good news.. although maybe everyone knew it except me.. only single humanities classes are 336 and 337 and i think 335 also.. so tt means i most probably would end up in double humanities. YAY... so its definitley pure lit and elect hist for me. I hope i get what i want ..so i have to do damn well in lit and maybe just get a b3 at least for geog..coz my hist i screwed up coz i chose to wrong essay,ending up with 15/20 when i could have done the other and gotten 19... but heck its done..so my overall history now, with aa is damn fucked up! i only got 64! like wtf???? so many ppl got a1 and i didnt even get a b3...so tt means i have to push it hard for geog even though i dont intend to take geog..and lit, i have to try get a2 at least. I will be satisfied with 68 or something but it's still now my usual and would also screw my overall coz my AA is only 69..(yeap that number tt has appeared a number of times in my life)

today was kind of slack. For, now our science periods are shifted with the diff science teachers every 20 mins..which is kind of a white elephant.

Today, tried to find julius caesar in borders coz i tried calling em' but they didnt answer..but apparently they don't sell lit texts. Now, i'm going to try a bigger popular outlet like maybe tampines. I went with dillon,julian and joavan who were just fiddling about after lunch at KFC..then we could not help but notice a rather familiar outfit displayed near the end of Mark's and Spencer's.. it honestly looked like, perhaps the exact same dress that miss tan wore during teachers' day...

oh yeah and unbelievably, i actually participated in mini class contact rugby today..of course i chose to remain idle, (just like desmond was) when aravin and wen han were in the gameplay..it's never safe when a gorilla is let loose and one of the fattest wingers (wen han) is suddenly at his peak... so when they stopped plauying.. (coz aravin got a bit too wild and couldn't control his tendency to strach big fleshy humans like wen han for his tender skin and so wen han was bleeding had deep scratches on his inflated belly) so then the game got a bit fair. Eh, i wasn't that bad ok..for my size i managed to tackle and block joavan and jin yao from scoring a try simultaneously.. ain't that bad for a 39 kg dude..

how many special people change?
how many lives are living strange?
where were you when we were getting high?

slowly walking down the hall
faster than a cannonball
where were you when we were getting high

some day you will find me
caught beneath a landslide
in a champagne supernova in the sky

-Champagne Supernova by oasis from (what's you story) morning glory

today, started off with english paper 1..and it ended pretty well. As usual, i finished very early (english papers are always guilty of being given too much time to complete). So i did question 3 for free essay, that being an incident that strengthened your family bond.. as usual i made up the story and was aware of melodrama and i did my best to avoid it.. however, i still felt i had a tinge of melodrama at the bridge of the essay..like how i changed the mood too instantly from me being total strangers to my parents to suddenly enjoying their company..like how does that happen?

so paper 2 was also pretty fallible on the other hand...finished it fast enough to do the summary question twice and still have alot of time to spare. And well wen han is, to a certain extent, linguistically assinine to lousy comprhension traps. He thought there was a bull near the elephant in the compre! like wth? even the china guys didn' t think that! Furthermore, he screwed up one of the questions where we were suppose to give another word to substitute the word "obssession" found in the passage.. and wen han gave some pronoun from the passage,"nomad" thinking it was a chim version of obssession.. i mean its there...sprakling in front of him mudanely.. the answer being "fever".....

so muggin for physics or rather (marinoing) got to ace physics.. coz i didnt do the AA...YIKES! and also chem...bio i think is easier, but just requires studying..so good luck to myself again..

the importance of being idle; giving a head start to others who aren't being idle.

i am not idle, thankfully... today has been quite fucked up from the very break of my dawn... which was at 4 pm! yes, like what i said earlier, mugging into the night, only proves that you are hardworking but it isn't going to benefit you much when your English exam is on Monday and you need sufficient sleep and rest to ace it tmrw... i wish myself good luck in digging out my soul for tonight.. i shall dig so deep, i may even find what I've been looking for..

to my utmost amazement, all the studying i have done from yesterday's unbelievably lucrative 5 hour math mugging to today's, underway,short yet beneficial 2 hour studying has all been math! the subject i greatly digress and loathe the most! i think it must have been that very truthful and special single tuition session i had with mr gould that stewed a big pot of voraciousness to do math..i never liked math more than this in my whole secondary school life. However, no matter how much i have practiced.. the amount of errors i have is still uncountable.. so the words of ,"practice minimizes careless mistakes" has not yet been embedded into my mind. Well,wakey,wakey! math is just the week after this! so i'm really racing against time.

I am going to prepare for english soon..in about an hours time.

that damn sum has been in my head for the past hour and i still cant find the answer... fuck it.. i can't be too obssesed with revision and get stressed over it.. it results in; hair loss,pimples,loss of appetite and basically everything.... im not gonna give my life to math.. fuck it.. its easier now than ever before but still just fuck it.. or rather ask mr kooh to fuck off, i never hated math until sec 2... everything is still the same except him..

i respect teachers alot, coz its harder being a good teacher, rather than a good student...

paedogogy...

what orgy?

the science of teaching? htf do u learn tt? i mean many of the new teachers in our school.. like mr ng,marcus koh,mosburgen and gang simply teach their students by putting a laptop there and showing the slides on the screen and just reading off the slides.. like.. do they go to NIE to just learn that? wtf man... that can't be paedogogy... and wtf am i saying.. im a frkin 14 year old who has nothing to interfere with stuff like paedogogy.. i'm still narrow minded and im not looking wider and deeper enough..so maybe, these teachers actually learn those "chim" stuff and they just slack coz they don't really feel like teaching by using those "chim" methods... but that paedogogy thing is pretty interesting.. like maybe its something where u teach by putting some music in the classroom? thats what ms deborah goh did once in our rme lesson... or maybe teaching by singing? or maybe philosophically? (it's mr kooh's failed method..however i think it'll be better if someone else used tt method..coz mr kooh is just..mr kooh)

damn..when will there be a good "new" teacher..

apparently my younger sis had a dream that my older sis was eating chicken (my older sis is the only persistant vegetarian) and then my younger sis asked her why she was eating chicken and she said.."fuck off"... haha..amusing dream.

And, now my elder brother went for grand prix...:( i'm left alone to study for the shitty fye... and also, tmrw some contractor guy is coming to discuss the renovation of our house... yay! finally a makeover..one that our little "hut" needs... so im tearing it apart..

The lights came on fast
Lost in motorcrash
Gone in a flash unreal
But you knew all along
You laugh the light
I sing the songs
To watch you numb
I saw you there
You were on your way
You held the rain
And for the first time, heaven seemed insane
'Cause heaven is to blame
For taking you away
-Tear by smashing pumpkins from the album adore

so i found this really funny and intersting.. thanks to winston coz i got it from his blog..

vrroooom...vrooom.. yes it was tempting when my brother's fren put the engine sounds on the phone and let us hear the engine sex...

so today, i went to tanjong pagar,arris building for my first private tuition session with mr gould.. or in full.. richard gould. he's my mom's friend and he's like this damn smart british guy who graduated from some university in london.. he kind of looked like mr dan from our ocp lessons..

so i felt intimidated by his appearance a bit, because he was like damn tall and quite buffed and well, a british accent always appears to me, the intimidating sort... but he was a nice person and helped me in math with patience and thanks to him, i finally can understand all the questions in the 2005 paper... so now im more or less alright in quadractic and linear graphs,indices,quad equations and all tt stuff... so now, im all set for math..just need to practice more.. and after this lesson i just realised im probably going to fail that test mr kooh set, that we did on friday... but hey..hit me one more time and i think i will pass...

so im more confident about math... but anything can happen. OMG, i went to popular today, and they didn't have julius caesar.. fuck! another day without tt... im screwed. I'm trying borders maybe on monday on my way back home... and gosh the popular customer service at paya lebar sucks...

so right now, im waiting for my mom to come back with that KFC bucket...i never had that in a long timee.... and im frking hungry

the day started off.. with a cool dark night and as i stepped out of the subway. i realised the heavy downpour that greeted me with severe deja vu.. like when my mom was telling me.. after finding out how complacent i was when she saw my bag didnt have an umberella.. and i was like, "come on lah..it won't rain..with all that shelter in orchard..shdn't be a problem" and now that i realised how orchard lacked enough shelters.. i've learnt my lesson.. i was the only one in the 105 bus to be drenched in the annoying rain and dripping wet... my god, i am thankful that they weren't really looking at me coz half of em were half asleep.. (singapore's spotlight on people before 7 am) because we know that singapore does lack grace.. im in a lethargic mood for now and my fucking final exams are 3 days away.. tt initiating with english..which i need to concentrate on to get and A...

good results+good behaviour+good influence = psl... good behaviour and influence is kind of easily acquirable but good results .... is what i have to acquire in limited time.. 3days! i think my sciences i shd do ok.. my geog shd be alright..my lit would be good if i just have the fucking text! god isn's it ironical im helping people with lit despite the fact that i don;t have a book and i feel pretty uncomfortable with lit now...

today we had humanities choice briefing and my persistent choice of pure lit and elective history still persists.... i liked how mrs ang decribed literature as,"unlike other subjects, in literature you see the unseen".. which is very true.. that's what makes a good literature student a sensitive person and sophisticated at that.. as they sau.. in lit you get to learn puns and ironies... the ability to say something indirectly, is a comedian's way of making money to put it simple.... but well also i would prefer pure lit because midsummer's night dream is a nice play and is alot more interesting than learning about the spread of the world's vegetation or learning how having a nazi family line is awfully something to be ashamed of.. (no, i find it humorous to find out that my grandfather was a nazi... lol.. an indian,jew, a nazi? WTF?!?!?) and also the fact that to kill a mockingbird sounds like nice book.. about prejudice as the title suggests. TWo texts is just mega interesting.. coz lit, is (for me) one of the only non boring subjects if you really like the book.

so i got the teachers' day DVD from dillon and omg i sound alot diff in there rather than youtube.. in the youtube one, my voice was much softer.

oh yes.. but the highlight of the day has yet again been put a spotlight on dillon... he had a rather heavy bag today, so he and nick were just kicking it off steps... and then when nick,dillon,joavan and i were leavin school after studying, nick tapped dillon to one side.. and the weight of the bag made the gravity of his bag move to the other side.. making him unstable and then dillon went topplin down and then nick started harrasing him and out popped out miss adeline tan and (of all people) she was like.. "omg are u molesting him" but seriously.. imagine if u were in her position... and DILLON was there... DILLON! of all people... haizzz...

so reminder to anyone,everyone or to just myself.. FYE IS IN 3 FUCKING DAYS! CHEEBAI NAooos! START MUGGING UR ASSES OFF!
so the song tts been in my head for a while.. thanks to dillon... bloody hell now im addicted to oasis' mordern beatles influenced sound..

