something in the way - Nirvana

there are lots o things in the way...teacher;s day performance..exams...hockey...class com shit.. (ms lim states tt she is disappointed in me...gg on monday... coz im not doing what a seceratary does..) yeah..well i can accept tt..but i have my reasons..i dont want to be class com anymore..i mean i have no offence with ms lim..in fact she helps me ALOT... but sometimes...she's either illogical or in a way unaware of how some one feels in a certain situation if he asked something at a certain time.. like asking me about class stuff during my exam papers..so far tghe papers she screwed me up for..are the 3 hardest subjects there are tt i take this term.. math..geog and bio...

and like she's illogical coz sometimes.... she just asks for details that don;t really matter... and also she's a bit too sensitive..i understand tt women are generally sensitive and even men are.. rather boys..im very sensitive but in a way that doesnt affec others.. but the way ms lim is being sensitive is just too harmful to those working around her... well maybe just her students.. she keeps telling the class com..that we are lousy and all coz we cant control the class... but hey... look at the other classes..they quieter than us? maybe..but coz their teacher is there always earlier than ms lim is.... we got proof coaz we have tried going around the level pereviously... come on.. we are boys...who have ccas...who have social connections..who do this and that everyday..like every human being but we are boys...boys talk..its not just a stereotype tt girls talk more than guys..they giggle and chat mroe..coz they are open minded and sensitive..guys are different..we like to socialise..although not so open minded...we still are human beings and have feelings..that we are young..have friends..and majority not the matrue type who know that its disrespect to do ceratin things in certain times.. but ms lim..doesn't seem to understand that

don't get me wrong.. i am not putting ms lim in a negative light..but im just pointing out what is in my ponmt of view...she has helped me and is helping me in diff ways.. i feel guilty coz this is not the way i repay her... but hey... im a boy...im growing mentally.... there's a feminine side in every male..unless you are someone who can't udnerstand human nature and think things too logically and not out of the box..the way math does.. i am open minded and i like ebing open minded coz..even ms lim taught me that self analysis is good to understand what's right and wrong..and that if you ask yoursefl why...like why am i feeling this way..why do i hate alan johnson? or why do i feel what appears to her rebellious..when what in my point of view is prioratising what is more important and what is less important...

highlights..

bio was ok... but have a bad feeling bout' it.... went to adam road to do food review..left drum stuff at josh's house before tt.. then went there to eat... and basically do food review with my group..joavan,sudhirr and wen han...

then... went back to josh house..dillon had to go back for trng..but i satyed at josh's house playing pool..fuck playing first time ok.. and i lost to him all the time..but hey.. it was nly left one ball and one ball... and omg..i was so unlucky..the last part lose the eight ball..then he go get both eight ball and his stripe...fuck...nvm...then josh rocks...his mom heloped send us to school with drums tuff.. hass came late..started the rehearsal/audition and it sucked..

i noe like my first few attempts on brushes were not good enough coz it wasnt loud... so i changd to sticks..it sounded good according to alan johnson..but timing between vocals dillon and i..were off..i agree..coz its first time i using sticks for hey jude...and now alan johnson letyting me use bass drum...so yipee... we hope if we can pull of hey jude..try doing soul to squeeze by rhcp..coz wish you were here..although one of my fav songs..and is a classsic which many teachers would like... i dont thinks students will like 2 old songs..so kick it up a notch and use elct..for soul to suqeeze..but hey i need a whole set! like good old times..did again at the piano.which we always play better at..and i did back up vocals..ruizhi helped and so did hass...lol damn funny..janet kwok..alvin chua and mr johnson all upstairs looking at us and talking botu our playing.. janet kowk said it was good but needed more feeling..

fuck..im so fucking emo...

play like shit
physically unfit
studies suck cock
words from janet kwok

its a bad rhyme..yea i noe..just felt like doing tt..coz tt was exactly why i was feeling emo... so we got new ideas.. like make it a kind of duet or someting... like hass says hey jude..dont make it bad take a sad song and make it better..and josh comes and goes.. remember to let her into your heart...(they sing together) then you can start to make it better..) and i do backup.. and my drumming adding bit new pieces in it... but fuck we play a whole lot better at the piano!

well i shall go listen to something in the way again...and listen to talk show host and exit music by radiohead.. fuck they are the best altern songs to feel; sad with!

but u gotta like exit music..the kind of atmosphere thom brings to it..he's like so depserate for her to live.. breathE! breathe!