silence is the queen of desperation

i was bored after studying a bit for finals.... so decided to make a list of songs most appropriate at the appropriate times...

in a car - 1979 by the smashing pumpkins

before a hockey game - bulls on parade by rage against the machine/immigrant song by led zeppelin

beating the monkey(no i do not practice this) - light my fire by the doors (the keyboard solos are fucking psyched man!)/can't stop by rhcp/warped by rhcp/

sleeping - airbag by radiohead

getting ready for school/preparing breakfast - kid a by radiohead

stalking - Foxey lady by jimi hendrix

studying - the whole "hail to the thief" album by radiohead

after losing a game - hey jude by the beatles

thinking about someone you love who is distant from you - to sheila by the smashing pumpkins

psychedelic - lucifer sam by pink floyd, smoke on water by deep purple, we suck young blood by radiohead

thinking of a lost one - tearjerker by rhcp, say hello to heaven

motivation - come as you are by nirvana, we can work it out by the beatles

philosophical - time by pink floyd, revolution by the beatles/fake plastic tree by radiohead

revenge - back in black by ac/dc

emoing - no quarter by led zeppelin

politics - paranoid android by radiohead, fuck tha police by rage against the machine

song that i am digging the most now - anyone can play guitar by radiohead!

today was screwed up. When i was walking up the overhead bridge near school today... i became nostalgic about the time when i used to be living in my grandmom's place when i was 9, (2003) and there was this time when my younger sis was walking up the stairs of the bridge and it was raining a bit.. and she slipped and her head slightly hit the stairs and her eyes just went back... never could i fathom the fact that she was actually at the brink of death and was on the verge of leaving this world.. i was too young to realise death could pass by so fast at such pace.. that it thought she was just pulling our leg.. thankfully my elder sis was around and was crying for help.. and i mean..literally crying... never really experienced someone dying in front of you and you are too young, dumb and innocent to know what to do... i literally stood stoned like a statue with my eyes never blinking and just looking at my younger sis lying there with her eyes rolled backwards and her soul almost ready to leave this world... then out of the blue her eyes rolled back to normal and she was back... but it all happened so fast.. i literally couldn't digest the fact that someone i know was about to die.. i mean really such a thing happening in front of you when you are so young, innocent and dumb? i can't believe that I was actually able to go to school normally after that incident, coz if that were to happen now, i would be so shocked and taken aback i would probably just go back home and really reflect on it and just digest the fact that someone near me almost died in front of my eyes and just in a snap*.... it's scary how one's life can end like that..

but then i realised... that if i were in my sister's shoes i wouldn't have felt that bad either... coz honestly would you rather miss someone or be missed....

so on to they day... today was ok.. physics, yet another stupid lame joke by mr ng... honestly where did he get his stuff from? he probably has this.. "how to make your students pay attention during lessons" kind of handbook and step 1 is like... brighten the atmosphere of your class by loosening their mind by telling a joke! and he probably got his jokes from a "jokes for 6 year olds" handbook.. physics.. is getting in my head, but the common test paper he gave us looks kind of confusing....

geography was fruitful today.. studied about pollution and learnt the details of how stuff contribute to land,water and air pollution and surprisingly noise pollution! lol... qin han and all were like.. noise pollution is rock and roll adn heavy metal.. kids...-.- (kidding...) but the words of ac/dc are as follows, "rock and roll ain't noise pollution"... so greg was talking about how previously there were these weird planes that were like sonic speed and stuff and made a hell lotta noise and also wind turbine engines... and apparently singapore puts its garbage to good use.. unlike philippines where they have the "smokey hills" all piled up with rubbish because they don't have enough money to actually use it as landfill and use it to reclaim land... and they can't really incinerate it coz they can't afford it.. coz at least singapore cleans up the gasses when incinerated before it's released to the air.. and all these smokey hills contain loads of viruses and all coz of decomposition..and some try making a living by selling the scrap they grab from there..and that's how it passes on..yes the ugly truth..

and com studs.. was killer man! stupid visual basics test.. i was shocked that i was actually able to even do it.. after more than a term of not learnign visual basics programming. We had to do a security check system that would open up our banking account where we can withdraw and deposit money in as and when we want.. i think first form of the security check... i left out one part which was something like

if (textbox1.text) = "" and textbox2.text = <> then label3.text = "rejected user" something like that or was it another one.. i noe i left out one set.. and second one was shockingly easy but fro some they didn't know which formula to use.. i used something like

label3.text = str(int(label3.text)) + str(int(textbox1.text))

that was for deposit and withdrawal is the same but with minus... but i think i might fail because i didn't link it and so did alot of people...haha

mother tongue was a bitch... hahaha can u believe no one did tamil homework again! lit remedial was cancelled today although i think i need it... nvm i have dillon's julius caesar which I shall make full use of... coz i lost mine... were the hell did mine go to????

so we were playing paralympics with dylan soo's crutches haha..had steeple chase,pole vault,fencing!?!?!,long jump,hundred meter crutch dash! then omg..can u believe what mr marcus koh did??? wira was like.. tmrw watching hentai ah?? and he pointed middle finger! wtf??? a teacher? haha i won't be surprised if he gets sacked. he's a sicko anyway ... then there was this crazy girl that was staring at our side (me wira,wen han) more or less on wira lol! but she was damn scary... sitting with no one and turns to our direction and smiles and giggles..eerie ain't it? i'm gonna start signing off nowadays.. should i sign off as ~kumarr~ or ~Kums~
today i'll go with ~Kums~ sounds erotic yet like some cheapskate pirated chewing gumbrand...

~kums~