially mosquitoes they are really getting on my nerves..bite here,there and everywhere... they seriously are the worst pests..coz they are so frking light u wont know when they bite you..actually lizards are worse coz of their sickly appearance..

so today, was quite packed again..but not with excitement. Went to school to pass the ace camp documents to pe dept..but wen there nobody was there..got damn pissed..like wasted my bus fare and fucking 2 hrs travel time..then after tt took bus to orchard and took train to city hall and stoned there for a while until ribbon and dillon came to jam at dan;s.. wanted to go jade's but was booked..

today's jam was unprogressive..-.-" can't stand it..we're like going nowhere! and ribbon..if u're reading this i think i better tell u directly..please stop cracking...its only going to worsen ur health.. and ffor the welfare of the band and us..coz we care for u..i noe im probably a dick for saying this on my blog..but dillon and i cant take it. And i know i should have told u this directly...but im a penis with no balls and im a frking coward coz i have no guts to tell u tt in person.

i think im a frking weeenie. coz im not escalatin in life..im just downgrading..im a frking coward who cant express his own feelings and im just a sensitive butch.. i dunno why im like tt but..i cant be spontaneous and like super open minded..and i dunno but im changing alot...and i dont like the way its going...

and i wanted to tell this to someone..but yet again i have no guts to hurt his feelings..and jst a hint.. ur someone very close to me and i wont expose ur name

ode to somebody

stop waving those flags
like a door with no latch
ur clothes went out the window
when u screamed about her
u'r never gonna be noticed
no matter how hard u keep trying
u seek someone to attend to you
but no one sees u
stop throwing ur mask
just leave it on

i wont tell anyone who it's about.. but its pretty obviopus who its' about i dun intend to make it rhyme or whatever im just telling this to tt someone coz i have no ghuts to tell it to him in person

like i have guts myself? no ... but o0noly way to do good to people around me wen i cant do anything about myself ..is to tell them whats wrong with em..dont get me wrogn .im just telling this to you coz ur my friend

Dr feelgood!

2008-10-14T09:56:00.000-07:00

so reuben smsed me today and asked me if i wanted to go motely crue i asked my mom if she could pay some cash for me and she said couldn't coz it was not "nescessary"

ah, i guess from her point of view she's right. BUt thank you so much reuben for paying for me..i'll never forget this! like who else would pay a whole 140 for you to go motely crue? answer: a friend like reuben! thanks man!

so thursday is gonna be all about "GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS!" it's good to see that motley crue' line up is still the same afetr these years and so, it'll be awesome! Mick Mars,Vince Neil,Nikki Sixx,tommy lee (although i think he's overrated he's good)

so today, was tiring. I had to pon ace camp briefing and lamda coz had flu and had to go doctor and also had to go for some funeral prayers for my grandaunt who passed away for quite a while already...

but had to go for some shopping coz i had to get my clothes..so we went to immigration to get passport done and boy did it take long..all for just a lame chop!
sigh... and then after that, went to raffles city mall to go topman and get the 2 for $29 shirt i saw with joavan wen han and nick the time we went there for joavan's shopping which ended up with all of em also buying clothes.. so i got a plain purple shirt and a semi buttoned dull blue shirt.. i wanted the white one coz it was striped and looked better than the purple but my mom was so obssessed with the purple i dunno why?

so after that./.. (OMG! shopping with your mother is a frking pain!!!) went shopping for mom's accessories in attempt to cope with her sudden change of working environment...so her explanation was ,"my work life now..is..what do i say?..errr.. more sawwwwwphisticated...yah thats the word..and now im more..errr...what do i say?? err... morrrrrderrrrnnn..yea morderrrn..tts a good word" i swear tt was what she exactly said! haha im not making fun of my mom..but her "emphasis" is just super funnny.. so yeah..she got like quite a cool pair of sunglasses that cozt like 59 plus from robinson..like 4 earrings, wanted to buy a ring but couldnt coz her fingers were tooo big for their biggest size being 8..! but i dont know why, my mom is relatively slim! she was even thinner than the saleswoman who was attending to her
so she also got my sis another bracelt which cost quite a shell... so finally! FINALLY! we exited that galore..and i tot yet again i could have some fresh air to breathe.. however..how the fucking ever! we went down to eat and POOF! some ang moh guy from the back popped up with some aromatherapy bags and put it around my mom's neck.. i was quite alarmed..who the fuck was he? then i saw his vend at the back that said "herbal pack" then i came to my senses..so he talked alot of crap about aromatherapy for about 15 mins.. and my legs were about to collapse coz of the instability.. and then finally i tot we could go.. then however..HOW the FUCKING EVER! my momsaw watsons and went there for 20 mins to get some vichy products and then started to cook up a conversation with the saleswoman who was about her age too.. then..finally..fianlly i tot we could breathe

and we finally did.. at subway..cold cut trio (AGAIN!) with some white macadamia... (although i preferred double choc)

then went home quickly changed.. went for funeral prayers at some reallu cool temple and then met alot of old relatives we had lost touch with..and they were shocked at how my sis appeared taller than me and all.. and how my brother looked like compared to how he did wehn he was 5! haha.. my aunt was still sensitive in a funny way... haha.. like my mom was telling her about how there was this instance about an even in our haunted house (trust me weid thingas happened but u probably wouldnt believe me if i told u.. coz even i was in disbelief) and my uncle walked by and noticing she was very engrossed and then he went "BOOOO!" like twice and my aunt was frantically screaming haha...and there was an instance in the car when she was telling us how her daughter got her singing voice from her and not her father coz her father had a "johnny cash" was of singing and then my uncle was telling us how awful she sang coz she seemed like she was in 24 hours pregnancy in the delivery room.. and then my aunt wa like punching him on the arm and omg.. she pointed a middle finger again lik for the 3rd time i've ever seen.. no one realised it..and i decided not to tell my mom coz she wou8ld be kind of sensitive about it..

so went home..had a refreshing bath..listening to jane's addiction for now

peace never tasted sweeter..

No excuses

2008-10-13T04:13:00.000-07:00

finally! exams are over and done with. I am so gay now. But, i'm overly tired and my eyebags are getting worse..and thankfully math was easy.. and damn, results are already on 16 or 15th oct! thats so damn early! like cant they give us sometime to just consider how fast time has flown?? anyway watched eagle eye today, went lagging around raffles city, plaza sing, paradiz haiyah got dunno how many mroe places... eagle eye is good tough

let me blow that trumpet of yours and hit the F note..and then we'll have supernovas off ur hex! (aha..a pun)

i thining of getting my shirt from topman..so wedesday i going.. (praying for an apt size for me)

P.S: my posts are getting shorter and shorter.. (tis time, coz im damn tired wannajust dose off!)

cath has been living on someone else's dreams

2008-10-11T05:02:00.001-07:00

so, my studying ain't getting any better. My routine is more like, study math 2 hours, use com 3 hours. It's just one more day of enduring and a few more days for slacking.. POOF! results, judgement day! I think i have to aim higher then what i think i'll get.. so i;m aiming for any class above 324 that has double humanities.. so its probably 335 or 334....i cant stand single humanities and i dont mind triple science coz i like bio... but i wouldn't mind if its double science..i would seriously love 333..english class with no scholars!

ah..what the heck, i think if i just pass math i should be able to go 323 at least..

cath has been living on someone else

2008-10-11T05:02:00.000-07:00

who wants some honey?

