lol..friday i;m in love...by the cure...not bad..

his eyes get smaller
his eyes gets bigger
he raises an eyebrow
his nostrils widen
you know what i mean


didnt mean for it to be a poem..but it's a real thing... dillon ,bryan and yiwen will know what i mean...

well tmrw shoudl be quite joyful...it better be...coz...friday....oh yeah and dillon left his acoustic guitar with me..and oh my..god.! it's autographed by the great jim/roger mcquinn of the byrds...who sang mr tambourine man...dude they fucking went to hsi house when he was 5 to meet his father who was a fren of his..and he even sang! well can't believe th3e prejudice..is getting more and more...aggrevated and "magnified".... 202 won 211..nto to say 211 was better in debate ..gotta admit toehr than collin being best speaker..for tt debate..202 all of them had reasonablly apt speakers...but i felt 211 had better points...and 202 just kept saying...number and numbers...it was really irritating...sigh* i guess tdp english classes get the upperhand..

electric storm

well...(here i go again)....today and probably the whole week..is going to be without excitement...some know why....but i guess it shouldn't be about excitement..i mean ...what the fuck am i doing, sitting in front of the fucking computer when i'm suppose to be studying...! its fucking 2 weeks to common test...an overview of the subjects for me... literature...(is and always be my favourite but its whether i can score....),Biology (a bit trippy...coz of lack of practice..and voraciousness and enthusiasm in mr tan;s classes),english (so far not bad...first component..comprehension..managed to top the class and ms lim's other class with 37/45..so not that bad...but hey...there's still that letter to editor..and one more comprehension..gotta focus!),mother tongue (did first test...not that bad..btu anything can happen but otherwise..comfortable with the SUBJECT not the teacher :/),geography (i'm understanding it thanks to gregory but practical wise not that sure....), mathematics (understand it...but unable to apply! omg im gonna fail again if i dont learn how to apply...and even if i get 90 percent for my other subjects i'll still end up in 326!..think positive...at 336 will make my day..337...i dont want to be in a pro class..if pro ..i would want 333...coz english is what i;m good at :)]

anyways..on with the day...didn;t got math remedial had something on..and the marmalade jam band from australia came to play for us for P.S.E period...they were good musicianship wise...they played 3 songs that i knew..but only one song that i loved....the one i liked was lady madonna by the beatles..but they kind of changed the key and all,...so not really my cup of tea..but still good...and others were got you under my skin, sway,summer time and one of their own composition which i deeply hated! it was like a fucking child play house song! fuck!...they were playing quite well..then i was like..wtfffff..... anyway omg..just realised ribbon's fren, jade is a jew and it seems dillon told me she's crazier than me....

waiting in vain...

wellllll...i dunno why i always start a blog entry with well? i guess its like how some guitarists pluck the first string before a song... anyway i watched dead poets society..robin williams movie...and well it kind of helped me in a way...coz the way he teaches his students to make poems is very unique...he says..look at something and state the first thing that comes across your mind when u see it...well i'll try that...okay....i'm looking at.....my grandmother...

black blemish,
creeping secrets,
short carcass,
aryan dismiss,
grotesque bleeding,
feeble visage,
bright ego,
bigger shadow.

not like i hate her or anything...this just the first thing that comes out of my mind when i think of my grandmom...

i'll try another one...i'll look at......"something"

kitten alone
horse that stoned
hound that fell
sheeps rebel
she whisks alone
she talks in a tone
without a bone
she leaves home

the hound that stares
waiting in vain
for the kitten to come
staring in space
for a chance to talk

that was quite weak..well i guess thiking bout somethign ain't my style...i'll just stick to sudden over flow...

"not applied by infity and take it to the depth of forever and you'll still have no glimpse of what i'm saying"-brad pitt from meet joe black

i am here...at the com desk..trying in desperation, to watch meet joe black's last 60 mins...but it's taking excessively long...and wth...i'm bloody tired and sick of it...anyway..today was a rich and fruitful day in getting to know my heritage...and i mean...my family's history and heritage..which like any cliche movie i thought was a boring and usual one.. to my astonishment..i prove to be wrong.. and at least (honestly) i got something to brag about :/