Don't look back in anger-Oasis (US VERSION)

yet again, my tendency for dependency is offending me.. like how i depend on blogging to reflect or just unwind and pay no attention to the irritating sinus up my nose... i tink im getting the stress flu i always get before a major exam. I had one before my PSLE, and now im having one before my streaming.. let's hope my results turn out decent enough to fulfill my hopes and "needs"... and also my bad sore throat may probably be a throat infection or tongsels, which i had gotten earlier this year and couldn't come to school for 2 weeks.. i don't really want my tongsels to worsen, even though i need not do exams..but because they'll take my term 3 results ..which is by far my worst record ever... :(

and so like deceitful jades, i tell you i'm so prepared for the exams.. i am prepared but i don't feel prepared.. i feel like i can't retrieve what i have revised.. so my second cycle of revision started today.. and progress is promising.. lit is still a worry because i've not purchased julius caesar yet (damn this sinus is killing me!) however, it always helps when someone asks for help and u gain alot in teachin them..

It's also funny how the library is getting mroe popular nowadays, unlike previous times.. it's like a hangout! i mean..how often do u see andrew in a library? as rare as can be that is.. even beng is in the librarY! and in a way, their studying perturbs me because now i feel intimidated and ashamed of myself of not studying effectively enough... i made amends today, and i guess it'll have to persist until judgement day arrives...

im feeling drowsy; unusually.. coz i don't feel sleepy after sleeping at 2 am the night before... i think i'm taking sleep too much for granted, like how many of my older peers like miss tan say, that she at first didn't think sleep was that mandatory or whatsoever and then as she got older and work got more and required more attention, she realised the importance of it... yeah its coming to light to me... sleeping at 4 am into the night ain't going to help me for fye

habits i need to break to excel in fye:

1)PROCRASTINATION! (goodness! it's the devil!)
2)Late slumber
3)Bad study techniques (e.g: not timing yourself when u do a test paper, not making sure you understand your own notes)
4)getting succumbed to distractions

why won't all the ice caps melt and then flood the whole world, 70m underwater?

So after studying at the library for a while.. (about 2.5 hours) we went to look for previous year, yearbooks.. and god we found a sec 2 pic of mr png... and boy did he look retarded.. he looks a bit like pei zhi.. and also mr greg who looked the exact same in 2000, so did mr kooh even in 1999! ms lim had long hair in previous years... funny how the teachers seem to be a shadow of their past..

apart from a bad sore throat pulling my spirits down for the day, today was pretty alright, with good progressive mugging; managed to finish all the 05-07 bio papers! yippeeee... i yet to get into my geog flow.. and math too! omg.. test is on friday! but i passed 06 and 07 paper..but i guess..coz not many failed

i am also perturbed at the realisation of how complacent i am for lit and english... i just realised, after what ms periasamy went through today, regarding chapter 14 (the quarrel).. that i have gotten my opinions all wrongly inffered! so i used ahamd's textbook to write notes first and im helping ahmad for lit tmrw in the library.. i'm almost done with xiang rui, just left with one more chapter.. that being the battle of philippi, yes the childish chapter

~KuMs~

yeah yeah..blabber about me being a failure..

so today i realised how much trust my mom has in me... perhaps i deserved it?

so i just did the geog revision test paper, bio 06 and im planning to go full out after this.. until class starts at 01 30..

so yes, in a way im sitting in an english garden waiting for a sun... the garden being this stressful self control apparatus i am in.. and the sun being the desperate lifeline i hope i'll get... i am especially stressed for 3 reasons..

-my mom not trusting me
-exams
-some personal tuition with my mom's friend who's a university graduate from london..some angmoh called richard.. and he's apparently good at math.. why am i worried? worried my mother waste her taxi fair...

sigh... whats the point of not trusting me but going all out to help me...

isn't it weird what students can do under their desk while a teacher is giving a lesson? it surprises me what wira can do under his desk and its probably the top of the list of "most outrageous and funniest things to do under your desk"

Apparently akhi, told me that during the time when he was sitting beside wira, wira had the the habit of unzipping his shorts and start wanking under the desk and during mrs kooh's lesson.. omg.. i can't believe the smell of semen was not even obvious? and knowing wira... i dunno? does he have an air filter in his sausage? like wtf? weird thing to do... but wira has always been the daring sort... there was one time in primary school, where the yo-yo craze was so catchy and was (at that time) the "in thing".. and so wira,eugene(now in st pats),seth(also in st pats),kaushik (from raffles),boon(st pats) and some other guys brought their yo-yos to the library and then miss siti was confiscating everyone's yo yos.. but wira had a plan.. miss siti knew he had one..so wira immediately slid the yo yo in his boxers.. and then miss siti was like..don't make me check you..and he was like check lah! and yes eventually she couldn't find it but apparently she knew where it was...

we got back out literature AAs today and i am disappointed with myself at how assinine i am.. yes i feel like an ass that bears gold like lepidus... she said that i had the content and stuff for the poems.. but she failed my presentation because i simply printed out whatever i had..and also because i didnt have printer ink and so didnt want to trouble others by pestering them to print the anthology out with construction paper.. and fancy this..but i helped desmond,julian,alvin and they all got higher than me! fuck! julian just copied out whatever i said and i fucking gave him the poems to choose! i basically did everything for him! life's a bitch and the journey is a whore! sigh... anyway today geog remedial helped me a hell lot..thank you mr gregory for being so patient with us...

and shak was telling joavan and i about his incident with a gay guy at toa payoh.. apparently, shak was peeing and there was another guy at the next urinal and then shak sensed that he was looking at him so he turned around and to shak's dismay, the guy was wanking right infront of shak... and so shak took a run away from him,,

today during com studies.. we had to capture our video into the com.. and haha ahmad's aravin alvin yao and shawn's video was damn funny... and our video included alot of funny clips like how nic split his pants..jovan doing his nigger dance,i was "sucking it",sudhirr yelling out weird stuff and showing off his hairy chest...haha


funny how today, many things were related to sausages... ewww...


~KuMs~

okay, math test was screwed up... omg i could have gotten almost a1 because i was so fucking stupidly careless i accidentally put an x beside all of my gradient and my answers were so messy mr kooh couldn't understand what was going on...

what can i deduce?

next test, i'm coming back with a vengeance..however the next test is going to be much tougher and more topics are covered.. okay so checklist on what i've revised for math...

sec 1 stuff like...
compound interest (not done)
statistics (done)
exchange rate (fuck havnt do yet!)


indices (not done)
simlutaneous (not done)
trigo (done)
mensuration (done)
quad graphs (done)
linear graphs (done)
similar and congruent triangles (done)
exp. and fact. (done)

date of test :friday

anticipated result : GG



furthermore, the reality of the abundant lack of time to preapre for fye is just overwhelming and in a way sucidal (no not to the emo extent) please i'm not asking for a triple science class, i just want a class which is not the tail end (324-326) but be a reasonably apt class with elective history,pure lit and double science.. i hate bio ..fuck bio.. physics and chem rock on!

i didn't want to go for math remedial today because i felt sleepy and i probably wouldn't be able to concentrate and i also felt that studying with sips of coffee in my cosey and sombre ambienced room while listening to some jazz was more relaxing that panickingly trying to finish trigonometry (yea the easy topic), competing with other question laden minds of sec 2s with only one teacher present to make use to fully grasp whatever doubt or query we had... it was eqivalent to doing it at home.. but doing at home with ur msn on and a math pro online would make it more rewarding...

another bitchy subject is biology. Strangely, i struggled with section A , but section B and C were much easier..wtf they gave us 8 marks to draw how the roots absorb nitrates from the soil! that's equivalent to looking at ur dick! but just with intellectual description..

oh yes dylan was funny today.. u noe about his crutches and all.. so today, he,joavan(yes the prefect) and anselm were sent out of class by ms lim coz they were responsible for making alot of noise.. and so dylan then decided to seek some attention and started to run around the pavillion, flapping his crutches like wings and hopping around with one leg.. or rather running with the casted leg... and then this attracted attention from some sec 4s from upstairs and they were laughing so much, it was hard not to notice and then ms lim, wondering where the cacaphony was coming from, went out to discover, to ehr very utmost dismay, joavan and anselm laughing at dylan flapping his crutches like an injured kookoobara... and so this caused pandemonium in the class.. because it was too funny to resist... and then ms lim whined all day long..and also brought up the matter about andrew? why? why so random and purposley demoralising? what the fuck did he do but be negatively spontaneous by inetrrupting her lesson like.. last term????