2008-10-10T01:14:00.000-07:00

finally, only one paper left... and its the challenging one for me, math paper 2..if i fail this.. im screwed..but im determined and focused without any distractions, so i should score. Anyways,bio was so far, the only science i felt so good about!

and..on to the day, best "gamabolo" ever! so went with joshua, joavan, nick, yao,dillon, tim d.. and then yao and joavan went to borders first while the rest of us had brunch at subway. So, we were taking weirdly "punning" pictures...ill put up one or two once tim sends it to me.. but u'll regret seeing it anyway.. an then joshua was restless and so in 5 mins..using 2 subway paper bags.. VIOLA! the epic subway mascot mask was made.. and there started the epic journey of how our hero ventured the streets of orchard road tickling the passer by's funny bones and even alot of curiosity! there was this ah beng.. who went damn close to joshua and looked in his eyes to see if he was someone familiar.. best reaction was definitley the finishing point..back to subway, where everyone! started looking at joshua and laughing like crazy! haha! and one of em' even took a picture.. there goes joshua's fan base! if i were a good poet i would honestly make an ode to the paper man! SOMEONE PLEASE DO HIM A FAVOUR..HE MAY BE THE BOXMAN OF SINGAPORE! and so after tt joshua... unzipped his alias persona and went into subway and awesomely no one recognized him.. so then nick's friend dropped by and she was outside and nick was talking to her also.. then josh.. put his mask back on and crept behind them..looking like a hamburgler who would rape the fuck out of em.. so then left.. and dillon was in the mrt with me and joavan and he accidentally hung on to a malay guy's spiked up hair..thinking it wAs a pole..thank god he just laughed at him and didnt' whack him up... haha what a gambolo!

exams..exams..exams.almost done..yet im so undone..

2008-10-07T07:20:00.001-07:00

exams were seriously painful... they weren't difficult or whatever. but omg, no matter how much i studied and attention i gave to the questions, i was super carelss..

i screwed up physics, i knew my content, i was just careless... section c especially..but i dont want to think about it... gets me emo.. coz now i have to own chem, my weaker science...and hopefully do well in bio... lit was easy except for essay, coz i felt weird writing it..i didnt feel comfortable at all! like as if i was writing something i had no idea of... but i think i shd get minimal 17! i btter..or my average this term like shit.. and pbq not tt bad..but i didnt have much quotes for my second trait of the pleabians.. although i shd have alo said they were unanimous! < dillon tought of that.. poem was good but i only rmbred what i shd have wrote after the exam...haha..

so math was another screw up even though it was easy..geog was alright excpet a few mistakes, with the reservoir, the mountain range, the protocol..

so chem tmrw.damn ..better do well..

and nother reason to do well for math is..
coz my tuition teacher mr gould, wants to know my results for math..and i dunno why whenever i go his house for tuition, i happen to be able to do everything

where did u get tt?

2008-09-30T02:05:00.000-07:00

good news.. although maybe everyone knew it except me.. only single humanities classes are 336 and 337 and i think 335 also.. so tt means i most probably would end up in double humanities. YAY... so its definitley pure lit and elect hist for me. I hope i get what i want ..so i have to do damn well in lit and maybe just get a b3 at least for geog..coz my hist i screwed up coz i chose to wrong essay,ending up with 15/20 when i could have done the other and gotten 19... but heck its done..so my overall history now, with aa is damn fucked up! i only got 64! like wtf???? so many ppl got a1 and i didnt even get a b3...so tt means i have to push it hard for geog even though i dont intend to take geog..and lit, i have to try get a2 at least. I will be satisfied with 68 or something but it's still now my usual and would also screw my overall coz my AA is only 69..(yeap that number tt has appeared a number of times in my life)

today was kind of slack. For, now our science periods are shifted with the diff science teachers every 20 mins..which is kind of a white elephant.

Today, tried to find julius caesar in borders coz i tried calling em' but they didnt answer..but apparently they don't sell lit texts. Now, i'm going to try a bigger popular outlet like maybe tampines. I went with dillon,julian and joavan who were just fiddling about after lunch at KFC..then we could not help but notice a rather familiar outfit displayed near the end of Mark's and Spencer's.. it honestly looked like, perhaps the exact same dress that miss tan wore during teachers' day...

oh yeah and unbelievably, i actually participated in mini class contact rugby today..of course i chose to remain idle, (just like desmond was) when aravin and wen han were in the gameplay..it's never safe when a gorilla is let loose and one of the fattest wingers (wen han) is suddenly at his peak... so when they stopped plauying.. (coz aravin got a bit too wild and couldn't control his tendency to strach big fleshy humans like wen han for his tender skin and so wen han was bleeding had deep scratches on his inflated belly) so then the game got a bit fair. Eh, i wasn't that bad ok..for my size i managed to tackle and block joavan and jin yao from scoring a try simultaneously.. ain't that bad for a 39 kg dude..

in a champagne supernova in the sky..

2008-09-29T02:19:00.001-07:00

how many special people change?
how many lives are living strange?
where were you when we were getting high?

slowly walking down the hall
faster than a cannonball
where were you when we were getting high

some day you will find me
caught beneath a landslide
in a champagne supernova in the sky

-Champagne Supernova by oasis from (what's you story) morning glory

today, started off with english paper 1..and it ended pretty well. As usual, i finished very early (english papers are always guilty of being given too much time to complete). So i did question 3 for free essay, that being an incident that strengthened your family bond.. as usual i made up the story and was aware of melodrama and i did my best to avoid it.. however, i still felt i had a tinge of melodrama at the bridge of the essay..like how i changed the mood too instantly from me being total strangers to my parents to suddenly enjoying their company..like how does that happen?

so paper 2 was also pretty fallible on the other hand...finished it fast enough to do the summary question twice and still have alot of time to spare. And well wen han is, to a certain extent, linguistically assinine to lousy comprhension traps. He thought there was a bull near the elephant in the compre! like wth? even the china guys didn' t think that! Furthermore, he screwed up one of the questions where we were suppose to give another word to substitute the word "obssession" found in the passage.. and wen han gave some pronoun from the passage,"nomad" thinking it was a chim version of obssession.. i mean its there...sprakling in front of him mudanely.. the answer being "fever".....

so muggin for physics or rather (marinoing) got to ace physics.. coz i didnt do the AA...YIKES! and also chem...bio i think is easier, but just requires studying..so good luck to myself again..

why do it now. when there is tmrw?

2008-09-28T04:19:00.001-07:00

the importance of being idle; giving a head start to others who aren't being idle.

i am not idle, thankfully... today has been quite fucked up from the very break of my dawn... which was at 4 pm! yes, like what i said earlier, mugging into the night, only proves that you are hardworking but it isn't going to benefit you much when your English exam is on Monday and you need sufficient sleep and rest to ace it tmrw... i wish myself good luck in digging out my soul for tonight.. i shall dig so deep, i may even find what I've been looking for..

to my utmost amazement, all the studying i have done from yesterday's unbelievably lucrative 5 hour math mugging to today's, underway,short yet beneficial 2 hour studying has all been math! the subject i greatly digress and loathe the most! i think it must have been that very truthful and special single tuition session i had with mr gould that stewed a big pot of voraciousness to do math..i never liked math more than this in my whole secondary school life. However, no matter how much i have practiced.. the amount of errors i have is still uncountable.. so the words of ,"practice minimizes careless mistakes" has not yet been embedded into my mind. Well,wakey,wakey! math is just the week after this! so i'm really racing against time.

