wow...i tink this is like my third emo post..but i'll try not to make it sound as emo as how i feel...well it's wednesday...26.3.08...i just came home after training..well i came home at about 19 30... is it just me or is mr arul becoming a slacker? all he has to do is coach us...take attendance...take charge of the cones and hockey ball and all the equipment...well he's only doing one of the stuff mentioned..he's only coaching that's it...he's just leaving all the jobs to me and i have a feeling my hardwork is not going to pay off...i don't have the speed and skill of a captain so i can forget it...anyway it really sux coz now because i didn't come on thursday thanks to my spine injury which has now become a tail bone injury thanks to the bastard child timothy tan who pushed me for i dunno what reason..and it frking hurts...plus arul will probably ask me to run 200 m but i'll just say overexerted my self during the previous trng so i can't participate..and another ting i hate is mr zul he's nice and all but he can't refferee for nuts! kelmond wanted to ref he said get lost and he just listened to whatever everyone said..and then he asked kelmond and all to get out of the pitch when they were playing only in the small pitch what an arse! but at least he's quite nice and all encouraging pravin during the mount rosie run...plus stupid kumudha called me out during training and told me to collect my compo book on thursday morning and she said my previous compo was very bad and there was many language errors and she didn't know why i made so many mistakes..wah lao i already so damn stressed with mr zul..my tail bone injury and already damn pissed with my math she must go say this? it just seems like i'm slacking but i'm really trying my best and i do not know why my math sucks so badly! i really feel damn useless and i hope this tail bone injury is not going to prolong for long because i really can't do much.. and dillon lent me some album called tim by the replacements and thank you so much dillon i feel so much better after listening to bastards of young, here comes a regular and dose of thunder... my hair is stagnant at its growth...and i really feel like smashing something now... anyway hopefully ribbon will be free tmrw so we can jam at penin ...we are probably doing come together, smoke on water ( wah the guitar so easy the drums even harder) hopefully hot for teacher and our own song which im gonna rite the lyrics now and i think californication if we have time

i really hope this post could be as confident as possible so if u do read this please do not talk to it to other people it would be of great help to me because i have no other idea how to express myself

ever since my sister's birthday on good friday i've never had my self esteem as low as this before.. this whole year sucked for me at home.. everytime after hockey traingin or after a jamming session i really hated to go home..not because i didn't like my family i love them..i just felt the energy in my house is ery undermining towards me..i felt left out among my family members..i feel i am the blackest among them (leaving out my "wonderful" father)i feel i am the shortest among them..althouh i have the best psle score (although not very fantastic) among them..i do not feel smart at all.. in fact i feel dumb being smart..as the song by nirvana goes..wouldnt it be better if you were dumb and didn't knwo anything..in a way i hate being smarter than them..i am definitley not more logical than them definitley. I feel very ugly..especially when i see the photos...it's like i am becoming more like my father... i really hat it.. i mean my father was as black as me and i sometimes feel i am a bit like him.. but i sure do not wnat to become a man who has divorced twice ad has 3 families... moreover i feel really really jealous of my younger sister..i mean maybe it's just a freaking teenager's problem but i just can't come to the fact that my mother would say my daughter's very pretty and she wouldn't say anything about me..well i don't blame her at all but i just hate mysel for being a bloody fucking ugly bastard especially evr since the fucking barber cut my hair and made me look smaller than i ever was. i am small...in fact too small.. people do make joke about my height i don't hate it but whenevr i'm feeling down it doesn't help me by thinking about that bullshit.. especially when in sec 1 wira said i looked like an undeveloped child..deep down inside i wanted to cry..but i just laughed it off...it really sux...and counteless of times he would come up to me and point out the fact that i was the same height as him iin primary 5 but he's way taller than me now..it sux..but i don't blame him for that one must always be insulted... i always feel uncomfotable when someone let's say my mom's fren goes up to her and says wow your daughter is very fair and then it really makes me feel like i am the ugliest child they have ever seen..and especially when my mother says oh have u met my children? then they will go oh yah she's the elder one right? then my mom will say no (laughing) he's the elder one..and then the other guy will be like oh wow he's short.. it sux..it fucking sux...why the fuck do i have to be born earlier or why the fuck must i be short ..fuck... another fuck that grinds my gears is that people who listen to my chemical romance or any one of these immature bands or fugs who watch high school musical and don't know who the fuck is george soros and have never encountered a death or divorce in their family say that im immature... please...go listen to the black parade lah...

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kumarr

well...as the years went by i realised that alex van halen drumming to hot for teacher was not so great, stairway to heaven is not the best solo, sunshine for my love is not the best riff and that flea is not the best bassist.