and then we went to the PAC for pse and then jude tan showed us the PSL nominees and yay i'm one of em.. but if they are going to base our grades on being psl.. i might get pulled out coz i screwed up term 3.. please fye.. give me my old streak of 68 percent... that lucky number! oh wait.. 69 is my lucky number coz.. in term 1 i had 3 subjects with 69..haha.. the mystic 69; king of sexual innuendos! and thinking about any teacher who would cancel me.. that'd probably be my tamil teacher..yea most probably her.. i don't think mr kooh thinks im a slacker, jude tan is pretty not bad...,ms lim was the one who nominated me,feroz..used to hate me..but not tt much now..,i;ve not done anything to offend gregory,i am attentive during lit,i have not done anything to offend mr ng,i have not done anything to offend mrs lee..yeah so tts about it..

its basically for me to refer to..

next monday : english
next friday: physics and mother tongue paper 1
next next monday : humanities and [math paper 1 :( ]
next next tuesday : literature
next next wednesday : chemistry
next next thursday : Mother tongue paper 2
next next friday : biology
next next next monday : math paper 2 :(

in a way im happy there's more time to practice math.. so for now my strategy for math... because after doing some paper 2 of math i realised paper 2 is alot easier and so mayb i think of getting 30 plus over 50 for paper 2 and try my best for paper 1 but ill probably flunk..that shd get me a pass...

ok im going to try do another math paper now.. and for english, i'm just going to do my essay like how i've always done it.. enough to get a 22/30 and for the compre try my best and get 75 plus percent for it like how i always got for term 3 and 1..i flunked my term 2 with 60 coz i slacked... i;m taking english more seriously compared to last year so i hope that'd get me far... and so for geography, i'm revising everything again for the fourth time... chemistry i'm going to do a test paper tmrw..il try photocopy 2004 for the chem equations and do the full 06 paper..biology yes.. im revising.. done with every thing except minor topics (sex in plants,ecology,life science etc.) for physics; i am left to practice applying the p=iv and all tt power related formulas...

how the fuck do you avoid the inevitable truth.. i hope i don't have to think of that. I am muggin all i can for math and making sure all my other subjects are in shape because, according to haqqim, if u fail math and u do damn well for the other subjects and get 67 percent i'd end up in 325 instead 326..but who cares, mr arul is teaching that class next year! NO!!!!!! that means running 9 laps every pe lesson under 18 minutes... oh pleeeeeasseee... i hope i end up in 323 or better..323 is like the perfect class for me coz its elect hist and pure lit and double science..i cant stand triple science and i detest geog and according to abrar elect history is damn easy to score and plus literature is my best subject...lets hope it'd be my best in fye too..

my motivation to mug math... don't mug and fail in fye = stuck with arul for rest of the two years...NOOOOOOOO!

323 pleaseeeeee....

i feel like i'm having anesthesia.. like how i dont feel a pain but i can sense it somewhere.. i hope its not going to be the pain of failing math..pleeeease..no! anyway, i finally am able to do chemical equations weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

oh yeah, and looking at some of my old photos, i suddenly remembered about the leadership camp the three classes had last year..210,211 and 212.. it was a blast definitely. The chalet was a nice bungalow off changi, and we had alot of fun with the games, late nights, lunch, "touch frisbee" , and the activities were really fun too... Gregory was damn fun in the camp, playing touch frisbee with us.. the dude can sprint..had a hard time catching him.. well he's mario what can u expect?

I hope there's gonna be another one this year..

gosh..im bored .. but i'm watching a parody of project runway.. really funny how they make fun of heidi klum's accent..

it's out.. rick wright, pianist of pink floyd passed away recently of cancer in his sleep.. at least he died peacefully. SIgh...and so there were three... mason,gilmour and waters.. though not together.. they have been together and boy did they give reasons for people to live..

i am going to break my study shell for a while and jam with the drums to unwind a bit.. sometimes i feel like an ass to others being so paranoid.. i really need to relax, but not relax too much..

so i revised my annotated diagrams weeeee... i did a geog paper also.. it's harder than i expected and i guess 08 is gonna get harder

that we don't even care
as restless as we are,
we feel the pull in the
land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement
lamented and assured
to the lights,
and towns below
faster than ,
the speed of sound,
faster than,
we thought we'd go
beneath..the sound...
of hope...
1979-smashing pumpkins

yeah..that song makes me nostalgic of peaceful and aimless car rides to nowhere.. and also of how it used to be in my old bungalow near east coast! beautiful house that was.. and also the time where i fell of the couch and hit my head first on the marble tiles floor and now i have this permanent scar on my head with 3 stitches and like its damn obvious from the colour.. and also the time when i pushed my sis (i was 4 and she was 3) off a slide and she fell head first and landed with an injury but hey..at least that was not a permanent scar.. but i also loved the times when my elder brother who was in primary school, used to bring me on his bike in fast speeds up and down the sloped of east coast.. and also my eldest brother who was in seondary 1 or primary 6 .. and he was into skateboarding and all his skateboarding buddies used to come to our house and they were friendly people... my other sis was very anti social with her friends but she was the one who took care of us most..

oh but the best was in my other house..when i was 7 and my eldest bro was in la salle college of the arts.. and boy did he get in deep shit one day.. he was found in bed with a girl and when they woke up... my mom was like telling my brother, "what kind of girls do you bring home? you didn't even tell me anything and for your information, there are your younger siblings in this house and i can fucking see her thong through her slacks!" yes she did say fuck... my mom said fuck like three times already once by accident the other time because she was damn pissed with one of her colleagues...

~sir psycho sexy~

finally all that lAte night mugging has all summed up in today's wonderful sleep! i slept from 1 am to 12 pm... 11 hours, now i'm all refreshed and charged up to go mug like there's no tomorrow!

i have plenty of space in my notebook..so today there's some filling to do.. and i'm going to study all the annotated diagrams for geog... and practice some questions on graphs for math.. revise through some algebra we went through on monday's remedial...
revise some chem equations and revise through all the notes... and i'll check my answers for the physics paper. Revise some caesar quotes and maybe finish a geog paper today

so there you have it.. my packed study plan which i hope i can fulfill... xD

anyway reply to tag.
Alexis: errr i think it's 2 kids.. coz i noe one of em is in primary 1 or something and the other younger.. and in his facebook pic..gt like 2 kids there..

I like pleasure spiked with pain
music is my aeroplane
it's my aeroplane
songbird sweet and sour jane
music is my aeroplane
it's my aeroplane...

-aeroplane by rhcp

yes i'm in psychadellic mood...

we did map reading for geog today and dylan kept chanting "santamaria" at greg..haha was hillarious and there was a point he realised and he was like.."santamaria..your head...santamaria won't get you far in your exams!" Map reading is a bore and a waste of time and paper... but it's pretty all right..but the tedious one being to measure lengths of lakes if they are circular.. gosh, he doesnt allow us to use a string!

there was a math test to add to the disappointment.. omg, i can't believe i didn't study congruency,simultaneous and proportions but instead only studied graph.. graph didnt get me that far in the paper though... there were like 2 on linear graphs, one quadratic and one we had to consturct that i screwed up! the 2 linear graphs..i shhhdhh get correct.. the quadratic one i should get about half the question correct and errr... yeah.. i hope i pass, because if i can pass withouth studying i'd be happy enough.. but shak got 10/50.. and shak's s'ppse to be smart! so..yes im worried..

and i think ms lim is really a nice person. I returned her the 100 my mom borrowed from her but she told me to keep it and use it for my educational purposes and i even asked her to take it twice.. anyway..i've opted to ms lim to be a psl and she acknowledged..so yay! next year woot! PSL will be damn fun... all the camps and new josephians..i hope hope hope i get the tail end classes.. coz the first few are damn nerdy! yes (from my past experience as a sec 1)

So, i mugged hard today at the library for a somewhat fruitful 1 hr 45 mins.. i studied geog all the way..so now i finally know how to draw the diagram for how the water is transferred from reservoirs to home and industries.. i understand the landfill method but can't understand how to draw it, and i revised global warming/ozone depletion and greenhouse effect but i still have queries like..

how exactly does the atmosphere trap the gases?

how to construct a diagram for the formation of acid rain?

yeah tts about all i can think now but i rmbr i had a load more queries... anyway dillon put some light into me today when he asked me where did the word "mug" come from? like i only heard it this year and even the radio talks about muggin? isn't it cool how one day..some one uses some kind of "incognito" and then everyone being to use it in their everyday life...


and those who went for leap of faith (LOF) almost got into deep shit today man.. aaron told me about how one of the maintenance guys opened the shutter and saw them and was like..."what you guys doing here" and then they took a leap from up there..haha what an escape!

I'm funky for now..so call me sir psycho! here's an awesome video of rhcp's mother's milk days in their funky pants and kinky hair... in the spirit of PHUNK..

songs performed.. subway to venuse/sexy mexican maid (both from mother's milk as frusciante on guitar) and ends off with back in black by ac/dc



~sir psycho sexy~

ewww... ewww... yes i saw what was in that censor face.. ewww sick stuff. Anyways, i've been kicking it up a notch by mugging more and today i was helping xiang rui with literature in the library and i realised that he's damn hardworking... he stays in the library, everyday, until 5 and goes home, sleeps for one hour, watch tv for another hour and study all the way... and then he sleeps... very good discipline. If only i could be like that,xD.

Majority of people think china people are damn irritating and obnoxious but in fact the china students in out class are pretty alright.... xiang rui looks like a gangster ("G-ster") but he's not that bad (he is neither rude nor a bully)... eIt's unique how he weare such expensive boxers every day... his fav brand is apparently calvin klein..! wtf! and dt time he used versace and also some other damn ex brand...