I am going to prepare for english soon..in about an hours time.

Lost in motorcrash

2008-09-27T10:18:00.000-07:00

that damn sum has been in my head for the past hour and i still cant find the answer... fuck it.. i can't be too obssesed with revision and get stressed over it.. it results in; hair loss,pimples,loss of appetite and basically everything.... im not gonna give my life to math.. fuck it.. its easier now than ever before but still just fuck it.. or rather ask mr kooh to fuck off, i never hated math until sec 2... everything is still the same except him..

i respect teachers alot, coz its harder being a good teacher, rather than a good student...

paedogogy...

what orgy?

the science of teaching? htf do u learn tt? i mean many of the new teachers in our school.. like mr ng,marcus koh,mosburgen and gang simply teach their students by putting a laptop there and showing the slides on the screen and just reading off the slides.. like.. do they go to NIE to just learn that? wtf man... that can't be paedogogy... and wtf am i saying.. im a frkin 14 year old who has nothing to interfere with stuff like paedogogy.. i'm still narrow minded and im not looking wider and deeper enough..so maybe, these teachers actually learn those "chim" stuff and they just slack coz they don't really feel like teaching by using those "chim" methods... but that paedogogy thing is pretty interesting.. like maybe its something where u teach by putting some music in the classroom? thats what ms deborah goh did once in our rme lesson... or maybe teaching by singing? or maybe philosophically? (it's mr kooh's failed method..however i think it'll be better if someone else used tt method..coz mr kooh is just..mr kooh)

damn..when will there be a good "new" teacher..

apparently my younger sis had a dream that my older sis was eating chicken (my older sis is the only persistant vegetarian) and then my younger sis asked her why she was eating chicken and she said.."fuck off"... haha..amusing dream.

And, now my elder brother went for grand prix...:( i'm left alone to study for the shitty fye... and also, tmrw some contractor guy is coming to discuss the renovation of our house... yay! finally a makeover..one that our little "hut" needs... so im tearing it apart..

The lights came on fast
Lost in motorcrash
Gone in a flash unreal
But you knew all along
You laugh the light
I sing the songs
To watch you numb
I saw you there
You were on your way
You held the rain
And for the first time, heaven seemed insane
'Cause heaven is to blame
For taking you away
-Tear by smashing pumpkins from the album adore

damn cool effects

2008-09-27T02:54:00.001-07:00

so i found this really funny and intersting.. thanks to winston coz i got it from his blog..

deeeeesceeend

2008-09-27T01:20:00.000-07:00

vrroooom...vrooom.. yes it was tempting when my brother's fren put the engine sounds on the phone and let us hear the engine sex...

so today, i went to tanjong pagar,arris building for my first private tuition session with mr gould.. or in full.. richard gould. he's my mom's friend and he's like this damn smart british guy who graduated from some university in london.. he kind of looked like mr dan from our ocp lessons..

so i felt intimidated by his appearance a bit, because he was like damn tall and quite buffed and well, a british accent always appears to me, the intimidating sort... but he was a nice person and helped me in math with patience and thanks to him, i finally can understand all the questions in the 2005 paper... so now im more or less alright in quadractic and linear graphs,indices,quad equations and all tt stuff... so now, im all set for math..just need to practice more.. and after this lesson i just realised im probably going to fail that test mr kooh set, that we did on friday... but hey..hit me one more time and i think i will pass...

so im more confident about math... but anything can happen. OMG, i went to popular today, and they didn't have julius caesar.. fuck! another day without tt... im screwed. I'm trying borders maybe on monday on my way back home... and gosh the popular customer service at paya lebar sucks...

so right now, im waiting for my mom to come back with that KFC bucket...i never had that in a long timee.... and im frking hungry

And so.....sally can wait

2008-09-26T04:52:00.000-07:00

the day started off.. with a cool dark night and as i stepped out of the subway. i realised the heavy downpour that greeted me with severe deja vu.. like when my mom was telling me.. after finding out how complacent i was when she saw my bag didnt have an umberella.. and i was like, "come on lah..it won't rain..with all that shelter in orchard..shdn't be a problem" and now that i realised how orchard lacked enough shelters.. i've learnt my lesson.. i was the only one in the 105 bus to be drenched in the annoying rain and dripping wet... my god, i am thankful that they weren't really looking at me coz half of em were half asleep.. (singapore's spotlight on people before 7 am) because we know that singapore does lack grace.. im in a lethargic mood for now and my fucking final exams are 3 days away.. tt initiating with english..which i need to concentrate on to get and A...

good results+good behaviour+good influence = psl... good behaviour and influence is kind of easily acquirable but good results .... is what i have to acquire in limited time.. 3days! i think my sciences i shd do ok.. my geog shd be alright..my lit would be good if i just have the fucking text! god isn's it ironical im helping people with lit despite the fact that i don;t have a book and i feel pretty uncomfortable with lit now...

today we had humanities choice briefing and my persistent choice of pure lit and elective history still persists.... i liked how mrs ang decribed literature as,"unlike other subjects, in literature you see the unseen".. which is very true.. that's what makes a good literature student a sensitive person and sophisticated at that.. as they sau.. in lit you get to learn puns and ironies... the ability to say something indirectly, is a comedian's way of making money to put it simple.... but well also i would prefer pure lit because midsummer's night dream is a nice play and is alot more interesting than learning about the spread of the world's vegetation or learning how having a nazi family line is awfully something to be ashamed of.. (no, i find it humorous to find out that my grandfather was a nazi... lol.. an indian,jew, a nazi? WTF?!?!?) and also the fact that to kill a mockingbird sounds like nice book.. about prejudice as the title suggests. TWo texts is just mega interesting.. coz lit, is (for me) one of the only non boring subjects if you really like the book.

so i got the teachers' day DVD from dillon and omg i sound alot diff in there rather than youtube.. in the youtube one, my voice was much softer.

oh yes.. but the highlight of the day has yet again been put a spotlight on dillon... he had a rather heavy bag today, so he and nick were just kicking it off steps... and then when nick,dillon,joavan and i were leavin school after studying, nick tapped dillon to one side.. and the weight of the bag made the gravity of his bag move to the other side.. making him unstable and then dillon went topplin down and then nick started harrasing him and out popped out miss adeline tan and (of all people) she was like.. "omg are u molesting him" but seriously.. imagine if u were in her position... and DILLON was there... DILLON! of all people... haizzz...

so reminder to anyone,everyone or to just myself.. FYE IS IN 3 FUCKING DAYS! CHEEBAI NAooos! START MUGGING UR ASSES OFF!
so the song tts been in my head for a while.. thanks to dillon... bloody hell now im addicted to oasis' mordern beatles influenced sound..

