I had a plush. Did you?

have u ever tought. that maybe, you are this only and lonley character in this world. And that everyone else around you..are just characters of a play and they simply..revolve around you. Like as if..they were aliens who could actually survive without food,water,light...love? pretty scary isn't it. And maybe even..like when you're asleep.. they are all gathered up in some stuffy room.. conspiring in their alien language, what to do.. and god.. is simply, the director of this fancy play. and your mother, the producer?

But just imagine.. all that ocstracizing.. all that fake love and hate.. all that false feelings. All that ploy an crap. And what's worse.. is the very painful thing of thinking of that possibility. Like cobain interpreted.. i think im dumb, or maybe just happy? and it does make a hell load of sense. As simple as how in ww2 or ww1.. wwhere if you actually knew too much.. you had to be captured and kept captive in the concentration camps.. just like those who thought the nazis were just malicious beasts of the universe.... and the more you try to revolt against them..the more you are "marked" and kept watched upon. And when they do capture you... you're as good as dead. Family, shelter, love, friends.. are just as good as dust to you. and just as good as gone. Your lie becomes a hell hole.. witH only the possibility of you thinking that "god isn't fair".. that "god isn't there" . And your atheist believes lead you to be absolute pessmists.. Such that you see no light in everything..until that very day you get your wish; to die and be free of all these horrendous scourges of the universe.. so..if they do say; to survive in this geoid.. is to outwit. Do take it indirectly.. rather than literally.. to outiwt..means to act dumb and play along. That..is .if you want to sruvive..not to be a "saviour".. to be a survivor.. is not to be a saviour.
I actually happened to think of that when i was like around.. 6 or 7 years old. because of the simple theory; my mom doesnt tell me where babies come from..my dad doesn't let me use his shaver. They must be conspiring something against me. Like the shaver could be a "cryptex" or whatever... to the codes of this ploy of a universe.. and if i found where babies come from.. maybe they came from some fancy machine of slime..

weird.. but well..isn't there a show about it? the truman show. Gosh.. that movie really answered all my questions;that what i've been thiking of..is just plain bullshit!