In my opinion john entwistle is a better bassist..james jammerson from the funk brothers could be a bit better but he's not really a rocker. next would have to be either paul or john paul jones and then steve harris but flea would have to be 2nd..








then for drums..well i suppose john bonham is obviously better than alex especially in the song moby dick..that's one heck of a solo! i couldnt get moby dick so there's another one and its by neil peart its awesome la villa strangiato by rush...



and well you still have to listen to the genius intro by alex



stairway isnt the best solo..it maybe but there are some that are arguably as good..have u heard comfortably numb by pink floyd solo by david gilmour..well there are 2 solos both are equally good but u gotta hear the song!



and then eric clapton has some good solos!



eruption by eddie is great too but problem is it does not tell a story..it doesnt evoke emotion but its still nice..stevie ray's texas flood is awesome too..

Then for best riff i wouldn't say smoke on water..or whatsoever i would have to say day tripper by beatles!..it's sad i don't have the original but here's a cover by some band called los bunkers..i found it quite good!



for vocals i wouldn't say paul mccartney although he is one of the best..in fact i love lennon's voice alot but sadly it really isnt that good compared to the greats but i just love his voice...but ian gillian...bruce dickinson...robert plant.. yeah they are all awesome in fact robert plant is awesome but none can be compared to freddie mercury!

here's a video of the beatles doing drive my car while david lee roth from van halen sings runnin' with the devil

Runnin' with the beatles

well on good friday was my sister's birthday and well it was pretty weird coz i really felt like emoing..i dunno i just felt pretty lfet out and out of place..i really thought i couldn't find my slef..that what if im not who i am? what if the people who have entered my life weren't real and they were just some matrix or illusion...im not just saying this but i had a dream and i guess i got it because i watched kingdom and that i imagined that there was someone in the red jumpsuit that my mother wore always to her workplace.. which was hanging above the washing machine and that the jumpsuit was covered with blood..after that i went to sleep and i had a dream.. i dream that it was almost the end of the world not when everyone dies but something like a pre ending i dream i was taLLER but around the age of 15 or 16...there were these guys carrying big giant cannons that sucked people in it and would explode the people in it..somehow the place i was in was sandy somewhat like saudi arabia like a military site..then one of my family members got sucked in and i could still imagine the sadness i ancountered int he dream..it was just so real! i really i felt it was real... i even went to school the other day and i was like crying on my desk while the lesson went on.. to be honest i even could imagine the paper that was under my chin it was really wet. then when i went home i rmbr seeing my primary school teacher ms siti who is probably a mrs now. i dunno why her and she was like i heard about your loss im really sorry for you and i didnt reply to her i just walked away..it was just so real... i dont want to say which one of my family member it was coz i woudl create great sadness for whoever it is if he or she reads this... the song i listened to was in my life by the beatles and it made me tear up thinking about the dream i had

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well stairway to heaven was satanic..i do not agree. it really pisses me off when i ask someone if they have listened to stairway to heaven and their reply would always be no sorry it's satanic. Well whether you like it or not listen to the music for what you here and not what the artists are. even john bonham said that when asked about the difference between the time when he used to watched the beatles in concert and how kids in the 70s viewed them.Well whether you like it or not stairway to heaven has one of the best solos. Whether you like it or not stairway to heaven has two meanings...especially when plant sings "and you know sometimes words have two meanings".. i do agree it was intentional but it's to prove a point.. that there are two paths you can go on....to satan or to god (whoever you worship) and that you still have time to change the road you are on.Yes i do know that at least jimmy page is somewhat a satanist....coz he was a big fan of (i think) a satanic philosopher and he even bought one of that guy's house and it seems that house has alot of ghosts..so it does "make me wonder". About the rest i do not know.

well on tuesday dillon and i went to peninsula to meet reuben at about 15 30 and then we went to dan enterprise studio and wah lao the price from 15 increased to 18! but at least i didnt have to rent an extra bass pedal so it came free but ribbon had to rent the distortion pedal for 5....then we intended to jam seven nation army by white stripes yes i know whta you are thinking it's a pop song we are not a pop group but its an easy song we just wanted to satisfy ourselves for the day that we could click together...then dillon tried the bass although he was left handed but couldt do the bass part so he switched to keyboard and it turned out well problem was that we often kept losing the 12 count on the main riff and then the repeating riff to chorus or chorus/solo....lol then dillon tried vocals on it but my drums and ribbon's distortion was louder than the mic..then ribbon said "dillon you really sound like paul mccartney!" dillon was like " really? thanks" ribbon said " yeah when he has a sore throat"....then we decided heck we got the basic shit we just need a damn singer so ribbon and i jammed other side and californication a bit unitl dillon warmed up...then ribbon was showing us sweet child o' mine...scar tissue a bit..then we did our own song which has yet to come with a title but progress is we came up with a good intro and a sub intro a verse a chorus and a solo we were really satisfied the sun intro was a influenced by a day in the life with the bass/keyboards and drums and once we are done with it we'll record it and hopefully dillon and ribbon would allow me to post it here....

kumarr signing off..
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sorry just cant come to ease with the damn problem with the blog skin in my com so check out the new led zeppelin skin! i love it...tried to find lucy in the sky but no returns anyway enjoy with a clip from across the universe my favourite scene in the movie i want you (she's so heavy)