Don't look back in anger-Oasis (US VERSION)

Like deceitful jades

2008-09-24T08:25:00.000-07:00

yet again, my tendency for dependency is offending me.. like how i depend on blogging to reflect or just unwind and pay no attention to the irritating sinus up my nose... i tink im getting the stress flu i always get before a major exam. I had one before my PSLE, and now im having one before my streaming.. let's hope my results turn out decent enough to fulfill my hopes and "needs"... and also my bad sore throat may probably be a throat infection or tongsels, which i had gotten earlier this year and couldn't come to school for 2 weeks.. i don't really want my tongsels to worsen, even though i need not do exams..but because they'll take my term 3 results ..which is by far my worst record ever... :(

and so like deceitful jades, i tell you i'm so prepared for the exams.. i am prepared but i don't feel prepared.. i feel like i can't retrieve what i have revised.. so my second cycle of revision started today.. and progress is promising.. lit is still a worry because i've not purchased julius caesar yet (damn this sinus is killing me!) however, it always helps when someone asks for help and u gain alot in teachin them..

It's also funny how the library is getting mroe popular nowadays, unlike previous times.. it's like a hangout! i mean..how often do u see andrew in a library? as rare as can be that is.. even beng is in the librarY! and in a way, their studying perturbs me because now i feel intimidated and ashamed of myself of not studying effectively enough... i made amends today, and i guess it'll have to persist until judgement day arrives...

falling..oh yes im falling

2008-09-24T03:06:00.000-07:00

im feeling drowsy; unusually.. coz i don't feel sleepy after sleeping at 2 am the night before... i think i'm taking sleep too much for granted, like how many of my older peers like miss tan say, that she at first didn't think sleep was that mandatory or whatsoever and then as she got older and work got more and required more attention, she realised the importance of it... yeah its coming to light to me... sleeping at 4 am into the night ain't going to help me for fye

habits i need to break to excel in fye:

1)PROCRASTINATION! (goodness! it's the devil!)
2)Late slumber
3)Bad study techniques (e.g: not timing yourself when u do a test paper, not making sure you understand your own notes)
4)getting succumbed to distractions

why won't all the ice caps melt and then flood the whole world, 70m underwater?

So after studying at the library for a while.. (about 2.5 hours) we went to look for previous year, yearbooks.. and god we found a sec 2 pic of mr png... and boy did he look retarded.. he looks a bit like pei zhi.. and also mr greg who looked the exact same in 2000, so did mr kooh even in 1999! ms lim had long hair in previous years... funny how the teachers seem to be a shadow of their past..

apart from a bad sore throat pulling my spirits down for the day, today was pretty alright, with good progressive mugging; managed to finish all the 05-07 bio papers! yippeeee... i yet to get into my geog flow.. and math too! omg.. test is on friday! but i passed 06 and 07 paper..but i guess..coz not many failed

i am also perturbed at the realisation of how complacent i am for lit and english... i just realised, after what ms periasamy went through today, regarding chapter 14 (the quarrel).. that i have gotten my opinions all wrongly inffered! so i used ahamd's textbook to write notes first and im helping ahmad for lit tmrw in the library.. i'm almost done with xiang rui, just left with one more chapter.. that being the battle of philippi, yes the childish chapter

~KuMs~

sitting in an english garden waiting for the sun..

2008-09-23T07:52:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah..blabber about me being a failure..

so today i realised how much trust my mom has in me... perhaps i deserved it?

so i just did the geog revision test paper, bio 06 and im planning to go full out after this.. until class starts at 01 30..

so yes, in a way im sitting in an english garden waiting for a sun... the garden being this stressful self control apparatus i am in.. and the sun being the desperate lifeline i hope i'll get... i am especially stressed for 3 reasons..

-my mom not trusting me
-exams
-some personal tuition with my mom's friend who's a university graduate from london..some angmoh called richard.. and he's apparently good at math.. why am i worried? worried my mother waste her taxi fair...

sigh... whats the point of not trusting me but going all out to help me...

Tangerine

2008-09-23T02:07:00.000-07:00

isn't it weird what students can do under their desk while a teacher is giving a lesson? it surprises me what wira can do under his desk and its probably the top of the list of "most outrageous and funniest things to do under your desk"

Apparently akhi, told me that during the time when he was sitting beside wira, wira had the the habit of unzipping his shorts and start wanking under the desk and during mrs kooh's lesson.. omg.. i can't believe the smell of semen was not even obvious? and knowing wira... i dunno? does he have an air filter in his sausage? like wtf? weird thing to do... but wira has always been the daring sort... there was one time in primary school, where the yo-yo craze was so catchy and was (at that time) the "in thing".. and so wira,eugene(now in st pats),seth(also in st pats),kaushik (from raffles),boon(st pats) and some other guys brought their yo-yos to the library and then miss siti was confiscating everyone's yo yos.. but wira had a plan.. miss siti knew he had one..so wira immediately slid the yo yo in his boxers.. and then miss siti was like..don't make me check you..and he was like check lah! and yes eventually she couldn't find it but apparently she knew where it was...

we got back out literature AAs today and i am disappointed with myself at how assinine i am.. yes i feel like an ass that bears gold like lepidus... she said that i had the content and stuff for the poems.. but she failed my presentation because i simply printed out whatever i had..and also because i didnt have printer ink and so didnt want to trouble others by pestering them to print the anthology out with construction paper.. and fancy this..but i helped desmond,julian,alvin and they all got higher than me! fuck! julian just copied out whatever i said and i fucking gave him the poems to choose! i basically did everything for him! life's a bitch and the journey is a whore! sigh... anyway today geog remedial helped me a hell lot..thank you mr gregory for being so patient with us...

and shak was telling joavan and i about his incident with a gay guy at toa payoh.. apparently, shak was peeing and there was another guy at the next urinal and then shak sensed that he was looking at him so he turned around and to shak's dismay, the guy was wanking right infront of shak... and so shak took a run away from him,,

today during com studies.. we had to capture our video into the com.. and haha ahmad's aravin alvin yao and shawn's video was damn funny... and our video included alot of funny clips like how nic split his pants..jovan doing his nigger dance,i was "sucking it",sudhirr yelling out weird stuff and showing off his hairy chest...haha

funny how today, many things were related to sausages... ewww...

~KuMs~

Axis bold as love you see...

