TO BE STRONG AND FREE FROM MY DEPENDENCY IT'S WARPING ME!

im posting again? i'm really have no life -.- i was downloading loads of songs and these are what i downloaded..

radiohead:
high and dry
the gloaming
true love waits
sit down, stand up
pyramid song
optimist
no surprises
Myxomatosis (my new craze)
idioteque (don't they have the kinkiest sounding song names?)

Red hot chili peppers :
get in top
warped

and i dwnled yellow also, coz i like the tune of it.. don't get that wrong.. no i still don't like coldplay, the old stuff was good but omg..viva la vida? it's like going nowhere... what has coldplay become?

i was looking for Murderers by John frusciante (guitarist of rhcp) after dillon showed me the song... the song has that frusciante feel more typical like in under the bridge,scar tissue, ramones cover of havana affair. But instead they have weird files.. there was one when i was downloading it the title changed to Gather - what you're thankful for.. sounds like a sweet church song or hymn but instead what i heard was a repetitive heavy metal riff screwing the distortion and a girl screaming at the top of her lungs the kind of scream until your throat gets dry... sounded horrible but i;ve heard of this girl metal in germany from headbanger... but seriously i hate it.... it sucks balls! the guitar is alright... but the voice is like "SLIPKNOT!" ewwwwwwwww! but why did they have to screw it up for me when i was looking for a sweet song like murderers by frusciante...why??? i am really really bored..waiting for 1 30 am coz class starts then...

i dun want to go school tmrw.. maybe coz i didnt renew my passport because i went there like a fool today and i was looking around in the ICA bulding and i was the only asshole who was wearing uniform.. then i thought ah heck just get the fucking job done.. so i went to customer service and asked where it was to renew passports and she was like.. are you here alone and i'm like yes... no parents nothing? and i;m like yes.. the website said i could come alone but just bring my passport and birth cert and she was like... no the site says otherwise so just ask ur mom or someone to come along and just bring ur passport and birth cert but u don;t have to come... i was like..cheebai! i ditched wen han coz of this? i wasted 50 cents from my ez link for this.. to come out of lavendar pop my head out and go back to bedok...FUCK!

sigh 16 minutes more to class...

i have been feeling damn bored and restless fro the past 2 weeks... i need someone to love.. but who will love me with that ugly hairstyle of mine... random more please... yes i am despo ..very despo i need to love someone but no one to love coz i dont know anyone to love coz im in a pathetic boys school and i've always been in a pathetic boys school all my life... i think my mom is just afraid i get divert my attention somewhere else from where i should be focusing my attention on... but honestly isn't the fact that your son may be homosexual even scarier than the fact that your son ends up a Casanova and elopes with 3 wives to some godforsaken land in Kathmandu? I don;t get parents.. when i become a parent i am so going to put my son or daughter in a mix school... love, my children! love! just don;t have underage sex...

i stil can't forget the times when i was in primary school and i looked at some sec 1s and 2s who came from st pats to visit st stepehens and they are like wah i hate my parents man they don;t understand me and i;m like i am never gonna feel that my parents always understand me and I always am in the right... well after primary school, i have gotten very much rebellious both on teachers and my mother... like my mother does not understand the need for a teenager to socialise with his friends and get to know others by going out... or they don't understand privacy or whatsoever... but I understand them why they do this for us, but I still have to always give the expression like ," fine, i'll go to my room emoing...." but i never mean it..

isn't it better to let your child go out rather than he do it behind your back? I am a 100 percent sure my brothers have done that worse than i have..i am affirmative and my sisters definitley..oh my younger sis is a damn lousy liar i can tell when she's lying so damn easily.. she'll always gaze to the left and her mouth would sitll be open and my mom would be like where di you go.. and they'll be like.. "remedial lah where else" she'll leave her mouth open and stare to the left..always... sorry sis.. been there done that never works... my mom probably knows haha... but i don't think my way of lying is that bad, because i'm so used to it xD

rhetorically, do they know? no i dont think so... my mom is quite the innocent type and that's why even in her office she is getting used. She;s a tough worker but not the brainy type. no idea about those cunning foxes around....

I really want to socialise and hang out with my parents knowing... I hate sneaking around, it;s the only reason why i keep this blog secret ..coz of my 4 other siblings probably nosing about what i;ve been doing and what i've been hiding...

class gonna start in 3 mins...

~kums~