I'm still scared of essays! I have a fear of writing normal every day personal recounts and whatever I write (trying to be diff) seems to go out of point! Arghhh! I have to overcome my fear of writing lame essays..:P

So i tried overcoming the impeccable feat of finishing the chem fye 2007..however, it was still too intelligent for me and i skipped like one whole section B question and 1 or 2 sect c questions.. I'm in hot soup for sure... arghh....

I did as many geog worksheets as i could and tried a bit of physics and also practiced for the math test tomorrow.... studied graphs; my Achilles heel!

I have no idea why I cannot be as focused as xiang rui... He could study fruitfully in the library until 5 and I only stayed until 3 30, due to peer pressure; no i'm not blaming joavan, it's just that i didn't like the idea of going home alone :P

Anyway, good luck to arvinth,andrew, jerry and all.. i mean it, i really wish you guys do well and manage to cover everything by next week and go to your desired class nesx year... i need some sympathy too... i can't fail math!! and getting c or lower for any other subject will just be the cherry at the peak of all the rotten apples... and not to forget that alvin is also hardworking.. and joavan..omg photocopied like 2 full geog papers and one chem and one bio paper today..GG..and plus he bought like 2 photocopy cards for it.. hope you benefit but you most likely would...

Oh yes.. how can one be so hate laden and not forget what was arguably the highlight of the week! the kabal expert cum philosopher had forgotten his math period with a delightful batch of 210ers on a fine thursday morning and we wasted the whole period in his absence.. well actually in away.. it was still the same :P.. everyone was doing their own stuff; like how i was listening to my mp3, aravin,joavan,wen han and all the buff ppl comparing who is more muscular and stuff.. nat,julian,marcus and others were messing around with dylan's detuned guitar... arvinth being the stereotypical security guard ("watchman") being our look out.. near the door... and he ended up having a dose of his own la la land of heavy boob heaven.. (yes tts arvinth's fettish and his addiction to sleep anytime, despite the inevitable fact that he is sitting right in front of the teacher!) and then the studious and hardworking... benedict leading the pack in helping xiang rui, hong bin and other math enthusiasts... shawn and gang talking about porn...ahmad counting his armpit hair.

yes that's it folks for a day in the life of sir psycho sexy.. (he's a freak of nature and we love him so!)

today, i had boring bus and mrt rides without my mp3, zen gave up on me today. Then in school nothing that much to highlight except joavan making fun of julian's face again.. and how julian said that if we call arvavin black its like calling the kettle black and joavan said and if you call a spastic child spastic its like calling the kettle black... and now julian got family tree.. father is yao ming...brothers are mark lee and jude tan and his grandfather who passed away..julius caesar. And best was when we found out jude tan's akan datang baby is coming on 5th dec and julian's birthday so happens to be the same. Is it mere coincidence? xD

WOot i passed my first math test; 30/40 tt's a record. But mensuration is easy shit so can't get any worse.

I am not falling to peer pressure anymore meaning no "come on lah what can u lose by playing 15 mins of soccer" answer; "another 15 mins..tts what happened today when joavan told me to play and thank god we saw jude tan and we all evacuated the pitch... lest we would still be playing and neglect time's essence.

I'm pretty worried for essay still because i have not cleared my doubt; but i'll probably ask ms lim tmrw, but i think mine should be alright because i looked at sec 4 kevin's work on Muse and he wrote about his aunt melanie martens so i guess shouldn't be a problem...i need need need to study now..pending are..

chem fye
math 2006 paper 1


and i got wen han's chem notes meaning no more excuses! time to mug now at 23 07...

Today was another unmugful day ... yay a new word..

only did that chem paper, and i need need need to do the following tmrw;

1)photocopy another goeg paper because the 05 copy has outdated topics
2)Photocopy joavan's past year exam questions for math (it helps)
3)photocopy a physics fye paper (06 and 07 of possible if not just 07 or just 06)
4)try catch up on math ws

So for now my words of mugging on is.. "fail math go 326!" so... mug mug mug math = passing math = lesser chance to go 326 and then i try get A's in as many subjects as possible..for what i'm aiming;

literature,english,tamil and hopefully some sciences like bio because i revised liked hell and maybe physics .. chem i will be happy with a b but please no C or a fail.. and as for geog i want a b3 at least but anything can happen and geog is like..they can ask u anything! I went for geog remedial today; quite productive in a way that it gave me practice and awareness to water supply which i suck at...

I am quite worried for my english essay, because now i'm unsure as to wether do exposit. or narrative..because narrative is easy but i feel weird writing a narrative about a normal; lame story.. and the stories that i try writing are damn reflective but not interesting like.. example is my essay on opportunity

about my old friend who used to be a family person and attached to his hometown and then we found him an overseas job and then he was reluctant but thenw e compelled him to go and 10 years have gone and he never gave a call at least and finally i find a forbes magazine with the front page depiciting his face on it and with the headlines something like youngest bussinessman or something and like he never mentions how he was thankful to his friends and all and then i talk about how i feel and how his parents would have felt... and then end up saying that i walked, reading the interview with interest and engrossed in its contents and the kalaidescope of david's character and then i leave the magazine in a dustbin and say, and i wondered how a wonderful opportunity could turn dark for others..

like it's got the stuff but no climax and all.. so im unsure..very unsure! i even wrote one called unwanted visitor..about my uncle staring at me in front on my door and then its a flashback and i talk about how disgusting and havoc he used to be and and also not a very good uncle because he almost forgot to pick up his nephew from the day care and left him crying in the day care for 4 hours... and then i go on to talk about reality and behind him.. a little girl pops out and he talks about how he has settled in life with a beautoful wife and has a kid and all and then i talk about how he changed and all..its not tt much of a climax! so what do i do????


~KuMs~

From the time i left house to the computer studies lesson, i was laid with suspicion and was frking anxious and was on the verge of playing truant.. xD! Thankfully i didn't! lest i leave out that geog remedial and also risk not photocopying the 05 geog fye paper which i have not dont till now because of the damn info skills project, which i just finished

I like what joshua said on his msn pm," the only difference between dreams and nightmares is how big your balls are" and another one of his all time favourites..,"i like the smell of revolution; smells like hush puppies!"

So again, in chemistry lesson, i was stupefied and I forgot to photocopy certain chem notes from the file and i finall got my term 3 common test practice..which i will do first after i finish blogging, followed by the geog paper which i shall refer to the text because some of em are not tested for us and oh my god the bio paper joavan photocopied was damn easy in section C..they gave 7 to 8 marks for the construction of a diagram of the allimentary canal (the stupid cappilaries to tissue fluid and tissue fluid to cappilaries) and another one being the suction of nitrates via the roots... (root pressure..very simple for men to do.. pull down your pants and you see the exact same thing staring back at u)

so why was i anxious and afraid? because i forgot to bring the tape for com studs.. and knowing mr soo, i thought i would get screwed left and right and upside down... luckily he didn't he was nice enough to let us help other groups for their left over footage.. so joavan,nic,sudhirr and I helped wen han's group and we only covered one scene ! some track scene where i'm suppose to be the super slow guy and then joavan wen han and sudhirr spritn like usain bolt 200 m ahead of me ....and then i'm suppose to look exhausted after that and all tt shit.. and i was running the way the guy in chariots of fire ran.. hands and heads up..teehee

I'm digging a bit of Jane's addiction now but it's really not as good as i expected.. all of em' sound pretty much the same.. i think best is still "just because" like wtf.. i expected much much much more from Dave Navarro...ONe hot minute was amazing but no other rhcp album can beat their "blood sugar sex magik" so dillon and i have far fledged dreams (2 years) to do give it away by rhcp and come together by beatles for kindered spirits in sec 4... only problem is tt come together has a sexual innuendo.. a very hidden one.. about "cum together..over me.."

highlight of the day; i got a zit very near my nose...

Yay I survived my self control apparatus (room full of distractions) to overcome my goal of finishing up the pollution topic of Geography; amazing feat for me...

Only problem now; i feel i'm bloggin a lil' too much.... too hard core and some more during FYE.. actually it's good because it helps me a bit in english so i don't feel that awkward to write and rant about something..xD

So my sis bf is going to India to pursue some career in mainstream music and stuff and it's kind of funny how i knew him as the guy who use to tutor my elder brother and now he's suddenly an award winner in Cannes, a pro drummer and good composer who even made his stand in the National day celebrations when he composed the indian version of where i belong, hey it's a feat not many of us fiddle and incompetent souls can do.... takes guts, creativity and also in a way, you have to be spontaneous because you just have to show any idea you can and never be afraid and never be afraid of asking questions... although that is something that sounds so simple yet is so hard to do.. some times we feel so vain of our reputation that we don't want to appear inferior to others so we hold back our doubts and let it stay and rot and smell so bad it could be smelt from above the earth (okay..a bit too Antonyish)

And the line of creativity in my family is catching because now my elder sis is being featured on the tamil channel instead of her bf before because of his cannes victory.. so now she;'s being filmed because of her young entrepreneurship after her successful task of recruiting apt Caucasian models (teenage) and assigning them to tasks ranging from local indian guest appearances, to actuallly acting in medacorp.. the lame show REM, where there' the roxy one.. yah that's from my sis' agency and there are a few who ended up in musicals.. so it's not bad but she doesnt get much income yet like they say... the reward comes at the end where it is most lucrative and deserving.. couldn't agree more but impatience has always been my evil shadow i always attempt to conceal it hidden under my sinister visage but nevertheless, helpless i always end up to be an ever failing puppeteer...:(

Yes "O! the piteous Spectacle!" The chem FYe 2007 is quite challenging, in fact very challenging for my standard. Goodness Question B1 and B2 are giving me headaches :(

So tomorrow.. things to do;
1) photocopy Physics Fye 06 and 07,geog fye 06 and 07,Bio 06 and 07, chem 06
2) photocopy Chemistry notes on Preparation of Salts, Chemical Formulae, Chemical Equation and sec 1 topics... (I shall cope all from JUlian)
3)Photocopy topic by topic based math questions... (start off with algebra and graphs >>>my weakest)
4)Copy down Geog notes from Lord Benedict for landfill method and drainage of swamps

I am so addicted to Coke, and it's a bad thing because according to Samuel (p.S: he's shorter than me) Pepsi stuns your growth and Coke being not so much different from PEpsi.. is probably just as harmful; but what the heck...