2008-09-22T01:57:00.000-07:00

okay, math test was screwed up... omg i could have gotten almost a1 because i was so fucking stupidly careless i accidentally put an x beside all of my gradient and my answers were so messy mr kooh couldn't understand what was going on...

what can i deduce?

next test, i'm coming back with a vengeance..however the next test is going to be much tougher and more topics are covered.. okay so checklist on what i've revised for math...

sec 1 stuff like...
compound interest (not done)
statistics (done)
exchange rate (fuck havnt do yet!)

indices (not done)
simlutaneous (not done)
trigo (done)
mensuration (done)
quad graphs (done)
linear graphs (done)
similar and congruent triangles (done)
exp. and fact. (done)

date of test :friday

anticipated result : GG

furthermore, the reality of the abundant lack of time to preapre for fye is just overwhelming and in a way sucidal (no not to the emo extent) please i'm not asking for a triple science class, i just want a class which is not the tail end (324-326) but be a reasonably apt class with elective history,pure lit and double science.. i hate bio ..fuck bio.. physics and chem rock on!

i didn't want to go for math remedial today because i felt sleepy and i probably wouldn't be able to concentrate and i also felt that studying with sips of coffee in my cosey and sombre ambienced room while listening to some jazz was more relaxing that panickingly trying to finish trigonometry (yea the easy topic), competing with other question laden minds of sec 2s with only one teacher present to make use to fully grasp whatever doubt or query we had... it was eqivalent to doing it at home.. but doing at home with ur msn on and a math pro online would make it more rewarding...

another bitchy subject is biology. Strangely, i struggled with section A , but section B and C were much easier..wtf they gave us 8 marks to draw how the roots absorb nitrates from the soil! that's equivalent to looking at ur dick! but just with intellectual description..

oh yes dylan was funny today.. u noe about his crutches and all.. so today, he,joavan(yes the prefect) and anselm were sent out of class by ms lim coz they were responsible for making alot of noise.. and so dylan then decided to seek some attention and started to run around the pavillion, flapping his crutches like wings and hopping around with one leg.. or rather running with the casted leg... and then this attracted attention from some sec 4s from upstairs and they were laughing so much, it was hard not to notice and then ms lim, wondering where the cacaphony was coming from, went out to discover, to ehr very utmost dismay, joavan and anselm laughing at dylan flapping his crutches like an injured kookoobara... and so this caused pandemonium in the class.. because it was too funny to resist... and then ms lim whined all day long..and also brought up the matter about andrew? why? why so random and purposley demoralising? what the fuck did he do but be negatively spontaneous by inetrrupting her lesson like.. last term????

and then we went to the PAC for pse and then jude tan showed us the PSL nominees and yay i'm one of em.. but if they are going to base our grades on being psl.. i might get pulled out coz i screwed up term 3.. please fye.. give me my old streak of 68 percent... that lucky number! oh wait.. 69 is my lucky number coz.. in term 1 i had 3 subjects with 69..haha.. the mystic 69; king of sexual innuendos! and thinking about any teacher who would cancel me.. that'd probably be my tamil teacher..yea most probably her.. i don't think mr kooh thinks im a slacker, jude tan is pretty not bad...,ms lim was the one who nominated me,feroz..used to hate me..but not tt much now..,i;ve not done anything to offend gregory,i am attentive during lit,i have not done anything to offend mr ng,i have not done anything to offend mrs lee..yeah so tts about it..

exam sequence...

2008-09-21T06:25:00.001-07:00

its basically for me to refer to..

next monday : english
next friday: physics and mother tongue paper 1
next next monday : humanities and [math paper 1 :( ]
next next tuesday : literature
next next wednesday : chemistry
next next thursday : Mother tongue paper 2
next next friday : biology
next next next monday : math paper 2 :(

in a way im happy there's more time to practice math.. so for now my strategy for math... because after doing some paper 2 of math i realised paper 2 is alot easier and so mayb i think of getting 30 plus over 50 for paper 2 and try my best for paper 1 but ill probably flunk..that shd get me a pass...

ok im going to try do another math paper now.. and for english, i'm just going to do my essay like how i've always done it.. enough to get a 22/30 and for the compre try my best and get 75 plus percent for it like how i always got for term 3 and 1..i flunked my term 2 with 60 coz i slacked... i;m taking english more seriously compared to last year so i hope that'd get me far... and so for geography, i'm revising everything again for the fourth time... chemistry i'm going to do a test paper tmrw..il try photocopy 2004 for the chem equations and do the full 06 paper..biology yes.. im revising.. done with every thing except minor topics (sex in plants,ecology,life science etc.) for physics; i am left to practice applying the p=iv and all tt power related formulas...

preachers..keep on preaching

2008-09-21T04:53:00.000-07:00

how the fuck do you avoid the inevitable truth.. i hope i don't have to think of that. I am muggin all i can for math and making sure all my other subjects are in shape because, according to haqqim, if u fail math and u do damn well for the other subjects and get 67 percent i'd end up in 325 instead 326..but who cares, mr arul is teaching that class next year! NO!!!!!! that means running 9 laps every pe lesson under 18 minutes... oh pleeeeeasseee... i hope i end up in 323 or better..323 is like the perfect class for me coz its elect hist and pure lit and double science..i cant stand triple science and i detest geog and according to abrar elect history is damn easy to score and plus literature is my best subject...lets hope it'd be my best in fye too..

my motivation to mug math... don't mug and fail in fye = stuck with arul for rest of the two years...NOOOOOOOO!

323 pleaseeeeee....

mother mary said..she's got eyes like marylin monroe!

2008-09-20T11:18:00.000-07:00

i feel like i'm having anesthesia.. like how i dont feel a pain but i can sense it somewhere.. i hope its not going to be the pain of failing math..pleeeease..no! anyway, i finally am able to do chemical equations weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

oh yeah, and looking at some of my old photos, i suddenly remembered about the leadership camp the three classes had last year..210,211 and 212.. it was a blast definitely. The chalet was a nice bungalow off changi, and we had alot of fun with the games, late nights, lunch, "touch frisbee" , and the activities were really fun too... Gregory was damn fun in the camp, playing touch frisbee with us.. the dude can sprint..had a hard time catching him.. well he's mario what can u expect?

I hope there's gonna be another one this year..

gosh..im bored .. but i'm watching a parody of project runway.. really funny how they make fun of heidi klum's accent..

space is king or so i sing..subway to venus!

2008-09-20T03:44:00.000-07:00

it's out.. rick wright, pianist of pink floyd passed away recently of cancer in his sleep.. at least he died peacefully. SIgh...and so there were three... mason,gilmour and waters.. though not together.. they have been together and boy did they give reasons for people to live..

i am going to break my study shell for a while and jam with the drums to unwind a bit.. sometimes i feel like an ass to others being so paranoid.. i really need to relax, but not relax too much..

so i revised my annotated diagrams weeeee... i did a geog paper also.. it's harder than i expected and i guess 08 is gonna get harder

that we don't even care
as restless as we are,
we feel the pull in the
land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement
lamented and assured
to the lights,
and towns below
faster than ,
the speed of sound,
faster than,
we thought we'd go
beneath..the sound...
of hope...
1979-smashing pumpkins

yeah..that song makes me nostalgic of peaceful and aimless car rides to nowhere.. and also of how it used to be in my old bungalow near east coast! beautiful house that was.. and also the time where i fell of the couch and hit my head first on the marble tiles floor and now i have this permanent scar on my head with 3 stitches and like its damn obvious from the colour.. and also the time when i pushed my sis (i was 4 and she was 3) off a slide and she fell head first and landed with an injury but hey..at least that was not a permanent scar.. but i also loved the times when my elder brother who was in primary school, used to bring me on his bike in fast speeds up and down the sloped of east coast.. and also my eldest brother who was in seondary 1 or primary 6 .. and he was into skateboarding and all his skateboarding buddies used to come to our house and they were friendly people... my other sis was very anti social with her friends but she was the one who took care of us most..

oh but the best was in my other house..when i was 7 and my eldest bro was in la salle college of the arts.. and boy did he get in deep shit one day.. he was found in bed with a girl and when they woke up... my mom was like telling my brother, "what kind of girls do you bring home? you didn't even tell me anything and for your information, there are your younger siblings in this house and i can fucking see her thong through her slacks!" yes she did say fuck... my mom said fuck like three times already once by accident the other time because she was damn pissed with one of her colleagues...