first of all i found out my great granparents were jews! however, they were the distasteful jews who hated their kind and so they were nazis! but they still came from india...and they were fair to the bit of a rabbit's tail. my mum described their visage as "mexican" and obviously jewish looking...with sharp noses...haha... and also that her granfather had a second wife and that's how my granmother was born...and it seemed the 2nd wife was very short...and stupid.. and that's what became of my grandmother...(shockingly i can accept the fact that my mother says this bout' her mother ..somethign very unusual lest in a cliche movie where usually the granchildren hate their garnparents but thier mothers like their mothers...)
and it seemed the 2nd wife recently died (well not so recent..but it;'s recent to a degree) in 2002....to my elatement i never got to meet her...apparently i have a famous relative who is now the MP of somewhere in india (tamilnadu)...this was cuz...my great granddad's frist wife was someone with intellect and saviness....so she's kind of my grandaunt...and also it seemed on my grandad's side..his father wrote a will where he was suppose to get like alot fo land...(they were farmers..u can say peasants but apparently they had property) like temples.....and stuff.. and so my grandad's siblings gave him a poison that will kill him slowly...and hence my grandad died a year after that incident...and then the will was then suppose to follow to my mother (who was the first child) and so on the day of her birth...there was like a huge celebration and stuff.... my mom knew it was not right to take the property coz they knew she would be the next target of my granfather's siblings ..coz they would kill her using poison! and it also seemed that my jewish grandad lived i=near some palaces where he actually had a statue that costs millions...and rumours say that (mythology) that statue used to talk to the king of something...some indian thing...and also that my great grandfather's relatives were mysterious people who feld to burma in thailand and sold diamonds for a living...they were filthy rich! oh yeah and foudn out somethign intersting bout my dad...

during my mother's marriage after giving birth to all 5 kids...my dad apparently asked a broker to arrange for him,a date with a very young actress who was probably half his age...and it cost 50 000 dollars! but the broker cheated him off his money and stuck him up with a much older actress who was around his age! and apparently alot of ppl in the indian media know bout' this...

oh yeah and a funny incident regarding my sister;s fiance's nephew who is aged 2...he saw a dog and called it cookie..and tried teaching it some alphabets...! and also...his mother was trying to get him to eat..but he was always refusing and she was like...u noe what happened to dyaln don't u....when he didn;t listen to his mother that he shouldn't go out and play....he put went out to have a cold bath and came back with 4 cockroaches crawling up his nose?

days...

well.............................i don't have much to say...cant believe im saying this but...its just so empty without hockey..so damn nothing to do! at least now i can concentrate on studies...i;ve been keeping up on geography...i;m loving the subject now! plate tectonics is easy so long as mrs yeo isn't your teacher and gregory is! anyway...decided to change my playlist...anyway..now plans for gigs...are to do with bryan lum,dillon k and hass and later with abrar and emu's band...doing another brick in the wall and stairway to heaven..and with dillon and gang...not sure yet..but hey jude and green tinted pixies mind is confirmed..omg it'll be so cool if we can do sweet child! bryan can do the solos...so we'll see... but less talk more action...and i wanna to do michelle coz of the lyrics..the french is sexy! sont les mots qui von tre bien ensemble tes bien ensemble! so catchy!

okay..hockey sucks....i cant believe how unlucky we are....we lost to both teck whey and saints by 1 minor goal....we were leading saints 1-0 jeter scored..yiwen crossed i deflect...gk saved...jeter rebound.......well it was in the first half...but they punished us in second half...first goals was a fluke...but secnod goal...no one marked matt...sad..he had chance...he reversed...goal....tt was the end for us..it was almost the end of the game..after the game we were like damn upset....\ nunis was like...relax okay..u guys performed reallyy..well losing by 1 goal is nothing...come on...you guys did awesome..and he said i dun wanty anyone crying and all...and like later on..akhi started crying and then coleman was like i see him crying i also want to cry...omg it was like the saddest thing ever...i also cried looking at coleman...u hardly see him cry.....on the bus..was quite sad..but towards the end of the bus journey.. things got better....and we were laughing away with arul saying he likes linkin park! lol!...so real run was quite fun..at sentosa palwan beach...talking ghost stories...at night...quite creepy..arvinth said he played with an oujia board before..and it was super creepy....and one part...omg...going out time one cat went through my legs..damn joke man! and we took pic with edmund chen..his famous wife..and their daughter...

now teacher's day performance needs to be acoustic....and cannot be offensive...even any hidden reakltion to drugs.! we wanted to do come as you are...can;t now...after so many picks we have come down to these....jaded (acoustic),all apologies, about a girl, cherub rock by the pumpkins....wah...it seems cherub is quite hard...but the drums are damn interesting..the acoustic one rocks man....jimmy chamberail uses brushes...i like his style..im gonna improvise though...but since cherub is harder i would prefer all apologies....but we just have to cancel out the "what else can i say; everyone is gay" to maybe "what else can i say; everyone must pay".... the song has so many meanings....so lets hope sji is not so fickle and thinks that it relates to kurt introduing heroin to courtney love... but instead maybe...taking the blame for whatever u do wrong.... frking cliche...i dunt wanna do about a girl though...just don;'t like it...and plau hass is our vocalist now for now... and he has a bt of accent...so i really dunno...bryan lum thiking of performing with us....so let's just hope so... and...well gotta go post for sji hockey blog....

omg!OMG! i didnt post for so long...