Oh yes, and also one of the highlights of they day was when Ms lim accidentally addressed Julian as "julius" like WTF? Julian..julius caesar.. he may look like the illustration of Caesar on the book but they neither,share any similar intellect nor do they share any ambition that would resort in "absolute evil intelligence for his own good", julian not tt smart yet... but JOavan was making fun of Julian by putting the Caesar cover beside his own face and imitated how odd julian looks like; eyes twitching, hands looking weird when in eating position, lips flabbed up... nah don't worry julian it's just an exaggeration like how Seth Macfarlane made fun of Sarah Jessica parker by "punning" that she looks like a horse..

speaking of Macfarlane; anyone heard of his new cartoon? Cavalcade of Cartoon Comedy?
this one is on super mario..haha cracked me up

wouldn't it be really cool, if like lennon mentioned, there was no religion and countries, that way; there won't be wars, disputes, disagreement, reacism and etc. and no hell below us and above us only sky... lennon, i don't say you are a dreamer, coz you're not the only one; it'll happen one day, but just not anytime soon...

but we have to admit that our world is basically an appratues designed to judge us, human beings... wether you fall easily to temptation, flattery, failure, success, ditractions etc. it's like this experiment or maybe somewhat like a dichotomus key isn't it? like how if you have self control you end up in A or B or whatsoever;

Speaking of Distractions, i catched the show last night at 12 30 am... really cool show and bloody entertaining.. contestants have to answer "general knowledge" questions while being distracted by something.. last night had (as usual) a very entertaining batch of contestants; Mark, being the one who had sex in all states of America! haha..really funny when he said ,"you know at first it started off somewhere locally and we took it lightly and then I was like..hell yeah we should do this more often; and there went Texas" and the other contestant being Bert, who is from china but American born and sells sushi and The a girl ; i forgot her name ; but i rmbr she used to fold madonna's underwear and the other one was fynn..didn't get much about her...

so first round was that they had to buzz in if they knew the answer to the question and their buzzers..were.. to drink a cup of hot sauce and bang it on the table.. and ironically the questions were like... "which band conists of members, anthony kiedis,chad smith,flea and john frusciante" and "which famous pop star wrote the hit single, hot stuff?"...

second round was that they had to answer questions while getting thrown around by 2 wrestlers who were 2 heads taller than em'... very amusing...

Last round which lated with only Bert and MArk, was by far most rewarding for them... they were each stationed to a bed and everytime they get an answer correct they get a frking hot girl on their bed.. haha poor Mark, he had sex too many times it became so muhc of a distraction Bert stole the win.. but best was when a blonde hopped into Bert's bed and the host said, "i think the Iq in that bed has just doubled"

so moving on to the day... we started off with chem this week and I can't bellieve Mrs Lee was talking about how hard the exam would be and her strategy to finish up atomic structure, chemical formulae, periodic table and sec 1 topics by this week and she happened to say.." and if you FUCK this up.." I paused for a while and then i was like..did she say fuck? and ahmad was like.. oh my god she just did! That just goes to show the gravity in Mrs lee about our FYE... (crossing fingers)

oh yes and literature was again reliefed by some other teacher; some old teacher... and he wrote chapter as "chop.????" on the board... sigh.. poor thing.. I didn't really bother actually thinking alot about the chapter about the quarrel btwn brutus and cassius because i couldn't really understand it that much... need help... PLEASE!

HAd math remedial; and thanks Qin han for helping me with algebrain manipulation; i can understand those sums now but i still don't get question 6 and 8; sigh... but i think i'm going to take it more seriously and I'm going to finish up the 2006 paper 1 and 2 tmrw PROPERLY.. I am so damn nervous for math..

Thankfully there's a shimmer in everything dull, so alexis and I have planned vaguely about holiday workout; because we need brawn; :P

I woke up at 1 pm today, still unhealthy but better than sleeping for 10 hours.. this time it was about 7 hours..:P

so i did another essay called opportunity (decided to go narrative), so my essay is about how one of my seniors, david had gotten a job opportunity to work with microsoft through my uncle and then I talked a lot on how he tried so hard to find a job and his friends and i also helped him a load but had nothing in return and like when we gave him the opportunity, he was unwilling to go because he didn't want to leave his family and his friends and he would feel like an alien in America.. so alot of persuasion blah blah.. and finally he succumbed to going to america and then 10 years have gone and I'm looking at the latest issue of "forbes" magazine and it reads, "award for most successful youngest entrepreneur goes to David Finn of Microsoft" and then I talk about how he never contacted his family, or his friends ever again and started a new life with a british wife and had 2 kids and even in his interview he never talked about his gratitude to his friends or his family and then i end of by saying how opportunity may bring someone in a whole new light; that sometimes we tend to forget the people who actually shaped us to what we have become... like how you climb a ladder and u just disown the ladder after you've reached the peak...

i hope they give a topic like that for the exam, because i can write much more for those kind of topics.. so for now i'm digging one word essays :D! and then i studied julius caesar and I'm going to memorise all the significant quotes by tuesday; watch me!

I'm suddenly feeling nostalgic about my primary school days; when coming home at 4pm was considered late xD and how it was so fun to be ignorant and "sort of" break the rules.. i was a nerd until primary 6... in primary six i became the kind of "stay back play soccer every day" kind of person and also the "study last minute" kind of person but "appear like studying to your parents and teachers"... yes the art of innocence in disguise, one that I yet to master in times like these; times that involve disguise yet uncertainty (yes the times when you just want to slack but not appear as if you're slacking)

Nostalgia like how great minds say, is a gift, because sometimes the present is so horrid and your past is as rich as buttermilk flowing from the mouths of veela... I love my past, i hate my present and i probably can't see my future at the rate i'm going... too dark and far away...

I feel like i lack a spontaneous personality

ok, it's 4 43 i just did 3 essays.. an expository; friends are more important than parents do you agree, a narrative on a nasty surprise and blance.. after doing these essays, i realised i;ve lost the writing flow i used to have. I can't really describe something so well like how i used to..sigh..

it's 4 45 am! anyway i thought of sharing this picture...



just look at mr tan's arms.. spreading like an eagle.. he's freaking big man!

u see this is a sign of boredom.. posting about 10 times a day.. xD

anyway i'm digging soundgarden now and it made me think i like so many grunge/alternative bands maybe i should sort them out by making a list of which one of em' i would prefer listening to on my mp3 more often...

1.Soundgarden
2.Radiohead
3.Smashing pumpkins
4.Red hot chili peppers
5.Nirvana
6.Temple of the Dog
7.Iggy pop and the stooges
8.Jane's addiction
9.Stone temple pilots
10.neil young

ok i'm finally getting tuition.. private tuition by some poly student... (crossing fingers and most people who know me know why...) for math and science..i'm going to mug soon..

honestly my sister is getting from bad to worse! she asked my mother..

"do i use pigeon eggs for my muffins?"

pigeon eggs? do they even sell em? i noe about fish eggs but pigeon eggs?

im stoning here at 22 31 pondering about whether to go for motley crue because we have to stand in the moshpit and if it rains we don't get refund... it's a gamble to catch the most notorious hair metal band to date..

anyway.. woot! i'm finally doing my essay!

this just in

sister, "is super mario a game for children?"

it's amazing how a g rated game whereby a short moustached man goes around jumping on mushrooms and turtle shells could make someone ponder if it is Mature 18...

and btw rhcp's woodstock performance of warped is weird.. anthony kiedis wearing a skirt and chad smith looks alot like will ferell ... but still awesome performance.. not like u never see anthony wearring a kilt anywhere...

ever wondered where the idea of crutches stuck up in the ceiling ever came from...
answer : sudhirr's screwdriver stuck in the ceiling about 2 months ago..





what do you get when you cross nintendo's famous character with our very animated teacher mr. gregory?

answer : super gario..>

What do you get when you cross one of the most boring and philosophical math teachers with a slacker class like 210....

this>

what else could be more absurd than cows jumping over the moon?

answer: crutches found stuck in your class ceiling.. XD

i talked to daryus on msn today... and life in uwc seems much much more interesting and practical there. Their lit texts are interesting; they are doing lord of the flies and they also do drama where you do plays and now they do a sort of make up kind of thing where they give u different roles to play and daryus was given the role of a botanist; lol.. so he has a p.h.d in plant science. And they are also doing a play called blood brothers and the story line is quite interesting..

about a whore who has many children but now she's expecting twins and apparently she can only support one of them and so there's this other couple and they have been trying very hard to have children but they can't... so the whore decides to give one of em' to her but her husband doesn't know because he lives very far away... and apparently there are many superstition and one of em' being that if the twins ever meet they'd die or something... and so the twins are also total opposites so it's quite interesting and daryus is acting as one of the twins..