~sir psycho sexy~

when you're an old musician.. you can't run around half naked and get laid

2008-09-19T22:04:00.000-07:00

finally all that lAte night mugging has all summed up in today's wonderful sleep! i slept from 1 am to 12 pm... 11 hours, now i'm all refreshed and charged up to go mug like there's no tomorrow!

i have plenty of space in my notebook..so today there's some filling to do.. and i'm going to study all the annotated diagrams for geog... and practice some questions on graphs for math.. revise through some algebra we went through on monday's remedial...
revise some chem equations and revise through all the notes... and i'll check my answers for the physics paper. Revise some caesar quotes and maybe finish a geog paper today

so there you have it.. my packed study plan which i hope i can fulfill... xD

anyway reply to tag.
Alexis: errr i think it's 2 kids.. coz i noe one of em is in primary 1 or something and the other younger.. and in his facebook pic..gt like 2 kids there..

Fight like a brave..don't be a slave

2008-09-19T04:14:00.000-07:00

I like pleasure spiked with pain
music is my aeroplane
it's my aeroplane
songbird sweet and sour jane
music is my aeroplane
it's my aeroplane...

-aeroplane by rhcp

yes i'm in psychadellic mood...

we did map reading for geog today and dylan kept chanting "santamaria" at greg..haha was hillarious and there was a point he realised and he was like.."santamaria..your head...santamaria won't get you far in your exams!" Map reading is a bore and a waste of time and paper... but it's pretty all right..but the tedious one being to measure lengths of lakes if they are circular.. gosh, he doesnt allow us to use a string!

there was a math test to add to the disappointment.. omg, i can't believe i didn't study congruency,simultaneous and proportions but instead only studied graph.. graph didnt get me that far in the paper though... there were like 2 on linear graphs, one quadratic and one we had to consturct that i screwed up! the 2 linear graphs..i shhhdhh get correct.. the quadratic one i should get about half the question correct and errr... yeah.. i hope i pass, because if i can pass withouth studying i'd be happy enough.. but shak got 10/50.. and shak's s'ppse to be smart! so..yes im worried..

and i think ms lim is really a nice person. I returned her the 100 my mom borrowed from her but she told me to keep it and use it for my educational purposes and i even asked her to take it twice.. anyway..i've opted to ms lim to be a psl and she acknowledged..so yay! next year woot! PSL will be damn fun... all the camps and new josephians..i hope hope hope i get the tail end classes.. coz the first few are damn nerdy! yes (from my past experience as a sec 1)

So, i mugged hard today at the library for a somewhat fruitful 1 hr 45 mins.. i studied geog all the way..so now i finally know how to draw the diagram for how the water is transferred from reservoirs to home and industries.. i understand the landfill method but can't understand how to draw it, and i revised global warming/ozone depletion and greenhouse effect but i still have queries like..

how exactly does the atmosphere trap the gases?

how to construct a diagram for the formation of acid rain?

yeah tts about all i can think now but i rmbr i had a load more queries... anyway dillon put some light into me today when he asked me where did the word "mug" come from? like i only heard it this year and even the radio talks about muggin? isn't it cool how one day..some one uses some kind of "incognito" and then everyone being to use it in their everyday life...

and those who went for leap of faith (LOF) almost got into deep shit today man.. aaron told me about how one of the maintenance guys opened the shutter and saw them and was like..."what you guys doing here" and then they took a leap from up there..haha what an escape!

I'm funky for now..so call me sir psycho! here's an awesome video of rhcp's mother's milk days in their funky pants and kinky hair... in the spirit of PHUNK..

songs performed.. subway to venuse/sexy mexican maid (both from mother's milk as frusciante on guitar) and ends off with back in black by ac/dc

~sir psycho sexy~

sir psycho

2008-09-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

ewww... ewww... yes i saw what was in that censor face.. ewww sick stuff. Anyways, i've been kicking it up a notch by mugging more and today i was helping xiang rui with literature in the library and i realised that he's damn hardworking... he stays in the library, everyday, until 5 and goes home, sleeps for one hour, watch tv for another hour and study all the way... and then he sleeps... very good discipline. If only i could be like that,xD.

Majority of people think china people are damn irritating and obnoxious but in fact the china students in out class are pretty alright.... xiang rui looks like a gangster ("G-ster") but he's not that bad (he is neither rude nor a bully)... eIt's unique how he weare such expensive boxers every day... his fav brand is apparently calvin klein..! wtf! and dt time he used versace and also some other damn ex brand...

I'm still scared of essays! I have a fear of writing normal every day personal recounts and whatever I write (trying to be diff) seems to go out of point! Arghhh! I have to overcome my fear of writing lame essays..:P

So i tried overcoming the impeccable feat of finishing the chem fye 2007..however, it was still too intelligent for me and i skipped like one whole section B question and 1 or 2 sect c questions.. I'm in hot soup for sure... arghh....

I did as many geog worksheets as i could and tried a bit of physics and also practiced for the math test tomorrow.... studied graphs; my Achilles heel!

I have no idea why I cannot be as focused as xiang rui... He could study fruitfully in the library until 5 and I only stayed until 3 30, due to peer pressure; no i'm not blaming joavan, it's just that i didn't like the idea of going home alone :P

Anyway, good luck to arvinth,andrew, jerry and all.. i mean it, i really wish you guys do well and manage to cover everything by next week and go to your desired class nesx year... i need some sympathy too... i can't fail math!! and getting c or lower for any other subject will just be the cherry at the peak of all the rotten apples... and not to forget that alvin is also hardworking.. and joavan..omg photocopied like 2 full geog papers and one chem and one bio paper today..GG..and plus he bought like 2 photocopy cards for it.. hope you benefit but you most likely would...

Oh yes.. how can one be so hate laden and not forget what was arguably the highlight of the week! the kabal expert cum philosopher had forgotten his math period with a delightful batch of 210ers on a fine thursday morning and we wasted the whole period in his absence.. well actually in away.. it was still the same :P.. everyone was doing their own stuff; like how i was listening to my mp3, aravin,joavan,wen han and all the buff ppl comparing who is more muscular and stuff.. nat,julian,marcus and others were messing around with dylan's detuned guitar... arvinth being the stereotypical security guard ("watchman") being our look out.. near the door... and he ended up having a dose of his own la la land of heavy boob heaven.. (yes tts arvinth's fettish and his addiction to sleep anytime, despite the inevitable fact that he is sitting right in front of the teacher!) and then the studious and hardworking... benedict leading the pack in helping xiang rui, hong bin and other math enthusiasts... shawn and gang talking about porn...ahmad counting his armpit hair.

yes that's it folks for a day in the life of sir psycho sexy.. (he's a freak of nature and we love him so!)

Naked in the rain?

