Fake plastic trees - radiohead (the bends get it now! fucking good album!)

A green plastic watering can
For a fake Chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself
It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out
She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins
and it wears him out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears him out
She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
And it wears me out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out
And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time


just came back from school... and life is getting boring.. noe excitement, no thrill, no nothing! no time for chao bu hunting..xD ... no time for anything really, now that exams are just a few weeks away.. i feel so ashamed and embarrassed of myself for not really doing the best i can for studying for the exams... parents put in so much money for me to study and here i am... wasting my time blogging... why?
because i guess it's not in my family blood to actually study..haha... really, look.. at my brothers.. one of em didn't further secondary school because he was interested in f & B... the other brother went to la salle college of the arts.. was doing well with art and then had to drop out coz fees was too high and he was not the mugging type so he didnt want to go to any JC or whatsoever... my elder sis... went poly... messed up a bit... and went on to run a modelling agency.. weird ain't it? how hard and tirelessly they claim to toil for me and my younger sis, but actually they aren't any different from me... but i guess my younger sis and I are probably lucky to actually learn from them... but actually think about it.. the future generation is going to be a hard one for us, singaporeans.. with all these foreigners being so fucking smart in everything except for english.. they could snap any job from us local workers... my mom, sis and bros are all safe.. me and my sis are dead... better get top 10 in our classes and at least start from there!

seems easier said that done.. but hey not like I really want to do anything intellectual in my future... i'm interested in criminal psychology.. need triple science i guess.. but fet hope! look at the rate of my science this year! if last year then not that bad..coz i got straight a's last year but got 73 for overall science.. now..! omg.. don't make me weep saying how many C's i got...

so really, i have an alternative for what i want to do in future.... a musician? maybe... but i am so not going to work towards that now.. i am FAR from it... i'd rather wait and see what fate decides for me.. but really is there fate? i'm starting to feel pretty atheist... god is there somewhere.. i don't believe he has a snake around his neck, whether he was nailed onto some wood, or whether he has no form.. he/she is probably there... in all different forms.. catering to what foolish believes we humans have made out of holiness! it;s like what kevin nunis said about hockey.. "hockey is a simple game made difficult by people.." similarly, "religion is a simple thing made complex by humans" ...


sigh... really this time ..there's no meaning stoning somewhere in some fast food place.. waiting for the hot girl to come by... it's hopeless, ridiculous, desperate, useless and waste of time... study oh black and short ~kumarr~! study!!!!!

i'm going to cut my hair later... after a whole term and one week holiday of not cutting it... i don't like the idea of.. and i'm basically doing it coz ms lim asked me to do it.. if not i'll be stew tomorrow... hate getting my hair cut... always lok weird.. and the barber nearby cuts more than how much i want to be cut!

so after fye plans.. are underway.. but shdnt think too far ahead... i want to learn something new... i am going to jam alot... involve thy drumming! and err... hockey is definite... (wah heck eh.. hate PT! i hope all the training are at delta..most to most is running steps.. which im not that afraid of doing) I am going to mug abit too...im thinking..what should i learn??? a sport? language? instrument? (nah i dont want instrument...) maybe i should just go to the gym more often..seriously... my arms look like TULANG! then sec 3.. better get some stuff on the arms.. if not i go NS.. GG....