see; i wish sji was like this, where they actually give opportunities for students to excel in different areas... though they say sji gives an all round education i beg to differ.. their definition of all round education is simply ; sports,(IEP) that's only given 10 sessions for ur sec 1 and sec 2 year and you probably won't get a chance to pursue it in sji...,maybe the Josephian program but it's basically just being a pro in a certain subject; that's all! i dunno what's so great about it... and it's not like, if someone is inetersted in doing something like visual arts, he is given a chance, because you are supposed to have experience and already acquire the expertise for the given area.. irritating; especially when you're a primary school student who just studies and excel in academics but depend on secondary school life to give u an all round education..

an all round education can probably be defined as an education that provides different aspects of education in general.. like sports,academics,music.. but when u say sports it should mean something that is not very common that is not given as a cca like rock climbing, karate or maybe even wrestling and boxing... and when academics is concerned maybe soemthing like drama be more accessed and given equal importance, because i find the ability to act is an ability that should be respected with utmost prestige because acting; to simply put it ; is the ability to manipulate and eject false feelings but making it real... and who wouldn't want to be able to manipulate others by actually appearing happy but feeling totally dejected and dull on the inside? it's so much fun! and drama also gives exposure to many things like literature and appreciation of ancient writers and ability to infer; isn't that a life skill? to be able to infer how someone is feeling by looking at the slightest of responses? that's literatue...and so humanities is a vital component of our learning that'd probably help us in life... what kind of life skill do you get from math? and where music is concerned, i don't think sji is doing its job by just giving the opportunity for students to learn guitar which is like one out of how many instruments a simple student is sji could be good at or have hidden talent it.. i noe they have enrichment for music in sec 3 where u are given the opportunity to learn other instruments, but again, do you have the opportunity to pursue it IN SJI? I could be learning guitar in sji, but i apparently have hidden talent in playing the cello..but i wouldn't know if i have hidden talent in the cello if i don't actually do anything about it in sji if i depend solely on secondary school education to shape me to a talented youth...

in another way to conclude.. i wish sji was more practical!

amazingly the time i woke up today was 4 pm, due to the grotesque truth that i slept at 6 am in the morning, meaning that i slept for 10 hours, which is disgustingly unhealthy.

Leave health aside; the worst is probably the fact that i've not done my essay yet! All i've done is revise physics, and what's even worse to come is that i lacked initiative to get another copy of the chem paper because i lost mine, and now i have to face the music and will probably be "outstanding" on monday...
I am looking forward to chem on monday, because i can't seem to find my file! eek! but i've revised the textbook, but any chem student in sji would tell you that the paper for fye is going to be a herculean feat and is only going to prove how well you anticipate the paper to be... and if you anticipate it to be easy, you're the fool.
LIke what i always think, studying at home is very ineffective. Why? distractions like ; sister always finding something to argue about (:P), the annoying television that my wonderful mother likes to accumulate its volume,my other sister conversing with my mother about her probable marriage,the very concluding fact that i don't have sound proof walls in my room, the big distraction of a drum set staring at you while you study (taunting you to touch its voluptuously bronze cymbals),a mirror accentuating how small i am, and hence taunting me to do crunches or push ups. It's all in self control buddies... so my room is like a self control apparatus, and i think i fail in self control... not very badly but to a certain extent.. i don't succumb to everything but always something... like how i succumb to blogging instead of studying.


the temptations i am experiencing at this very moment of blog time:

1) the temptation to molest my drum set
2) the temptation of falling into push up position
3) the temptation to run out of this house and do a jog
4) the temptation of stoning with my mp3
5) the temptation to find an arguement with my sister (it's fun when you're bored):P

~KuMs!~

changed my skin again! well i got it from some werid site that had limited skins. But i found their skins simple yet really cool. I wanted another one, because i liked the background being grey but the header was a girl listening to music.. so it was too feminine...

so anyways, I just remembered what I've been wanting to reflect about; that being the choice of wanting to become a psl; peer support leader.I really don't mind because I already had that plan sketched in my mind when i was in sec 1 attending the orientation camp. My psls, being lee hoe,abel and leon were nice people.. i knew leon from primary school though, but leon was the one who accidentally flicked a coin into daryus' eye and so daryus had to go home and he couldn't attend the camp.. evil evil evil leon...call yourself a psl... :P.. jkng jkng... he didn't mean it, but omg, after that daryus' eye was just red on one side..

so i so want to be a psl, sigh..looking at all the new sec 1s...i'll most definitely feel nostalgic about how i was in sec 1.. sec 1 was a very fun year; the sji age of innocence. You really have an excuse to forget,disobey,screw up and basically just do anything wrong. Now that we're in sec 2, it's like getting into trouble for the most simple and mundane things; but it's discipline and i guess ms lim's punishment being very treacherous,annoying,unjust and inconvenient for the latter.. is a form of practice to prepare us for the future.. because like what raymond wong said... ms lim's style is.. "one for all".. because if one person does something wrong; that mainly and majority of the time being andrew, we all get punished... somehow or another we don't hate andrew for getting us in hot soup majority of the time because he's a comic that we all enjoy... but it's very unfair when someone who isn't the most comical or sociable person in class, gets us all in trouble and we just jeer along...

it;s a sad a fact, that in a class like ours, you have to be popular to be given a piece of mind. It's basically just how it's like anywhere, and it is pathetic because it's unfair to those who just don't have socialism in their veins... you either have it or you don't..and if you don't.. that's too bad, like they say..go with the flow

I still have not practiced my essay, and i'm going to do it in the afternoon, and i don't know if i should take an eye's rest now...

sleep as the art of james weldon johnson says.. is like a shortlived death.. which is a good thing, because you escape from the world's disasters and it's simply like a world with a closed pandora's box...

~KuMs~

ok..omg... i'm a freaking sleep head! i thought of having an evening nap at 6 but guess what? i woke up at 12!?!?! this is what i mean by no discipline.. sigh.. when will I learn.

I guess this means i didn't study that much and tomorrow i'm gonna "chiong!" i can't wait for two weeks to go by..because according to dillon his hair..after he cut it, looked proportionate after 2 weeks adn also for final year to start and end with a safe landing.. like they say, "god doesn't promise you a safe journey but a safe landing"

so for now i'm chilling around the com.. but I was looking at jerome dass and syafiq's performance for teacher's day and I felt theirs was the best that day... secondly being wonderwall and best i ever had by ruizhi,kevin,george and amos... firstly because jerome has probably the best voice in sji..and he's one of the few who has a good voice and alot of guts to perform.. coz there are many who can sing but don't have the guts and those who can sing,have the guts but just didn't perform on teachers' day ..like emu.. and syafiq and jerome pretty much clicked very well.. so kudos to you guys :D

and on and update i've been doing push ups 3 times a day and crutches 2 times a day..because i don't have dumbbells and my parents don't want me to buy em' because they think i shouldn't be building up yet.. but i seriously don't know why...because i am under puberty! meaning i am suppose to do it.. but i guess if she ever saw the other guys in my school then she'd understand... she'll finally understand why i am the 3rd shortest guy in class! wira was my height in pri 6..he grew i didn't.. according to sashi..he was my height in sec 1.. he grew i didn't! u see... this is what you get when you are an ex vegetarian and don't workout but just run run run and play hockey and be active that's all! and it also feels awkward to tell her that i want to go gym but i'll probably just say it's hockey fitness training.... and i also want to train my stamina..because i want to be able to be alert in the whole match and also my sprinting..coz my sprinting sucks.. but my stamina is ok.. not good.. but ok..

there's probably going to be a beep test sometime in december... i'm probably not going to do well..because i always somehow screw up in beep. i'll just pace someone then...

today was the finals for debate..and there was a dramatic irony proposed very obvious to the naked eye to the audience.. the proposition of the topic.. "there should be more physical education in schools"..202's second speaker shiv raj was talking about how physical education brings out undiscovered hidden talents in many.. but however, he was super fat and he should have used himself as an example... haha couldn't stop myself from laughing... "this is what you get when your school doesn't have enough physical education lessons " (points to himself)

no i don't hate fat people... u see i don't hate tobias i don't hate marcus lim... it's just that it gets annoying when there's only one seat left in a bus and its next to someone who takes up 1 and 3/4 seat... and sits on the outer part of the 2 seater... u know what i mean? but you can't blame them for sitting there other than the fact of blaming them for getting fat in the first place.. because if they stand up it's worse! i hate talking like this.. because whenever i say something bad about someone i can always see a lizard somewhere near... and my sis said .. the lizard is a messenger to the lord shiva... and so it's kind of a way of karma... so i don't want bad karma... plus i hate lizards.. they stare at you with their ugly and icky black eyes with the freaking ugly skin... i hate animals that can detach their body parts.. freaky.. and is it true that a cockroach can detach its head from its body and put it back again???? coz i;ve never seen one and don't intend to see one...

quote from the legendary self acclaimed philosopher cum kabal player... "jerry, you should try being humble"... i hope the word "self acclaimed" strikes to you that an arrogant ass hole is telling jerry to be humble.. yes.. it's the math teacher...

omg.. i just realised how long my hair takes to grow when i cut it like this last time.. it tooke me ages! i think more than a month.. to grow to my favoured length.. but heck i don't expect that kind of hair in such a time.. i just want to escape from this league of high top short front...

i'm going to attempt to access imeem to change my playlist.. but i hope it doesnt lag.... like it always does. :P

still havn't figured out what to do after exams... i need to do something other than work our and jam... oh yea! motley crue coming to singapore 16 october..after exams! xD! and i hope ribbon can get tix... if he can't its ok.. i don't mind not going.. but dude... a hair metal concert! the atmosphere will be kick ass man!

~kum~
signing off at 01 22

TEAR

i went changed my bag today because the colour was fading and it stained a bit of my uniform.. so i used my bro's heinken crumpler. Except for the label being a spoiler the crumpler was comfortable and looked good. However, it only carried a limited amount of books.. so it looked bulky.