2008-09-17T07:50:00.000-07:00

today, i had boring bus and mrt rides without my mp3, zen gave up on me today. Then in school nothing that much to highlight except joavan making fun of julian's face again.. and how julian said that if we call arvavin black its like calling the kettle black and joavan said and if you call a spastic child spastic its like calling the kettle black... and now julian got family tree.. father is yao ming...brothers are mark lee and jude tan and his grandfather who passed away..julius caesar. And best was when we found out jude tan's akan datang baby is coming on 5th dec and julian's birthday so happens to be the same. Is it mere coincidence? xD

WOot i passed my first math test; 30/40 tt's a record. But mensuration is easy shit so can't get any worse.

I am not falling to peer pressure anymore meaning no "come on lah what can u lose by playing 15 mins of soccer" answer; "another 15 mins..tts what happened today when joavan told me to play and thank god we saw jude tan and we all evacuated the pitch... lest we would still be playing and neglect time's essence.

I'm pretty worried for essay still because i have not cleared my doubt; but i'll probably ask ms lim tmrw, but i think mine should be alright because i looked at sec 4 kevin's work on Muse and he wrote about his aunt melanie martens so i guess shouldn't be a problem...i need need need to study now..pending are..

chem fye
math 2006 paper 1

and i got wen han's chem notes meaning no more excuses! time to mug now at 23 07...

the tendancey to run miley cyrus over with a car...yes i'm jack black

2008-09-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

Today was another unmugful day ... yay a new word..

only did that chem paper, and i need need need to do the following tmrw;

1)photocopy another goeg paper because the 05 copy has outdated topics
2)Photocopy joavan's past year exam questions for math (it helps)
3)photocopy a physics fye paper (06 and 07 of possible if not just 07 or just 06)
4)try catch up on math ws

So for now my words of mugging on is.. "fail math go 326!" so... mug mug mug math = passing math = lesser chance to go 326 and then i try get A's in as many subjects as possible..for what i'm aiming;

literature,english,tamil and hopefully some sciences like bio because i revised liked hell and maybe physics .. chem i will be happy with a b but please no C or a fail.. and as for geog i want a b3 at least but anything can happen and geog is like..they can ask u anything! I went for geog remedial today; quite productive in a way that it gave me practice and awareness to water supply which i suck at...

I am quite worried for my english essay, because now i'm unsure as to wether do exposit. or narrative..because narrative is easy but i feel weird writing a narrative about a normal; lame story.. and the stories that i try writing are damn reflective but not interesting like.. example is my essay on opportunity

about my old friend who used to be a family person and attached to his hometown and then we found him an overseas job and then he was reluctant but thenw e compelled him to go and 10 years have gone and he never gave a call at least and finally i find a forbes magazine with the front page depiciting his face on it and with the headlines something like youngest bussinessman or something and like he never mentions how he was thankful to his friends and all and then i talk about how i feel and how his parents would have felt... and then end up saying that i walked, reading the interview with interest and engrossed in its contents and the kalaidescope of david's character and then i leave the magazine in a dustbin and say, and i wondered how a wonderful opportunity could turn dark for others..

like it's got the stuff but no climax and all.. so im unsure..very unsure! i even wrote one called unwanted visitor..about my uncle staring at me in front on my door and then its a flashback and i talk about how disgusting and havoc he used to be and and also not a very good uncle because he almost forgot to pick up his nephew from the day care and left him crying in the day care for 4 hours... and then i go on to talk about reality and behind him.. a little girl pops out and he talks about how he has settled in life with a beautoful wife and has a kid and all and then i talk about how he changed and all..its not tt much of a climax! so what do i do????

~KuMs~

The devil's advocate; yes i am

2008-09-16T04:41:00.000-07:00

From the time i left house to the computer studies lesson, i was laid with suspicion and was frking anxious and was on the verge of playing truant.. xD! Thankfully i didn't! lest i leave out that geog remedial and also risk not photocopying the 05 geog fye paper which i have not dont till now because of the damn info skills project, which i just finished

I like what joshua said on his msn pm," the only difference between dreams and nightmares is how big your balls are" and another one of his all time favourites..,"i like the smell of revolution; smells like hush puppies!"

So again, in chemistry lesson, i was stupefied and I forgot to photocopy certain chem notes from the file and i finall got my term 3 common test practice..which i will do first after i finish blogging, followed by the geog paper which i shall refer to the text because some of em are not tested for us and oh my god the bio paper joavan photocopied was damn easy in section C..they gave 7 to 8 marks for the construction of a diagram of the allimentary canal (the stupid cappilaries to tissue fluid and tissue fluid to cappilaries) and another one being the suction of nitrates via the roots... (root pressure..very simple for men to do.. pull down your pants and you see the exact same thing staring back at u)

so why was i anxious and afraid? because i forgot to bring the tape for com studs.. and knowing mr soo, i thought i would get screwed left and right and upside down... luckily he didn't he was nice enough to let us help other groups for their left over footage.. so joavan,nic,sudhirr and I helped wen han's group and we only covered one scene ! some track scene where i'm suppose to be the super slow guy and then joavan wen han and sudhirr spritn like usain bolt 200 m ahead of me ....and then i'm suppose to look exhausted after that and all tt shit.. and i was running the way the guy in chariots of fire ran.. hands and heads up..teehee

I'm digging a bit of Jane's addiction now but it's really not as good as i expected.. all of em' sound pretty much the same.. i think best is still "just because" like wtf.. i expected much much much more from Dave Navarro...ONe hot minute was amazing but no other rhcp album can beat their "blood sugar sex magik" so dillon and i have far fledged dreams (2 years) to do give it away by rhcp and come together by beatles for kindered spirits in sec 4... only problem is tt come together has a sexual innuendo.. a very hidden one.. about "cum together..over me.."

highlight of the day; i got a zit very near my nose...

Belligerent as the poppies may be; as confident I am to be

2008-09-15T08:15:00.000-07:00

Yay I survived my self control apparatus (room full of distractions) to overcome my goal of finishing up the pollution topic of Geography; amazing feat for me...

Only problem now; i feel i'm bloggin a lil' too much.... too hard core and some more during FYE.. actually it's good because it helps me a bit in english so i don't feel that awkward to write and rant about something..xD

So my sis bf is going to India to pursue some career in mainstream music and stuff and it's kind of funny how i knew him as the guy who use to tutor my elder brother and now he's suddenly an award winner in Cannes, a pro drummer and good composer who even made his stand in the National day celebrations when he composed the indian version of where i belong, hey it's a feat not many of us fiddle and incompetent souls can do.... takes guts, creativity and also in a way, you have to be spontaneous because you just have to show any idea you can and never be afraid and never be afraid of asking questions... although that is something that sounds so simple yet is so hard to do.. some times we feel so vain of our reputation that we don't want to appear inferior to others so we hold back our doubts and let it stay and rot and smell so bad it could be smelt from above the earth (okay..a bit too Antonyish)

