im trying not to look back at anger..but honestly how can u not? it's almost so sudden and natural and even essantial; without it you just aren't a human. Even gods have anger...they use it for the good and for the bad..but there's always a balance. We have to have really angry people to get some changes taking place..like people who openly criticize who would hurt our feelings and make us maybe feel ocstracized from the world. And,it's a feeling everyone probably felt. Like even as mundane as a trip on an mrt and u realise you're the one with the darkest skin in the train..or you go to a heavy metal concert and you're the only one wearing a pink shirt..or to make it more controversial.. you're the only one who's a jew and you face prejudice every corner you turn to. The reason for this; results in anger. Worse than mother nature's hurricane katrina or whatever... anger>destruction>someone getting hurt>someone close to him getting hurt and the cycle goes on... and someone will get hurt if someone else gets hurt coz there's always someone there for everyone... even though you are tghe last guy from ur family line..there's somebody who would feel some empathy.

so is there someone feeling empathy for me now? coz i;m so fucking pissed at what my sis and mom just said.. i have no idea why they say its for my welfare... i asked her to sign some forms..one being the PSL form and there she goes, ranting about how she didnt want me to be a psl coz the workload is alot..like WTF? she already told me its alright that i can be one..with hockey. Then she said..then u better quit hockey coz it is the root of all ur problems.. wth??? in sec 1 didnt i prove my mettle by being consistent..maybe this year i didn't coz i was playing a fool. term 1 i proveed my self..term 2 was when i salcked and so did i in term 3...not because i had hockey? hockey ended in early term 3... and finally i prove myself worthy ENOUGH in fye and then she says i got this coz there wasn't any hockey. sigh... i tried arguing back..but two women making obsolete and meaningless remarks that they think are correct make no one's life easier except them whho are the "judges"... of course they would feel they're right..my hockey is like shit now.. and she wants me to qut.. NO WAY! if it even results me to leaving the fucking house hell yeah! i'm not a softie like i always was.. i'm gonna have what i want when i need..when its necessary. I've never asked for a platystation or whatever..and never will i..i didn;t ask for a nice trip to australia or whatever.all im asking is just for me to continue what i wanna do in school..is tt so hard? its equivalent to having fun

and what i hate about it...is how she didnt walk the talk.. she already said i can do whatever i want during the holidays...that why i already have a fucking line up ready

LAMDA,training,ace camp,psl camp,drum lessons at dixies/jam with dillon and hass (reuben left the band and i aslo haver tuition for math and physics and chem getting ready..