i probably hardly had an emo post to date.. and im hoping tmrw wont be an emo post..i just hope my results will be something that i can joyfully blog about

tmrw is results.. and im so not ready for it! and plus tmrw is motley crue.. i just hope i dont go for the concert half hearted coz my results suck..but im positive and i did my best so i have nothing to lose..anyway..newsflash!i'm a psl but i think others deserve it more than me..like coleman..haiz..i dunno why jude tan judge like tt!!

i also realised im kind of getting irritated by things and people more easily..especially mosquitoes they are really getting on my nerves..bite here,there and everywhere... they seriously are the worst pests..coz they are so frking light u wont know when they bite you..actually lizards are worse coz of their sickly appearance..

so today, was quite packed again..but not with excitement. Went to school to pass the ace camp documents to pe dept..but wen there nobody was there..got damn pissed..like wasted my bus fare and fucking 2 hrs travel time..then after tt took bus to orchard and took train to city hall and stoned there for a while until ribbon and dillon came to jam at dan;s.. wanted to go jade's but was booked..

today's jam was unprogressive..-.-" can't stand it..we're like going nowhere! and ribbon..if u're reading this i think i better tell u directly..please stop cracking...its only going to worsen ur health.. and ffor the welfare of the band and us..coz we care for u..i noe im probably a dick for saying this on my blog..but dillon and i cant take it. And i know i should have told u this directly...but im a penis with no balls and im a frking coward coz i have no guts to tell u tt in person.

i think im a frking weeenie. coz im not escalatin in life..im just downgrading..im a frking coward who cant express his own feelings and im just a sensitive butch.. i dunno why im like tt but..i cant be spontaneous and like super open minded..and i dunno but im changing alot...and i dont like the way its going...

and i wanted to tell this to someone..but yet again i have no guts to hurt his feelings..and jst a hint.. ur someone very close to me and i wont expose ur name

ode to somebody

stop waving those flags
like a door with no latch
ur clothes went out the window
when u screamed about her
u'r never gonna be noticed
no matter how hard u keep trying
u seek someone to attend to you
but no one sees u
stop throwing ur mask
just leave it on








i wont tell anyone who it's about.. but its pretty obviopus who its' about i dun intend to make it rhyme or whatever im just telling this to tt someone coz i have no ghuts to tell it to him in person

like i have guts myself? no ... but o0noly way to do good to people around me wen i cant do anything about myself ..is to tell them whats wrong with em..dont get me wrogn .im just telling this to you coz ur my friend