And the line of creativity in my family is catching because now my elder sis is being featured on the tamil channel instead of her bf before because of his cannes victory.. so now she;'s being filmed because of her young entrepreneurship after her successful task of recruiting apt Caucasian models (teenage) and assigning them to tasks ranging from local indian guest appearances, to actuallly acting in medacorp.. the lame show REM, where there' the roxy one.. yah that's from my sis' agency and there are a few who ended up in musicals.. so it's not bad but she doesnt get much income yet like they say... the reward comes at the end where it is most lucrative and deserving.. couldn't agree more but impatience has always been my evil shadow i always attempt to conceal it hidden under my sinister visage but nevertheless, helpless i always end up to be an ever failing puppeteer...:(

Stand to watch the Piteous Spectacle

2008-09-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

Yes "O! the piteous Spectacle!" The chem FYe 2007 is quite challenging, in fact very challenging for my standard. Goodness Question B1 and B2 are giving me headaches :(

So tomorrow.. things to do;
1) photocopy Physics Fye 06 and 07,geog fye 06 and 07,Bio 06 and 07, chem 06
2) photocopy Chemistry notes on Preparation of Salts, Chemical Formulae, Chemical Equation and sec 1 topics... (I shall cope all from JUlian)
3)Photocopy topic by topic based math questions... (start off with algebra and graphs >>>my weakest)
4)Copy down Geog notes from Lord Benedict for landfill method and drainage of swamps

I am so addicted to Coke, and it's a bad thing because according to Samuel (p.S: he's shorter than me) Pepsi stuns your growth and Coke being not so much different from PEpsi.. is probably just as harmful; but what the heck...

Oh yes, and also one of the highlights of they day was when Ms lim accidentally addressed Julian as "julius" like WTF? Julian..julius caesar.. he may look like the illustration of Caesar on the book but they neither,share any similar intellect nor do they share any ambition that would resort in "absolute evil intelligence for his own good", julian not tt smart yet... but JOavan was making fun of Julian by putting the Caesar cover beside his own face and imitated how odd julian looks like; eyes twitching, hands looking weird when in eating position, lips flabbed up... nah don't worry julian it's just an exaggeration like how Seth Macfarlane made fun of Sarah Jessica parker by "punning" that she looks like a horse..

speaking of Macfarlane; anyone heard of his new cartoon? Cavalcade of Cartoon Comedy?
this one is on super mario..haha cracked me up

we are the chess pieaces in heaven's chess match..

2008-09-15T04:21:00.001-07:00

wouldn't it be really cool, if like lennon mentioned, there was no religion and countries, that way; there won't be wars, disputes, disagreement, reacism and etc. and no hell below us and above us only sky... lennon, i don't say you are a dreamer, coz you're not the only one; it'll happen one day, but just not anytime soon...

but we have to admit that our world is basically an appratues designed to judge us, human beings... wether you fall easily to temptation, flattery, failure, success, ditractions etc. it's like this experiment or maybe somewhat like a dichotomus key isn't it? like how if you have self control you end up in A or B or whatsoever;

Speaking of Distractions, i catched the show last night at 12 30 am... really cool show and bloody entertaining.. contestants have to answer "general knowledge" questions while being distracted by something.. last night had (as usual) a very entertaining batch of contestants; Mark, being the one who had sex in all states of America! haha..really funny when he said ,"you know at first it started off somewhere locally and we took it lightly and then I was like..hell yeah we should do this more often; and there went Texas" and the other contestant being Bert, who is from china but American born and sells sushi and The a girl ; i forgot her name ; but i rmbr she used to fold madonna's underwear and the other one was fynn..didn't get much about her...

so first round was that they had to buzz in if they knew the answer to the question and their buzzers..were.. to drink a cup of hot sauce and bang it on the table.. and ironically the questions were like... "which band conists of members, anthony kiedis,chad smith,flea and john frusciante" and "which famous pop star wrote the hit single, hot stuff?"...

second round was that they had to answer questions while getting thrown around by 2 wrestlers who were 2 heads taller than em'... very amusing...

Last round which lated with only Bert and MArk, was by far most rewarding for them... they were each stationed to a bed and everytime they get an answer correct they get a frking hot girl on their bed.. haha poor Mark, he had sex too many times it became so muhc of a distraction Bert stole the win.. but best was when a blonde hopped into Bert's bed and the host said, "i think the Iq in that bed has just doubled"

so moving on to the day... we started off with chem this week and I can't bellieve Mrs Lee was talking about how hard the exam would be and her strategy to finish up atomic structure, chemical formulae, periodic table and sec 1 topics by this week and she happened to say.." and if you FUCK this up.." I paused for a while and then i was like..did she say fuck? and ahmad was like.. oh my god she just did! That just goes to show the gravity in Mrs lee about our FYE... (crossing fingers)

oh yes and literature was again reliefed by some other teacher; some old teacher... and he wrote chapter as "chop.????" on the board... sigh.. poor thing.. I didn't really bother actually thinking alot about the chapter about the quarrel btwn brutus and cassius because i couldn't really understand it that much... need help... PLEASE!

HAd math remedial; and thanks Qin han for helping me with algebrain manipulation; i can understand those sums now but i still don't get question 6 and 8; sigh... but i think i'm going to take it more seriously and I'm going to finish up the 2006 paper 1 and 2 tmrw PROPERLY.. I am so damn nervous for math..

Thankfully there's a shimmer in everything dull, so alexis and I have planned vaguely about holiday workout; because we need brawn; :P

Take me home I need repair

2008-09-14T04:05:00.000-07:00

I woke up at 1 pm today, still unhealthy but better than sleeping for 10 hours.. this time it was about 7 hours..:P

so i did another essay called opportunity (decided to go narrative), so my essay is about how one of my seniors, david had gotten a job opportunity to work with microsoft through my uncle and then I talked a lot on how he tried so hard to find a job and his friends and i also helped him a load but had nothing in return and like when we gave him the opportunity, he was unwilling to go because he didn't want to leave his family and his friends and he would feel like an alien in America.. so alot of persuasion blah blah.. and finally he succumbed to going to america and then 10 years have gone and I'm looking at the latest issue of "forbes" magazine and it reads, "award for most successful youngest entrepreneur goes to David Finn of Microsoft" and then I talk about how he never contacted his family, or his friends ever again and started a new life with a british wife and had 2 kids and even in his interview he never talked about his gratitude to his friends or his family and then i end of by saying how opportunity may bring someone in a whole new light; that sometimes we tend to forget the people who actually shaped us to what we have become... like how you climb a ladder and u just disown the ladder after you've reached the peak...

i hope they give a topic like that for the exam, because i can write much more for those kind of topics.. so for now i'm digging one word essays :D! and then i studied julius caesar and I'm going to memorise all the significant quotes by tuesday; watch me!

I'm suddenly feeling nostalgic about my primary school days; when coming home at 4pm was considered late xD and how it was so fun to be ignorant and "sort of" break the rules.. i was a nerd until primary 6... in primary six i became the kind of "stay back play soccer every day" kind of person and also the "study last minute" kind of person but "appear like studying to your parents and teachers"... yes the art of innocence in disguise, one that I yet to master in times like these; times that involve disguise yet uncertainty (yes the times when you just want to slack but not appear as if you're slacking)

Nostalgia like how great minds say, is a gift, because sometimes the present is so horrid and your past is as rich as buttermilk flowing from the mouths of veela... I love my past, i hate my present and i probably can't see my future at the rate i'm going... too dark and far away...

I feel like i lack a spontaneous personality