hockey is sucking.....anyway teck whye coach was nice to say that he wil try his best to beat saints....thats so damn nice of him and meaning ful....jammed heartshaped box....omg dillon is so pro...he pplayed it with a right hadn guitar when he is left hand...he turned it upside down lol... was a bit shakey at first.. but he pulled it off...then did dani california...sweet child o' mine with vocals lol coz no guitar so just for fun....me do vocals..wtf!?!?!? then he do bass...around the world...jusut messed around....and et some matts at the end....when we went out lol....then they said "sia lah...tot guitar come out..hockey stick come out...." lol coz i cam from open house.... lol i dont think they know i play drums....lol...they said they heard us laying and he was asking us jst now that song u all play rchp? he wa reffering to around the world.... then he said " sia lah...californication chea lat!" lol....anyway it was not so proogressive coz ribbon wasnt there for guitar and so there either had to be no bassist or no guitar...and plus its super hard for dillon coz there wasnt a left hand guitar.... anyway..jammin' on tuesday...trying jaded by aerosmith..omg that song owns...quite pop but we all know wyhy ribbon asked for that song.... "hey...j-j-j-jaded" the chorus so damn catchy..."my,my,my baby blue!"....

today was milk run...woke up at 10 plus...did my chores...which was to sweep almost the whole house...and dry the load of clothes that have been piling up...so i did it by 11 plus...took my bath at 11 30 left the house at 12 20! wth was i thinking! milk run at zouk carpark was only at 3pm! i reached there at like what? 13 36! okay so to sum up everything...met the gang pacing with pals dillon and joshua chan... we were carrying our bags...coza obviously the bag deposit will be damn sian and crowded...so we walked the whole thing...at least we wanted to.... then dillon, joshua and I were giving high 5s to all the elderly officials! lol..one of them tao me! she looked damn pissed...then one point jude tan crept up on me and slapped me on the back and said "come on run!" so i sprinted like 200 metres clear of him hoping that i don't get whacked...then saw him 20 meters away from me...so just ran the whole thing with my bag from then on...lol....then i unintentionally ditched josh and dillon and met up with yiwen and bryan who were obviously scouting...so well followed them...walked like crap..saw alot of tereasians.... so looking for sarah...felt like i saw her somewhere...so we were walking damn slow...then after that..towards the finishing pint..saw some one sprint ahead of us..and she turned back
then after that we slack the run and finish saw sara...she was asking for keenan....and stuff like dt....lol one time joavan,sudhirr,shakti,julian,josh and dillon saw her...then joavan was like why keenan like meena? lol!

i dunno if it is cAlled ambigous.... but if that means that i feel happy and sad.///that's how i feel.... i was obviously upset that we lost 1-0 yesterday by a damn dumb shortcorner...and i mised a chance...but rest assured i wil not do that same mistake against saints and orchid park coz today was one of my happiest day in deflecting into goal....cant believe today my control of airballs are so much better! but tts also a bad thing coz if our defence can't stop it....we are gone!

apart from hockey, today i did not like what mr jude tan...our bio teacher did...i always did not like what he does...just felt he thinks damn highly of himself and always ignores other people whenever they greet him.... i dont know but from what my parents thought me, he is not a very good rolemodel...on top of that he is a really lazay teacher....all this while he just gives us slides...we copy he reads the slides....tells us some weird things like maturity and how girls are smarter than guys... (that i agree...coz i experienced it b4)...bt today i really didn't like what he did....he seriously insulted me and i wanted to give him a punch or a slap...if i was his mother...u insult my skin i'm not so sensitive...but if you say that i am immature i will react very obviously... when he said,"for most of you, puberty will be around the end of this year" ...then i did not intend to say this so lound but he was quite near me and i said to myself..."that means i still got time...." (i mean after all i am short and people would think i am primary 6....so that is seriously how i feel and i dont know what is so immature about it...coz in my books the gloabal definition for mature is acting like an adult... and immaturity is probably just that...but what does puberty have to with maturity? unless its physical maturity....and he even said u will probably be in the last 3 classes next year./.....this really really really pissed me off...the whole day there was only anger in my head...and seriously i will prove that *** ** * ***** that he is so damn wrong and come one look at his stupid jokes...so damn immature...what dunno hair comeout of here ther here ther...hahaha..... anyway i dunno why this is affecting me because.... ms lim did say to me in the parent teacher meeting that i am one of the more mature boys in the class ..as i have experienced more than them..like poverty, seperation of parents at the age of 4... and also the thoght of how does it feel to be a rich kid and now a poor kid... im not boasting but im just clairfying with myself if jude tan is saying the truth....moreover...i am a spiritual person who is very pious...i have experienced being a vegetarian...my father has piles which might lead to conal rectum cancer... and he has had 3 wives already and even converted to a muslim..... i was about 8 or 9 when he has his second malay wife and contributed to a muslim... furthermmore...i really don't feel like i belong in sji....i mean everyone's so rich! and im like this pauper begging for money! i feel liike a freaking CREEP!!!!!!!

but i dunno why i am letting this jdue tan thing just get in my head...i was playing hockey just now and the numbers "326" kept forming in my head....fuck fuck...i dont think even thoguh i can take bio next year..im not gonna take it coz most of the teachers are those whom i can't get along with if i wanna get an a1 for my o levels....i dunno if it will still bne jude tan...hope not..or genesius chan..he's nice but he's damn slack