I am seriously hating my hair... now my hair can;t get messed up, seems like a good thing but it's not! i prefer messy hair. So why bring out the topic of hair at 23 20? i am taking fye seriously! omg... first time man! this time I think since i am studying the stuff more or less hard... i just hope to pass math coz i always have a problem with it! if i ever end up in university or anything i do not want a subject with math. DEFINITELY! it's seriously a white elephant. I mean the basic shit is useful but why the fuck make life so complicated when it is so simple? math only stresses oneself.. in my books.

so i was studying literature and I am so goddamn thankful that we are doing julius caesar and not some other shakepeare piece, coz it's much much easier to memorise the quotes "i am as constant as the northern star of whose true fixed and resting quality there is no fellow firmament" during the assassination chapter but when metellus cimber is using his "hopeless" flattering skills to flatter caesar into freeing his banished brother publius cimber... but seriously brutus is dumb... how can you not know that cassius and pals are butchers instead of part of the "sacrifice" for rome cause... firstly, each of them already have a reason for hating caesar. e.g cassius jealous of him and it is even explained when he talks to brutus during the "crowning" of caesar about times when caesar had a fit and blah blah blah.. snd also the fact that meteellus has a grudge against him for banishing his brother.. and it's also funny how julius caesaer in a way is very similar to animal farm.. coz they just dont work out... the fact that they kill caesar coz he is not good for rome due to his arrogance and stuff.. and then it is hinted alot especially between the arguement with cassius how brutus' lines are getting alot similar to caesar..

in a way it reflects life as to how we hate someone because he's an arrogant ass but actually if u try being in his shoes you;d have to be arrogant unless you are mr kooh...-.-.. but the morale that i've really tried to stick up to is the fact that when 2 ppl hate each other its coz they both hate a certain similarity between them.. that they are actually hating themselves.. its not very certain for all cases but in alot of cases of mine..

disguise

mask me Halloween and lighten ye task
even may night fall shall ye masks,
glow like night lamps to the last
light ye' heart with a mask of me
and then the droogs find part of thee
ye' hidden noble regard in three
there you go with a mask on you
forever gone in eternity's dew

a POEM i just made randomly.. intended to refer how trying to be someone you are not brings you to a diff path for your whole life and what you've already achieved is just gone...

~kums~