Today I was, like how i was this whole week.. determined to grasp as much as possible during lessons and take down notes like a mad typewriter... as always for physics, it was impossible to catch up with mr ng's speed, because he can't teach that well... mine me but all i'm saying is that he isn't that experienced yet, like he doesn't know how to explain something until the student really gets it and he actually thinks most of us are going to go back and understand his outrageously vague slides which don't accentuate on anything that is going to be out on the paper.. coz all he wrote were general formulas... and what we need to take down is what he writes on the board but he just doesn't care or maybe he doesn't know..

we had physic remedial today and i found the first half useless..because we were just going through a basic electric current question.. not the very complex one you get in exams. At least the second half, when we were revising sec 1 topics and we did energy... i learnt something... i learnt that after finding the initial gravitational potential energy your kinetic energy of the same object at a diff height has to be subtracted by the GPE of the object at that given height.. and all this while i though energy cannot be destroyed or created... but i guess i misunderstood the conversion part... because logically there would be lesser GPE at a diff point and kinetic energy at diff height very.. like at 12 m when the ball is right at the peak... the kinetic energy is 0... and when the ball is 0 m.. the kinetic energy is a hell load...

so physics is going well on the understanding scale but not the applying yet... geography is still alot to memorise..mainly human geography and today's math test was cakewalk for me except one question.. but i hope i didn't make any careless mistakes which i always do..

i'm pretty unsure if i could ace english again.. because it wasn't easy to ace it and isn't easy.. so far i've aced last years fye.. this year term 1 and term 3.. term 2 alot of ppl screwed up and i dropped from 71 to 64 ..and finally back to 71 again now.. i hope the cycle doesnt repeat.. so i'm mainly plotting to win my way by excelling in the essay... but i'm kind of worried.. expository is a no no for me..definitley but if i want to do narrative i havn't practiced! eeek!!!!!

today is going to be quite relaxed for me... im gonna practice an essay, revise julius caesar quotes because i have to get back to acing lit ever since last terms 68..after the term before's 76... 2 marks drop is like..8 percent! can't risk it.. depending alot on my pbq and poem if i screw up essay with a meagre 16/25 .. coz that's what i would get if i don't quote but get my structure in order... and pbq i need 18 or 19.. and poem at least 17...

our hey jude performance is up..check it out...



~KuM!~

ok, to really conclude my day I have to say that chindians are the strangest and most daring people I have met before! look at dillon, today for an example... alexis,jeter and i went serene and then there were these acjc guys sitting next to us but we were outside mac and they were at the window and then dillon was saying hi and they also replied... and then that guy took out an sji notepad from his bag and then dillon was like..oh yeah? and he took out his p.e shirt..haha. And he was asking him weird questions by writing his questions on a piece of paper and flashing it on the window like as if they were two separated lovers trying to communicate through a weird hole or something... and he askde him what was his cca to get dsa to acjc and the acjc guy took his pen and gave a weird wanking action..and dillon wrote, "wanking or rope climbing" and he mouthed the word wanking... but what kind of weird guy would pounce on introducing himself to someone he completely has no idea of? answer..dillon!

and he has this weird sense of craziness but also requires a loads of guts.. like how random he gets when he's bored... running like a madman competing with the train even though he already missed it.. and people enjoy this by filming it..and we have even compiled an anthology by the name of the dillon chronicles... his encounter with ribbon was the best.. he looked fine and all but then when he came back... (we were at orchard road) he had oreo ice blended poured all over his uniform and akhi was filming this from far and it looked so funny...

anyway..i;m gonna mug soon.. fye man! can't wait for it to end..but i hope..a safe landing. I am going to finish all my math worksheets maybe at least half of em today...try finishing all of trigonometry and half of mensuration at least.

i look so damn small without my proper hair and i look weird...i guess the hair just gives me a sense of security in a way but with such short hair i feel insecure for no particular reason...it's so disproportionate.

i've got myxamatosias.

omg music seriously has some serious issues. Britney spears 3 awards? anyway i am not surprised because everyone more or less sucks now in the commercialized music industry.

e.g:
jonas brothers
click 5
britney spears
jason mraz

and all the other emo shit bands like aidan and stuff...

sigh... so far the best album out now is radiohead's "best of". And its funny coz the cover looks alot like pink floyd's "wish you were here" two peeps shaking hands... but in radiohead's best of, it's two stick men.

I've always wondered what kind of guys do girls our age look forward to? do they just look out for how brawn you are or just whether you look good? if the girl is like 150 cm short, does she expect a 1 65 or 175 cm tall bf or someone maybe just abover her liike 153 or 155 ? height and brawn is an issue for me. I really regret being vegetarian for 3 years, and the 3 years being the most critical point of maturing physically. Sigh, now i'm shoving meat up my throat like a wolf. I am watching what I eat and making sure it's not just fats but proteins and most importantly i need calcium! i need to shoot up...

I am using new deodorant nowadays.. dove woo! haha and the smell has been quite obvious and ahmad being the one who noticed it. It smells good and lasts long. From the start of school until end it was still lingering, despite the fact that i had p.e playing "hantam bolah". "hantam bloah" is not my game because i'm not very accurate but no one really bothered to hit me, because I was always hiding and i wasn't really interested. Damn, I wanna play hockey! missing it so much... but temptations can wait... fye first

met dale today again.. he's in hwa chong now and omg hwa chong people are just weird. Like, after seeing someone after 2 years would you go around discussing about how much smarter hwa chong is than sji? i don't really care neither do I want to know... and after that i didn't really bother asking him stuff about his life, because I expected a smart ass answer, and i was in no mood... but at least I don't screw other people's days by showing my disdain and disapproval of the day's happenings...

it suck when people do that... "i had a bad day..fuck off" kind of attitude. If it's bad for you don't make it worse for the other person... it's just plain selfish and obnoxious... nevertheless a smile really helps brighten up someone's day, no matter who you are.. unless you're a stalker or a paedophile smiling over lusty pleasures.

on the side note, mr ng has told us another joke... and regi and zhe yuan were laughing even before he finished the joke coz of their accurate and most feasible anticipation of how lame his joke would turn out to be... mr ng, just be your frking self or we'll spray baygon on you! i swear!

~kums~

TO BE STRONG AND FREE FROM MY DEPENDENCY IT'S WARPING ME!

im posting again? i'm really have no life -.- i was downloading loads of songs and these are what i downloaded..

radiohead:
high and dry
the gloaming
true love waits
sit down, stand up
pyramid song
optimist
no surprises
Myxomatosis (my new craze)
idioteque (don't they have the kinkiest sounding song names?)

Red hot chili peppers :
get in top
warped

and i dwnled yellow also, coz i like the tune of it.. don't get that wrong.. no i still don't like coldplay, the old stuff was good but omg..viva la vida? it's like going nowhere... what has coldplay become?

i was looking for Murderers by John frusciante (guitarist of rhcp) after dillon showed me the song... the song has that frusciante feel more typical like in under the bridge,scar tissue, ramones cover of havana affair. But instead they have weird files.. there was one when i was downloading it the title changed to Gather - what you're thankful for.. sounds like a sweet church song or hymn but instead what i heard was a repetitive heavy metal riff screwing the distortion and a girl screaming at the top of her lungs the kind of scream until your throat gets dry... sounded horrible but i;ve heard of this girl metal in germany from headbanger... but seriously i hate it.... it sucks balls! the guitar is alright... but the voice is like "SLIPKNOT!" ewwwwwwwww! but why did they have to screw it up for me when i was looking for a sweet song like murderers by frusciante...why??? i am really really bored..waiting for 1 30 am coz class starts then...

i dun want to go school tmrw.. maybe coz i didnt renew my passport because i went there like a fool today and i was looking around in the ICA bulding and i was the only asshole who was wearing uniform.. then i thought ah heck just get the fucking job done.. so i went to customer service and asked where it was to renew passports and she was like.. are you here alone and i'm like yes... no parents nothing? and i;m like yes.. the website said i could come alone but just bring my passport and birth cert and she was like... no the site says otherwise so just ask ur mom or someone to come along and just bring ur passport and birth cert but u don;t have to come... i was like..cheebai! i ditched wen han coz of this? i wasted 50 cents from my ez link for this.. to come out of lavendar pop my head out and go back to bedok...FUCK!

sigh 16 minutes more to class...

i have been feeling damn bored and restless fro the past 2 weeks... i need someone to love.. but who will love me with that ugly hairstyle of mine... random more please... yes i am despo ..very despo i need to love someone but no one to love coz i dont know anyone to love coz im in a pathetic boys school and i've always been in a pathetic boys school all my life... i think my mom is just afraid i get divert my attention somewhere else from where i should be focusing my attention on... but honestly isn't the fact that your son may be homosexual even scarier than the fact that your son ends up a Casanova and elopes with 3 wives to some godforsaken land in Kathmandu? I don;t get parents.. when i become a parent i am so going to put my son or daughter in a mix school... love, my children! love! just don;t have underage sex...

i stil can't forget the times when i was in primary school and i looked at some sec 1s and 2s who came from st pats to visit st stepehens and they are like wah i hate my parents man they don;t understand me and i;m like i am never gonna feel that my parents always understand me and I always am in the right... well after primary school, i have gotten very much rebellious both on teachers and my mother... like my mother does not understand the need for a teenager to socialise with his friends and get to know others by going out... or they don't understand privacy or whatsoever... but I understand them why they do this for us, but I still have to always give the expression like ," fine, i'll go to my room emoing...." but i never mean it..

isn't it better to let your child go out rather than he do it behind your back? I am a 100 percent sure my brothers have done that worse than i have..i am affirmative and my sisters definitley..oh my younger sis is a damn lousy liar i can tell when she's lying so damn easily.. she'll always gaze to the left and her mouth would sitll be open and my mom would be like where di you go.. and they'll be like.. "remedial lah where else" she'll leave her mouth open and stare to the left..always... sorry sis.. been there done that never works... my mom probably knows haha... but i don't think my way of lying is that bad, because i'm so used to it xD

rhetorically, do they know? no i dont think so... my mom is quite the innocent type and that's why even in her office she is getting used. She;s a tough worker but not the brainy type. no idea about those cunning foxes around....

I really want to socialise and hang out with my parents knowing... I hate sneaking around, it;s the only reason why i keep this blog secret ..coz of my 4 other siblings probably nosing about what i;ve been doing and what i've been hiding...

class gonna start in 3 mins...

~kums~

I am seriously hating my hair... now my hair can;t get messed up, seems like a good thing but it's not! i prefer messy hair. So why bring out the topic of hair at 23 20? i am taking fye seriously! omg... first time man! this time I think since i am studying the stuff more or less hard... i just hope to pass math coz i always have a problem with it! if i ever end up in university or anything i do not want a subject with math. DEFINITELY! it's seriously a white elephant. I mean the basic shit is useful but why the fuck make life so complicated when it is so simple? math only stresses oneself.. in my books.

so i was studying literature and I am so goddamn thankful that we are doing julius caesar and not some other shakepeare piece, coz it's much much easier to memorise the quotes "i am as constant as the northern star of whose true fixed and resting quality there is no fellow firmament" during the assassination chapter but when metellus cimber is using his "hopeless" flattering skills to flatter caesar into freeing his banished brother publius cimber... but seriously brutus is dumb... how can you not know that cassius and pals are butchers instead of part of the "sacrifice" for rome cause... firstly, each of them already have a reason for hating caesar. e.g cassius jealous of him and it is even explained when he talks to brutus during the "crowning" of caesar about times when caesar had a fit and blah blah blah.. snd also the fact that meteellus has a grudge against him for banishing his brother.. and it's also funny how julius caesaer in a way is very similar to animal farm.. coz they just dont work out... the fact that they kill caesar coz he is not good for rome due to his arrogance and stuff.. and then it is hinted alot especially between the arguement with cassius how brutus' lines are getting alot similar to caesar..

in a way it reflects life as to how we hate someone because he's an arrogant ass but actually if u try being in his shoes you;d have to be arrogant unless you are mr kooh...-.-.. but the morale that i've really tried to stick up to is the fact that when 2 ppl hate each other its coz they both hate a certain similarity between them.. that they are actually hating themselves.. its not very certain for all cases but in alot of cases of mine..

disguise

mask me Halloween and lighten ye task
even may night fall shall ye masks,
glow like night lamps to the last
light ye' heart with a mask of me
and then the droogs find part of thee
ye' hidden noble regard in three
there you go with a mask on you
forever gone in eternity's dew

a POEM i just made randomly.. intended to refer how trying to be someone you are not brings you to a diff path for your whole life and what you've already achieved is just gone...

~kums~

came back from haircut.. frking sucks... I kindly asked the barber to do a slop at my back, and just trim the top,sides and front. However, the barber had to be so artistically inclined and bored that he had to cut more than I asked for. Why do these barbers do such "extra" shit... don't understand, I'm still paying him the same amount at the end of the day. Furthermore, he was smoking while cutting my hair and you know how i hate people smoking in front of me, despite the fact that my dad used to smoke in front of us when he was around or when we visited him. Sign of being inconsiderate and freaking selfish... i don't want to get lung cancer because of patronising your barber... and he kept coughing at my face... disgusting visit to the barber

result : unsatisfied but i am always unsatisfied when it comes to cutting my hair short... i never hate the fact of cutting my hair. Yes I am vain!

so far today, only studied chem all the way up till atomic structure... but i'm not sure what's the last topic.. i'm done with acids,bases and alkalis and salts all the salt making method with all that adding excess insoluble stuff and titration stuff and all.. and a bit opf physics..

~kum~

silence is the queen of desperation

i was bored after studying a bit for finals.... so decided to make a list of songs most appropriate at the appropriate times...

in a car - 1979 by the smashing pumpkins

before a hockey game - bulls on parade by rage against the machine/immigrant song by led zeppelin

beating the monkey(no i do not practice this) - light my fire by the doors (the keyboard solos are fucking psyched man!)/can't stop by rhcp/warped by rhcp/

sleeping - airbag by radiohead

getting ready for school/preparing breakfast - kid a by radiohead

stalking - Foxey lady by jimi hendrix

studying - the whole "hail to the thief" album by radiohead

after losing a game - hey jude by the beatles

thinking about someone you love who is distant from you - to sheila by the smashing pumpkins

psychedelic - lucifer sam by pink floyd, smoke on water by deep purple, we suck young blood by radiohead

thinking of a lost one - tearjerker by rhcp, say hello to heaven

motivation - come as you are by nirvana, we can work it out by the beatles

philosophical - time by pink floyd, revolution by the beatles/fake plastic tree by radiohead

revenge - back in black by ac/dc

emoing - no quarter by led zeppelin

politics - paranoid android by radiohead, fuck tha police by rage against the machine

song that i am digging the most now - anyone can play guitar by radiohead!

today was screwed up. When i was walking up the overhead bridge near school today... i became nostalgic about the time when i used to be living in my grandmom's place when i was 9, (2003) and there was this time when my younger sis was walking up the stairs of the bridge and it was raining a bit.. and she slipped and her head slightly hit the stairs and her eyes just went back... never could i fathom the fact that she was actually at the brink of death and was on the verge of leaving this world.. i was too young to realise death could pass by so fast at such pace.. that it thought she was just pulling our leg.. thankfully my elder sis was around and was crying for help.. and i mean..literally crying... never really experienced someone dying in front of you and you are too young, dumb and innocent to know what to do... i literally stood stoned like a statue with my eyes never blinking and just looking at my younger sis lying there with her eyes rolled backwards and her soul almost ready to leave this world... then out of the blue her eyes rolled back to normal and she was back... but it all happened so fast.. i literally couldn't digest the fact that someone i know was about to die.. i mean really such a thing happening in front of you when you are so young, innocent and dumb? i can't believe that I was actually able to go to school normally after that incident, coz if that were to happen now, i would be so shocked and taken aback i would probably just go back home and really reflect on it and just digest the fact that someone near me almost died in front of my eyes and just in a snap*.... it's scary how one's life can end like that..

but then i realised... that if i were in my sister's shoes i wouldn't have felt that bad either... coz honestly would you rather miss someone or be missed....

so on to they day... today was ok.. physics, yet another stupid lame joke by mr ng... honestly where did he get his stuff from? he probably has this.. "how to make your students pay attention during lessons" kind of handbook and step 1 is like... brighten the atmosphere of your class by loosening their mind by telling a joke! and he probably got his jokes from a "jokes for 6 year olds" handbook.. physics.. is getting in my head, but the common test paper he gave us looks kind of confusing....

geography was fruitful today.. studied about pollution and learnt the details of how stuff contribute to land,water and air pollution and surprisingly noise pollution! lol... qin han and all were like.. noise pollution is rock and roll adn heavy metal.. kids...-.- (kidding...) but the words of ac/dc are as follows, "rock and roll ain't noise pollution"... so greg was talking about how previously there were these weird planes that were like sonic speed and stuff and made a hell lotta noise and also wind turbine engines... and apparently singapore puts its garbage to good use.. unlike philippines where they have the "smokey hills" all piled up with rubbish because they don't have enough money to actually use it as landfill and use it to reclaim land... and they can't really incinerate it coz they can't afford it.. coz at least singapore cleans up the gasses when incinerated before it's released to the air.. and all these smokey hills contain loads of viruses and all coz of decomposition..and some try making a living by selling the scrap they grab from there..and that's how it passes on..yes the ugly truth..

and com studs.. was killer man! stupid visual basics test.. i was shocked that i was actually able to even do it.. after more than a term of not learnign visual basics programming. We had to do a security check system that would open up our banking account where we can withdraw and deposit money in as and when we want.. i think first form of the security check... i left out one part which was something like

if (textbox1.text) = "" and textbox2.text = <> then label3.text = "rejected user" something like that or was it another one.. i noe i left out one set.. and second one was shockingly easy but fro some they didn't know which formula to use.. i used something like

label3.text = str(int(label3.text)) + str(int(textbox1.text))

that was for deposit and withdrawal is the same but with minus... but i think i might fail because i didn't link it and so did alot of people...haha

mother tongue was a bitch... hahaha can u believe no one did tamil homework again! lit remedial was cancelled today although i think i need it... nvm i have dillon's julius caesar which I shall make full use of... coz i lost mine... were the hell did mine go to????

so we were playing paralympics with dylan soo's crutches haha..had steeple chase,pole vault,fencing!?!?!,long jump,hundred meter crutch dash! then omg..can u believe what mr marcus koh did??? wira was like.. tmrw watching hentai ah?? and he pointed middle finger! wtf??? a teacher? haha i won't be surprised if he gets sacked. he's a sicko anyway ... then there was this crazy girl that was staring at our side (me wira,wen han) more or less on wira lol! but she was damn scary... sitting with no one and turns to our direction and smiles and giggles..eerie ain't it? i'm gonna start signing off nowadays.. should i sign off as ~kumarr~ or ~Kums~
today i'll go with ~Kums~ sounds erotic yet like some cheapskate pirated chewing gumbrand...

~kums~